Feel For Him

set up and stand out

throw up and breathe aloud

he can't stop this

nor will he try

he is fighting demons

he can no longer hide,

drop down to his level

feel what he deals with

you walk around and laugh allowed

are you really that happy??

or are you just as worse off

as everyone else

while she dresses up

she wants to be a princess

daddy's little girl

well he's gone now

so it will stop here

these different lives

all add up..they aren't as happy

as they may seem..

as they may seem..

and..

he is fighting demons

he can no longer hide

drop down to his level

feel what he deals with

empty bottles and broken homes

if you go tonight please don't leave me alone

you need someone with you

or you'll never be satisfied

falling back to amy from last week

sunday night was a blast

nine months later not so fun

well he's gone now..

and when he falls to his knees

will you hear him out?

or is it just another part of life?

too late..he is gone now..

yes..he is gone!!

so lay beside her

tell her how much you appreciate

all she has done for you

and keep the memories intact

because she'll be gone..soon enough..

so..

he is fighting demons

he can no longer hide

drop down to his level

feel what he deals with

let him be,he's not your joke

or what you think he is

cause you never know..

you never ever know..

what goes on inside his home..

Lucy

A man once said to me

"boy why you look so down"

i replied to that man just to see..

all i recieved was a gazing frown

When he told her what he thought

Lucy began to cry,she'd never been

so in love lord,please don't let her forget to

die,die,die,die

And i never made it..so willingly

oh no,no,she gave it..

she'd never leave it out like that

but that man never seen it commin'

Oh yeah she blew him away

oh yes i never should have left him

so alone that day

oh yeah..god save his soul..

oh yeah..oh yeah..

When Lucy touched his lips

and took his hand..

she then began to understand

what it takes..yes..

I never should have let him be

i wish i could have let her see

i'd loved to have lost my eyes

so i couldn't see this blinding pain

heading for my eyes..

oh Lucy's eyes..

As he spat upon her grave

he disasembled her life..

he never gave her a second thought

before pulling that trigger..

down,down,down,down

Oh yeah she blew him away

oh yes i never should have left him

so alone that day

oh yeah..god save his soul..

oh yeah..oh yeah..

Just another human casualty

is what i am..

in a world full of treachery

i'm nothing more..

Make it..my soul is gonna break..

make it..how much can she take??

make it..fight for our love..

make it..circle all of thee above..

Oh yeah she blew him away

oh yes i never should have left him

so alone that day

oh yeah..god save his soul..

oh yeah..oh yeah..

"Many Ways"

In Many Ways

things won't change

i'll still sit around

thinking of what could have been

But I can't stop this feelin'

shootin' straight for the head

feeling naucious my stomach is

burning from the inside out

But then again....

feelings can be deceiveing

and hearts can change

accordingly....

and when I flip you over

i will find all your faults

to prove that your not perfect

it just comes out to seem that way

and the little arrogant struts

totally blew me away

proving once again

you're superior to me

But then again....

feelings can be deceiveing

and hearts can change

accordingly....

By the time my chance

passes me by

i will be so punch-drunk

with indignity....

i will fall hard enough

to hear the past

and my dependence for you

grew each and every day

by the time you had left

i had crippled myself beyond repair

But then again..

feelings can be deceiveing

and hearts can change

accordingly....

Have you felt this comin'??

'cause i have been now

for weeks....

and it all boils down to one thing....

But then again..

feelings can be deceiveing

and hearts can change

accordingly....

I Wish

my body's numb with callousness

and it's tired of your adolescent charm

you can get anything..

you could have anyone..

and i wonder..

is my charm wearing off??

or don't you care anymore??

don't you care anymore??..

did you ever care at all??!!..

so i'll stay back

aware of your situation

and wondering if it's how you want it to be

or if you just keep it that way

but do you think i'll believe what you're saying

and back the things you're doing

things aren't the same

forever revolving around your every move

around your every mood..

and i'll crack a smile

leaving you unaware of how i'm feeling

i'll make you believe i'm happy

and that i'm doing better..

i couldn't be better..

and i wonder..

is my charm wearing off??

or don't you care anymore??

don't you care anymore??..

did you ever care at all??!!..

and i'm so awkward..

i'm so strange..

i wonder how could you feel about me??

i wish you could feel my intentions

they are all good..

and set for your happiness

but at times it seems

i am supporting a lost campaign

just hoping that your smile would mean more

like you wanted to be with me

you couldn't be without me..

but things like that only come in dreams

dreams of laying beside you

and hanging out until 3 in the morning

and staring into your beautiful eyes..

and i wonder..

is my charm wearing off??

or don't you care anymore??

don't you care anymore??..

did you ever care at all??!!..

will you ever care at all??

Good Bye

with that goodbye we parted our ways

from this point we can't look back

nothing else we can do will be the same

but tonight we have to be ready

to start our lives from tommorrow on out

thoughtless of what or could have happened

and sometimes i get so scared

what if you forget?

what if i'm just another boy in a photograph

on your wall?

but that's not how i want to be remembered

i wanted to be your prince charming

but my mistakes were unbearable and thoughtless

my insecurities ate me alive and i gave up there

maybe i should have thought about you

instead of how i was feeling

maybe i was wrong

who knows..

and sometimes i get so scared

what if you forget?

what if i'm just another boy in a photograph

on your wall?

but we have made a promise

we can't let it break this time

like the last three..

maybe if we smile real hard

things will be brighter

maybe if we try real hard

things will be happier

then all the qoutes will change

and i will have nothing in my defense

nothing left to say or do

just watch somebody else breathe you..

Feelings

and the feelings change

in such mysterious ways

and i'm so disturbed by

the result of all of this

so freightening and i'm so impatient

waiting for the next sign

to crush all hopes of

regaining happiness....

regaining control....again....

and writing is just another

form of self mutilation

reopening the once gaping holes

in my heart....

and all i want is a total nirvana

peace,and heaven all in one

giving me something to pray for

yet again....

i know it's coming....

i know you're coming....

some day....

one day to blow me off my feet

and giving me all i have ever wanted

and that i need....

you'll fill the void,left open

by her....

make me forget all the wrong doing

brought upon my complex thoughts

so with this i will finalize it

i'm selling myself to you..

and the price is nothing more than your love....

Last Try

Every good bye opens up

room for a new hello

let the past slip away slowly

move into the future at full speed

i'm ready to live..

i'm ready to die..

i'm ready to love..

i'm ready to cry..

when there is nowhere to run

and nowhere to hide

i'll be waiting behind you

watching from the outside

where i can taste the pain

hold you up to the light

shut you away

keep you safer over here

if i was stronger

i could be your lover

if i was brighter

i could be your sun

i would fight with your nightmares

just to make your days a breeze

i would break down the walls

confiding you in your loneliness

i'm ready to live..

i'm ready to die..

i'm ready to love..

i'm ready to cry..

Spit

your smile stands out

laught it up

now's your time

you got what you wanted

as for me not so lucky

it's ok..i will show you someday

fall away from me

i don't want to know

what you've got there for me

hidden behind those jaded eyes

my sarcastic hints are only forced out

by wanting you to withdrawl without me

so i will spit out the taste of your mouth

and run as far as i can get

when my veins fill up with anger

i blow it all out,no more time

no more will,i'll shut you out

i'm unreachable now

and as a zombie my body still roams

no feeling of togetherness

no feeling of home

all that's left..is the breath in my lungs

my sarcastic hints are only forced out

by wanting you to withdrawl without me

so i will spit out the taste of your mouth

and run as far as i can get

and when i hit the bottom

i will search as low as i can

to seek the dark crevesce you hide in

that in which is stopping me from homeliness

different(edit)

i cant stand it when im around you

you make me wish i never knew you

im sorry for whatever the hell i have done to you

because i dont know so will you tell me?

{please}

i dont care right now

so what i dont belong

you think im different

but this is were i belong

so dont tell me know

because i could care less

it doesnt bother me either which way

you know you make me regret it

dont pull me down this is were i belong

you think im different dont you?

i dont care right now

so what i dont belong

you think im different

but this is were i belong

so just forget it all

im so lonely now

this is were i belong

you think im different but i dont care at all-

friend

-through thick and thin you are my skin

the one true friend from within

a person you need to survive

a person to help you in your strive

through my sickness in health

you are my only true wealth

a friendship to last for eternity

thoughout this world of great diversity

friendships are growing stronger

we will last a hell of alot longer

our friendship is a stronger kind of love

only of one that could be sent from above

through thick and thin you are my skin

the one true friend from within

a person you need to survive

a person to help you in your strive

noone could never tear this friendship apart

we will always be connected at heart

neither of us will be left behind

just because of our friendship bind-

^{written by eric.}

long run

-i need someone to relate to.

not just a friend but a companion.

some one thats likes what i am not what ive got.

but now im stuck on it.

which one to take?

which one to break?

and i dont know what to say....

i need the one i can trust.

the one to believe in us.

the one thats in it for the long run.

no cheap thrills.

but now im stuck on it.

which one to take?

which one to break?

and i dont know what to say....

where to go from here

what to say from there

just need you to be there for me

for me

but now im stuck on it.

which one to take?

which one to break?

and i dont know what to say....-

daddy

daddy

where are you now?

you left me behind

how?

i am your son.

but yet im not the only one

you left behind

and i wonder am i still on your mind?

you left me and its like you never even cared

you werent there whenever i was scared

at my first game where you there?

huh?were you daddy?were you there?

daddy

where are you now?

you left me behind

how?

you could atleast have called

but now its your fault you dont get involved

i know i still love you

but do i know that you love me too?

why did you do it?

and why did i have to go through it?

is it all my fault?

all my fault?

all my fault?

daddy

were are you now?

you left me behind

how?

daddy

where are you now?

you left me behind

how?

silence

the silence doesnt bother me anymore

like it did before

im so fucked up and insecure

well aware but not assure

why cant i understand

take forth in this big demand

i hate this feeling that burns inside

something i can no longer hide

you said you would always be mine

but look what we found out in time

i dont trust you nor will i ever

this pain inside will last forever

im the one left to cry

left lying there to die

i lived on your call

and was there to take your fall

then i hear about all this shit

i believe its time to quit

i hate this feeling that burns inside

something i can no longer hide

you said you would always be mine

but look what we found out in time

i loved you..........

fade

my soul has died today

but my body continues to linger on

my life has slowed down

but is not fully gone

every man dies

no man ever really lives

but yet his life he gives

just to please you......

just wait till he leaves you.....

and you will fade away......

but your life with always stay

and you will fade away......

i will never let your soul go astray.......

yeah........yeah.......

taste the pain of glory

your burnt out i know

but we all will remember your story

and your burnt out that i know

so i will guide you in the direction to go

and you will fade away......

but your life with always stay

and you will fade away......

i will never let your soul go astray.......

yeah........yeah.......

you must fade away......

nothing good will stay.....

just thank god for today....

and continue to pray......

for what tommorrow brings may throw you off guard

leaving you lonely and empty

and you will fade away......

but your life with always stay

and you will fade away......

i will never let your soul go astray.......

yeah........yeah.......

and you will fade away......

its better to burn out then to fade away......

^{written by eric.}

breaking down

im breaking down

yeah...

down

welcome to the academy of unsatisfactory

where your life counts and adds on ounce by ounce

save me before i drift too far away

until i fall black and fade away

down...

yeah im down...

please think for me

because i cant bare to

and i would talk to you

but its not fair to

i try to find someone to help me in this position

but there is no one i see to fit the description

i walked to town looking for the down house

but all i found was a bloody blouse

it all was an illusion

a sane illusion

the intelect transfusion

just a fuckin' illusion

i looked at the mirror and sighed

for as my true self has died

oh yes im sorry i could have lied

so i went to the temple and cried

please think for me

because i cant bare to

and i would talk to you

but its not fair to

please think for me

because i cant bare to

and i would talk to you

but its not fair to

and its not fair to.....

universe

i opened my eyes

to find the love left between us

this feeling of emptiness inside

left by you as you went away

i got up out of my room today

to open my eyes and see your touch

to watch you grace my universe

because your tears are the rain upon my world

your smile brings out the sun

and your eyes are like a thousand lost promises

you are my universe

when i wake up to your quiet whispers

it makes me want to give up all that i own

just to stay in that moment

because your tears are the rain upon my world

your smile brings out the sun

and your eyes are like a thousand lost promises

you are my universe

waking up today wasnt the same........

you werent there....

you are my universe

hide

dont worry

dont worry ...girl

i said don't leave me

don't leave me...girl

and we can go hiddddddeeee away

c'mon......yeah.......

uh.....yeah........

all the people trying to bring us down

time to show them whose got the power......yeah......

i am here and i know you all.........

i'll get you near then i'll take your fall

(five minute long solo)

uh.......c'mon........

uh.......c'mon giiiiiiiiiirl.......

dont worry

dont worry

i said dont leave me

dont leave me

and we can go hide

we can go hide

we can go hiddddddddeeeeee

awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy

you know i don't know

be you could help me understand....

yeahhhh....

hide where none can see

we can play and be free

fuck the world girl

your with me

walk alone

(change again

change again)

here i go..

changing again

aging again

playing your games again...

i walk alone

through narrows corners of my brain

i walk alone

down new paths that look the same...

i see my own

life fly right past me

i see my own

life but its not what i want to see

im coming home soon...

yes...im coming home soon...

here i go..

changing again

aging again

playing your games again...

and i walk alone

through narrows corners of my brain

i walk alone

down new paths that look the same...

i walk alone...

yeah.....

i love alone

fake it

youve got to pull me together

youve got to hold me forever

lost me in the back track

lost me in the last face smack

so pick it up for the last time

so pull it off,just one more ryhme

i dont believe her,she feeds it one day

and i dont belive her,shes always gone away

~*solo*~

i drew the line here

i drew the face of fear

to attain me from the,depths of your emptiness....

smile at me,please

show me you care....

or atleast fake it for me....

youve got to pull me together

youve got to hold me forever

lost me in the back track

lost me in the last face smack

workin'

bitch,bitch,bitch

is all she ever does

bitch,bitch,bitch

everyday because

she's workin' 7 days a week

making enough money

to make two end's meet

so your pressin' your luck

walking down that street

again

kissy kissy

make up to me

kissy kissy

make up with me

and you always had a pretty face...yeah.....

she's workin' 7 days a week

making enough money

to make two end's meet

so your pressin' your luck

walking down that street

again

*solo*

little lies is what you tell

don't wrong me girl

what the hell

is wrong??

oh yeah.....

trippin' up on your lips

girl,girl,girl

you know i want...i want...i want it all!!

she's workin' 7 days a week

making enough money

to make two end's meet

so your pressin' your luck

walking down that street

again

you,me

can you see me,through your blindness

can you hear me,through your kindness

yeah....

can you help me,i am sinking

i can't help you while your thinking

and i have only one thing....to say to you

it was great....lovin' you

the past is haunting....that i know

and i'm glad of it....for sure

can you see me,through your blindness

can you hear me,through your kindness

~solo~

it was made up to be bigger than it was

i'll admit it was bigger than i

and i will always remember you because

with you is how i forver want to lye

can you see me,through your blindness

can you hear me,through your kindness

i never saw your loving,beating heart

i should of just believed it was there,from the start

you made it all so wonderful

can you see me,through your blindness

can you hear me,through your kindness

"b"

i haven't slept in days

thinking about the same thing

and it hurts me in so many ways

and when i turn on the t.v. it's hell

it reminds me of laying with you

and your beautiful smell

and my days just aren't the same

i don't have you to be kissing

and i know i'm the one to blame

so i will have to keep on missing

you....

this weather outside reflects my feelings

rainy,wet and cold

and as i lay here looking at the ceiling

i think of you,happy,smiling and bold

~solo~

and my days just aren't the same

i don't have you to be kissing

and i know i'm the one to blame

so i will have to keep on missing

you....

resting here,my pillow's covered in tears

and i just keep on thinking

i am so shook up with fear

how's tommorrow gonna be??

without you....

without you....

and my days just aren't the same

i don't have you to be kissing

and i know i'm the one to blame

so i will have to keep on missing

you....

anthem to em

your wonderful to talk to

your smiles so beautiful

and i just wish i could get with you

my friend for a year

my closest confidant

with you i have no fear

so i will just wait around

until you think of me

i will be standing there without a sound

i've blown a chance before

not knowing of it

this time it won't pass me up for sure

i just don't think you understand

that i could feel this way about you

but i do....

yes i do....

i have for awhile now

so i will just wait around

until you think of me

i will be standing there without a sound

~solo~

so i will just wait around

until you think of me

i will be standing there without a sound

i wish we could start to talk

but i have no luck like that

i just hope you don't begin to walk

away from me....

so i will just wait around

until you think of me

i will be standing there without a sound

screaming

pull over please

i need time to think

she said "whatever"

and now shes gone

forever....

so i said aloud

if i am screaming

will you hear me??

because that's the only way

i seem to get through

to you

i am trying to think back

to the happy days

stayin' up all night

sayin' i love you

i love you....girl

~solo~

so i said aloud

if i am screaming

will you hear me??

because that's the only way

i seem to get through

to you

now i am singin' alone

in the shower and thinkin'

what is my motivation

and this is it

this is it

i said this is it!!

and i'm ready to forget the reasons

that i was with you for so long

so long....

so i said aloud

if i am screaming

will you hear me??

because that's the only way

i seem to get through

to you

to you....

crucify me

i'm tired,fed up and stoned..

sick of your problems..

wanna hear mine?

love it when you break

thrive on your handicaps

just give me time

time is all we want

crucify me in the morning

and stone me by night

i love it when you're angry

i love it when we fight

confuse brain cells

against a stereo head wall

jump off the inter-plaque way

just let back and feel the fall

save yourself from this

drop the pen in that split second

stand back from the firey fists

of your significant other..

crucify me in the morning

and stone me by night

i love it when your angry

i love it when we fight

when we fight...

~solo~

crucify me in the morning

and stone me by night

i love it when your angry

i love it when we fight

crucify me in the morning

and stone me by night

i love it when your angry

i love it when we fight

when we fight...

Care?

can you even see me?

do you even care?

will you ever need me?

will i be there?

everthings so crowded

and everyones so loud

i feel like i'm surrounded

i see through all it now

laying here beside myself

i took out all my fears

and hung them on my shelf

things been hiding away for many years

i hear the cars go screaming

right past my head

as i try to lay there dreaming

in my callous bed

can you even see me?

do you even care?

will you ever need me?

will i be there?

~solo~

can you even see me?

do you even care?

will you ever need me?

will i be there?

my thoughts are all so crumpled

my thoughts are all so worn

me feelings are so trampled

me feelings are all torn

i feel no more reasons

or lies left here to stay

so i fear all my treasons

will kill me here today

so i will see you later

maybe in another life

and i can be your savior

to disguise all your strife

can you even see me?

do you even care?

will you ever need me?