May 19th 2002 - January 20th 2007
Hello and welcome to the story of Mike and Sabryn.
A chronological look over the years of how this relationship has/had stayed together through good times and strife. Sometimes I feel it has to be "on paper" for those to remember how Love can work.. Even in the strangest of Moments..
Travel back to a day in March. Exact date does not matter. I was introduced to Sabryn through her soon to be ex-sister in law who is not the honest of people but everything she explained about Sabryn was true. It took about 2 months or so, but on May 19th 2002, Mike and Sabryn said there first words to each other. Mike being the ever so subtle one said "Hiya Babes".. Haha talk about smooth and who knows why she did like that bold apporach considering who she is, but Sabryn and Mike continued to talk for a few hours that first night.
At the time her children were 9,4 and 2. Mike never had a problem knowing that hopefully they will like him in ways that they can accept him in their lives, yet he worried about this for quite a while. 1 would say to this very day, he tends to worry about this still.
It was a year that Mike and Sabryn first dealt with and continue to deal with obstacles in the way. Looking back, there was not much we as a couple could have done differant. As the year progressed and they got to know more about each other, Mike knew he had someone who believed in him and she had someone who loved her, but in what way ?? She had never experianced caring in such vocal and a emotional level.
At one time, this same exact site had countdowns of when we belived everything would be so good. We could begin to think when togetherness could be attained not only as boyfriend and girlfriend, yet so much more.
2002 ended but they have yet to scratch the surface. It is unfortunate that they never actually met during this year, but it would not be too long in 2003 before they finally did meet.
When Love is new, they say it is never better then the beginning. In some ways that is true because 2003 will always be my favorite year with Sabryn so far. Yet.. I know once we do live under 1 roof... 1 name... that will be our greatest year and every year after will even be sweeter.
2003 did start on a down note. The countdown had ended in Jan. but the song remained the same as they say. It was not Mike or Sabryns fault, but there was a tension that they waited so long and were now told they may have to wait even longer. Neither was going to let that happen.
After a couple weeks, on a day in March 2003, Mike and Sabryn first came together visually. Mike had the day off and Sabryn was available, so they set up a spot {super K mart no less.. LOL} and got ready.. Mike and Sabryn both love wearing leather clothing and not sure if each thought the other was going to, so they wanted to suprise each other. Mike wearing his black leather pants and jacket and when he came to the SuperK door there was Sabryn.. Stunning in her butterscotch leather pants and jacket with a white top underneath. In some ways Sabryn did her eyes in a way I never saw again and know she has since but that day was ultimate perfection.
They had Chinese for lunch. Mike asked Sabryn if she wanted to meet the now famous Miss Bianca.. My dog who at this time was almost 8 years old..
Heading off track, I can think of 7 differant times over the years that although Sabryn has looked beautiful in jeans and a sweater, these moments stand out. It is by no suprise that the majority is her in Leather..
#7 "Annie Oakley" western leather with fringe. She looked tremendous in that.
#6 Leather Pants during a falls trip. More to come on this one.
#5 A very nice Black dress she wore to a wedding we went to. That night was truly incredible and most enjoyable.
#4 Leather Butterscotch Outfit ~ Our First day in person
#3 Leather Skirt with Zebra Animal Print. She knows how much I Love this one, and have seen her in this look a great deal.. Could look at her in this way every day given the choice.
#2 Leather Skirt with a tight Leopard Top. One would say she brings out the complete animal in me ;)
#1 Leather Pants when we went Xmas shopping 1 evening. That night I felt like the luckiest man on the face of the earth. I know I caught a man or 2 looking at her amazed.. I recall stopping to look at a toy and she kept walking.. I looked over and the leather pants she wore were new and had so much shine.. I admit it took everything I had to not grab her ass in public.
As 2003 started to move forward, we found ways to be together. Why ?? Because she was in process of divorce that had taken a couple years by now. As much as she wanted to follow the rules, she broke them for me. At that time I felt very special that she would always want to be with me since she risked further explaination to a judge about dating before the divorce was final.
By July 2003 all that was left was signing the divorce papers basically. We started to go on trips to Niagra Falls and our favorite spot is a Pizza Place on Victoria Ave. We always get a New Your Style Pizza and some Garlic Bread. They have good pasta as well !!
Sept 2003 we planned a trip to the falls... Sept 5/6 to be exact. I remember us walking down Clifton Hill in our leathers {see #6} and we went up to our room later and made Love. I know almost everything that happened that night still to this day. It was the pinnacle of our love-making yet we do try to top it when we are able to spend time together.
By now Sabryn and I saw each other alot.. mostly weekends and by early October, we planned another trip to the falls.. The 3rd in about 4 months which was ok.. we really have a great time when we go...
The night before Sabryn spent the night. She had a feeling... That morning, she took a test and it was positive.. They had made a child on that Sept. Falls trip. Mike's first child and Sabryn's fourth but most important... The child was ours..
We went to my folks.. They were elated and we went up for the weekend.. At our favorite pizza place, we sat by the window overlooking the street.. 2nd table past the door and held each others hand.. This is the area the child was conceived... This will be where we talk baby names..
Boy ~ Nickolas James
Girl ~ Juliet Cassandra
Each picked a first name and a middle name. Mike picking the Boy's first and Girl's Middle names and Sabryn.. the Girl's first and Boy's middle names..
2003 was a highlight year. Sabryn's divorce was final in November and until the holidays, everything was bright.. At the holidays, Sabryn was having further medical issues that have affected her for a few years.. Mike always knew and wished he could do so much but Sabryn can be hard-headed at times and always puts on a brave front on in front of Mike..
In Jan. Sabryn was seeing Doctors as she was not feeling better. In between, ultra-sound pictures were taken and confirmed that our child was a Boy. From that moment on, he became Nickolas James, yet the Doctors were very concerned with Sabryn's health. At 1 point, there was a option they believed was correct to relate to us.
To get better, Sabryn would have to terminate the pregnancy. Or continue and risk losing her own life to have this child.
Nickolas was due on June 10th and it was still only Feb, yet the cutoff point was Feb 19th or 20th to legally terminate the pregnancy. Sabryn chose to continue and Mike supported her, yet feared just what would happen over the next 4 months. They knew it was in God's hands now.
The cutoff day came and went, but sadly on Feb 22nd, God took it into his own hands and Mike and Sabryn lost Nickolas James. The hospital did honor the request that although not officially stillborn as by law, since not as much time had gone by legally to be determined pre-mature, that Mike and Sabryn would have their child's remains to be cremated and so he would be with us as we go through life together.
I decided to open this site again in Jan. 2006 so as of this writing, it will soon be 2 years since that day. Although we are still together at this time and yet to get under 1 roof, that right now Mike is taking care of the urn and sometimes I think Sabryn does not understand that I Love her more each day not for willing to risk her life to have Nickolas, but the person she is and what she can offer. 1 day I believe we shall all be under 1 roof. Mike, Sabryn, the Kids, and Nickolas and it will be a home of Love.
For the rest of 2004, we saw each other quite a bit through many changes in our lives.. After some time, Sabryn was back at work while Mike left his job and moved out of his apartment in the fall. Sabryn started to go with Mike and his parents to Salamanca Casino and loved playing video poker. I watched her with the same excitement that I am sure my folks saw in me the first time I went to Vegas in the early 1990's. Soon enough Mike and Sabryn would go up for the weekend as a change of pace from the falls..
It was also the 1st year we started watching horse racing in person. Sabryn who loves horses was interested in going and we have fun everytime we go. I guess we might both agree about a horse I had a couple bucks on threw the jockey and started running around the whole track. Needless to say, he came in 2nd, so since Mike likes to bet across the board, it was nice to see that wild horse still have enough in him to help us out...
By the end of 2004, Mike had been on a whirlwind of gambling and won and lost quite a bit over the last 3 months of the year. Unfortunatly the losses mounted up and although not a public service announcement... He needed to remember what limits meant.. He lost control..
Still, once out of his system and after that time period since, Mike will never bring more then $200 to a casino anymore. This is rare anyways because they haven't spent much time in casino's since. There were more to do for the relationship to even strengthen their bond.
In November Mike and Sabryn had plans to buy a home that we really loved since we first saw it about 5 months previously. This was another time that I looked at Sabryn in a differant light. Our time had come !!
2005 was going to be our year and 1 that would finally take us further. There was still some money issues with Sabryn from her marriage and they were to be resolved soon. In some ways, I feel we have made our first and only mistake while together. We waited for the money issue to be resolved first... When 2 people love each other they live through trials and tribulations as 1.
Nothing else should ever matter in Love.
2004 ended with hope and promise, yet due to the money issues, Mike and Sabryn had to pull the bid on the home. Still, they knew the future was only getting brighter as a couple.
I do not believe anyone saw what 2005 was going to bring to Mike and Sabryn's lives. The test of faith begins for the 2 of them.
Part of me will never understand 2005. In some ways it became 2002 again as Mike and Sabryn had a rough time seeing each other in the early part of the year. That is when Mike realized that he was honestly happy being in a couple with Sabryn. So many of his relationships ended in flames, that he just sat back and thought how much he cares for this woman. Many women say they are angels, yet Sabryn is one.
Springtime everything picked up and they knew that sometimes it is rough to go away for whole weekends, that they stayed local and decided to try their luck at Bingo. Mike likes it and being a rookie would get excited all the time and stare at his cards, while Sabryn being a veteran of the game would just rip off that section and throw it in the trash and move on to the next game.
Salamanca has a bingo place and they visited it a couple times in 2005. I love these trips as they are times we can definatly be as 1 together. If I had the money, I would take her around the world. Sadly I once did.
June of 2005 Sabryn took a 3 day test to improve her career. She scored excellant yet a minor technicality stops her from advancing further. I am very proud she did that well and even belive she was quite suprised.
In July 2005 we went to Salamanca for Sabryn's birthday and after probably 300 games of Bingo over the last few months, Mike finally pulls out the win and our 1st together. Sabryn who has always been unfortunate to be around Mike during his good luck was away from the table at the time.
A couple hours later Sabryn wins as well. They head for home that night and he kisses her goodnight when he drops her off.
They saw each other 1 more time the rest of 2005 :(
Why ?? Well.. This is our test of faith. The money situation remained the same.. Illness in her family and just so many odd things happened up through Halloween that they just couldn't connect to be together.
November 2005 came and 2 incidents that happened at the same time started a chain reaction of where we are right now I feel.
#1 For her job, Sabryn has been going 1000 miles away during the week and is home on the weekends.
#2 Mike's Mom has been diagnosed with inoperable cancer
The one time they did get together in the last 5 months of 2005, they talked and spent the better part of a Saturday together, There was talk of where we stood and where we can go as a couple. The talk was very positive and Mike and Sabryn knew that once the traveling ended at the start of the year, they could concentrate on making 2006 the year they finally become 1 and be a family. As for Mike's Mom, Mike and Sabryn pray for her health as it will be a long road and task to face. They think only positive thoughts.
2005 ended with Mike helping his Mom taking her to treatments. Sabryn 1000 miles away doing her job. Her children need her and the weekends became quiet for Mike and Sabryn as they could not connect. Mike was ready to take their relationship to the next level. Unfortunatly the year ended with them unable to have the chance to open their hearts in person.
Now that I am caught up, any events that happen in our lives will now be written whenever I update on the site.
Feb 22nd 2006
Unfortunatly no news to report as the weekends are still quiet and Mike and Sabryn continue to try and get anytime they can together.. In sticking with the trials and tribulations theme, it now seems that some e-mail is not being delievered by their respective ISP's..
Of course the reason why this was updated is today is the 2nd anniversary of Nickolas's passing. I will never understand why although I do accept it. Yet it seems the "bad days" are harder as time goes by, yet it could be due our current situation at this time.
Happy Birthday Nickolas. We miss you and we Love You.
April 2006
Well.. We had finally spent some time together in March... Not as much as I hoped but we were able to work through some miscommunication and have a great day together.. It seems Sabryn will be traveling back and forth for yet another couple months with the end in sight on June 1st at the most and hopefully we shall be able to spend more time together soon afterwards and get back to achieving the Love that is always present but shown in a more positive way.
There is a evening I have planned for us.. really it has been in the works for quite a while.. As we reconnected together this time, I do hope the next time will be the night I have wanted us to have..
August 2006
April May June & July all went by quietly and when you look through the years, I am amazed as anyone who has found and read this at the change this relationship took about a year ago.. Even more unusual is the fact that the classic traps that hurt a relationship are never present such as unfaithfulness or alcohol or drug addictions that ruin many relationships.
I believe what has hurt this relationship has been the distance that these 2 people now have. Sabryn continues to work 1000 miles away and Mike would like nothing more then a family with Sabryn and her children and the oppertunity they promised each other of trying again to bring another life into this world.
Our conversations have become fewer and farther between as also has our times together in person. I do believe no matter what happens, that this should be documented even if this relationship does last forever because no relationship is secure or can be labeled as content. There will be good times and bad times and the strength of what is in 2 hearts is what makes it survive or die. Nothing More.. Nothing Less..
Regardless. This could be the last update. Phone conversations of Aug 5th find each with a differant direction or agenda in each of their lives at this time.. I have absoulutly no idea what Sabryn thinks about the strength of this relationship and all I ever hear anymore is her job and not us or our future.
From May 19th 2002, there has always been obstacles.. There is a fine line between waiting and wishing and all I wanted was happiness..
Time will tell very soon
October 2006
Came in to look around.. all that has been written.. There has been 50 things I can think of very easily of why this relationship has lasted as long as it has.. Although it hasn't been the best relationship when it comes to 2 people being able to be together, I cannot say that anything previously allowed me to say the end was near nor see it antime soon..
This website was redone in 2006 so I was able to put in all the great things and highlights and the bittersweet as well.. Mike's Mom did go in remission shortly before Mike & Sabryn's March meeting but it seems the cancer has returned..
Part of me doesn't know what to think anymore.. Sabryn still traveling and having medical issues.. Mike's Mom is sick again.. Mike's Pup due to her advanced age is losing her sight, and Mike had to go to court to resolve the monetary losses of 2004 which went well so far...
2005 was to be our year.. I had hoped the same for 2006.. 2007 is 2 months away and communication is at all-time low because of everything going on..
I continue to search for the answers.. any answers..
Well, to those of you who came across this, and saw what was in the title should pretty much explain this is the last update.. Mike asked Sabryn once again to marry him {1st was Jan 2006} and wanted a answer by New Years Eve 2006/2007 and although he knew fairly well the answer he sought, it was confirmed on Jan 20th 2007..
4 Years 8 Months and 1 Day.. I come in here today feeling emotional yet also a sense of closure to add to this webpage became neccessary as soon as possible..
In November 2006.. Bianca was diagnosed with a brain tumor.. As of this writing, she is happy and healthy, but unfortunatly she will not be around to give me the love that a dog gives her owner for very long.. In March it will be 12 years she has been in my life..
My Mom... Not doing good either but I will not elaborate.. Seems 2007 could be a possible sad trend amongst putting my life back together financially and a upbeat positive note that I went back to my old job of 15 years in December.. It only took the 2nd day to feel at home again..
I will always Love Sabryn.. No matter what happens in my life.. I waited my whole life for her yet it seems she is waiting her whole life for someone that I can never be.. It is strange that for 14 months of 99.9% being 1000 miles away, that today hurts the most because she finally told me no on 1-20-07..
She is the mother of my only child.. If there is a heaven, then my apologys to Nickolas will one day be needed that he has a mother and father that did not live their lives as 1.. It is very uncommon in my family that a couple splits with a child involved.. even in Nickolas's case..
We never had a "song".. or I would have typed in the lyrics at the end.. I guess unless we were ever to get together again, then thats it, and Thank You to anyone who ran across this from both of us..
May 9th 2007 Bianca passed away.. I miss her so much
Lost my Mom during this year in August.. She fought almost 3 years but on Aug 29th she lost her battle with cancer.
If time heals all wounds, then one would be led to believe all I know will 1 day be forgiven. This has nothing to do with the bonds that put us together, or the pain that pulled us apart..
I Do Love You
Mike
This page was updated on 10/20/2008 at 2:20 A.M.
