My Journal
12/19/03-Man my lil bro is sooo gay!!! I was just hangin out with him and some of my friends and he acts a fool!!! Well Ne wayz damn i hate winter!!! I cant speed I cant do shit cause there is ice on the ground!!! Well Ne wayz I think Matt Horn likes me and im not really sure!! So Ne wayz i think i wanna get a hair cut!! But just to like shape my face nothing more cause i wanna grow this shit out!!! (shit=hair) So yea i think im bored!!! I need a pretty style cause i want my hair to be kinda more volumish (yes i made up a word) cause it can get pretty flat during the winter!! I dunno....Well yea so I was chillin with Kristina tonight and we went to Kroger (the safeway equilvent 4 those who are not midwesternly inclined) and Miguel and my bro went off an were looking 4 Chris Rivers so yea Kristina was like hey come over here and she was telling me out how at lunch they were playing compare the condoms!!! And she was like the Trojan Twisted Pleasures are the best!! And then she was like when u decide to have sex make sure u try those!!! And she was descrbing to me what they looked like and they look like a corkscrew!!! Wow and that was my exciting night!!! So yea plz explain to me why Matt wants to hang out with me sooo bad (Matt Horn) I think he likes me!!! Well I dunno i will soon find out!!! Talk to ya laterz!!*~~*Des*~~*
12/17/03-OK tomorrow is my big debate!!! And well Im nervous!! So yea i think my teeth are healing pretty well!!! Damn I wish i looked like mother fucking Beyonce! She is soooo pretty!! If i lose hella weight I will be pretty close!!! Im not hella fat but im not skinny either!! So yea well umm i'm in a confusing part of my life right now!! So yea its kinda crazy!! Well yea i think i like someone but Im not sure what exactly sure 2 do!! Plus i think i know someone who could possibly like me but i havent pieced the puzzle together yet!!! So what should I do!! I had a conversation with this person before his detention!! I'm not to sure how we got on this but i was like oh wait i remember now!! K well we were talking about why val didnt ever wanna date him and yea well he was like u are the kinda person who changes the guy they like every week (which i do) and well he was like u proboly dont hold on to a boyfriend to long do u!! And well Im not really a dater person cause im such a flirt!! And well he was like so who would u not date! And i was like ummm DJ Lopez Chad Ellis basically anybody on the football team!! And he was like would u date me?? And i was shocked!! And i said possibly! And he said i will keep that in mind!! And well yea what should i think u guys?? I dunno what 2 do!! E-mail me ur answer when u figure it out dez@columbus.rr.com *~~*Des*~~*
12/12/03-Wow its 11:36 and im waiting to go get my oral surgery done!! How exciting!! Actually I'm scared as hell!! Well Ne wayz one of my close friends back in Cali is getting married!! Congradulations Gaby and Brad!! I havent met Brad but i should go back in my yearbook and take a peek!! Well i was just chillin this morning and it turns out my moms SUV Ford Expedition was stolen and my Christmas present for my dad was in there!!! So that is just wonderful!!! And well what else...Ummmmmm.....Oh I hate my fucking job and i need a new one ASAP!!! Any suggestions and also Im tryin to figure out what i want to Major in in college but nobody is really helpful with that!!! I'm thinkin Biology or maybe Nursing cause then i will be a medical pimp-ette ( I added that 4 u Sam) Also letz c I hate waiting to fing out if i got into OSU and i think that im going to drop precalc cause its a burden on my life right now I have a fucking D+ and that is just not cutting it well bye
12/3/2003-Wow College applications really suck its the same questions for all of them!!! I'm like OMG!!! AHHHHH!!!! Well NE wayz... I hope that i get into OSU cause that seems pretty cool!!! Well i cleaned my room!!! Plz explain to my why my ugly ass neighbor has a fucking crush on me!! He looks like the mother fucking skelotin from Nightmare B4 Christmas that faggot ass mother fucker!!! He is soo sick looking!!! Im like what the fuck!! Ewww u guys have to read this fucking conversation!!! https://www.angelfire.com/oh4/justthecutestuff05/tom.html then read about how i cussed his ass the hell out https://www.angelfire.com/justthecutestuff05/tom2.html
well im going to sleep!! TTYL *~~*Des*~~*
11/23/03 Wow this weekend is boring as hell!!! I dont have shit to do!! And all my friends are off doing other stuffies!!! Well Yea i made a little over 100 dollars the weekend in tips yea go me!! Im going to buy a new cell phone and maybe some new clothes!! I wanna go back to work because Im dying to have some new cute clothes!! Well as 4 my diet that i was on i kinda been slipping!! I'm so dissapointed in myself!! Oh wait another thing that pisses me off is why is it that the fucking Mexican guys at work will not stop touching me!! Im starting to get a little freaked out what should I do!! Im scared as hell dude!! I hate it when they touch me actually its only one but still the other one went back to Mexico and now he's back and i think i might quit cause i cant stand it!! I mean i know i might be pretty and all but keep ur hands off!! Ne wayz one of the mexican guys was like I love u and i was like no u dont u dont know my plus u dont speak my language ( i speak espanol not fluently but i understand it i know enough to have a conversation) and its just gross!!! They are sick like one of them has a kid back in Mexico with a "wife" i guess and he is trying to hook-up with me and hes 21!!! I feel like throwing up!!! Its soo sick!!! Oh also one of the Mexican guys found out that didnt have a boyfriend and now he is all over me!!!! And then i had one of my WHITE guy friends tell him the i was a lesibian (which im not) and he has toned down his touchy feel-ie-ness a little THANK GOD!!! Well i gotta bounce *~~*Des*~~*
11/27/03Bored Im chillin in my study center and I already did my homework so I feel special!!! My high school is playing in the State Semi-Finals tomorrow at 7 at the Crew Stadium and then OSU plays Michigan at Michigan at Noon so that should be pretty exciting!! I sent my appilcation to OSU yesterday and i still havent gotten my damn ACT results yet and that shit is beinning to piss me off!!! Because I wanna know what I got! I must have done pretty bad since i havent gotten them back yet!!! Well NE wayz Im soooo bored and the band is marching thought the hallwayz playing the fight song that i still dont know the words to!!! I know the words to San Mateo's fight song!!! i also still know how to play it!!! orange and black we honor emblem of loyalty proudly waving onward before us leading us to vicory rah rah rah fighting for ol' San Mateo gladly we do or die loudly the answering echo from far and near ring out the cheer for our ol' San Mateo High...S....M....High...fight...SM High...fight fight fight...(then repeat the whole song) its a great song!!! I love it well 6 more minutes of study center left!!! And i dont know what 2 do!!! Im sooo happ i finished my homework like u dont even know!!! Then I got a C+ on my Precalc test that i was struggling in!!! im so happy because Mr. Callahan in amazing at teaching precalc to me cause he actually makes it hella easy!!! Also I want to make my own dress 4 for Prom but i dont have a date ::tears:: but its not til May so there is no use in stressing now right?? Well its time to go so i can stand at the door and wait!!! Until next time.....*~~*Des*~~*
10/27/03-Big Precalc test tomorrow!!! Im so nervous main equation y=Asin(Kx+C)+Vertical Displacement oh boy I will be pissed if i dont pass this test!!! I will cry like a mother fucking baby!! Then my car hates me!!! I was at the movies with Tom my neighbor. Then I was hungry!!! And then that was basically my day! Oh I finish my application for Capital!! Woo Hoo!! Hopefully i get into that shit!! Or else I will cry that is my safety school!! OH HOT guy from physics class was at the ACTs that was cool! ACTs fried my brain!!! And yea thats basically it I cant wait til i have this guy as my lab partner!! I will be soooo happy well ttyl *~~*Des*~~*
10/26/03 bored
10/24/03-Wow I cant belive I failed my SATs!!! Well I didn't fail but I got an 890!! I cant belive this shit what the fuck is wrong with me!! Im not stupid!!! Ahhh this is going to kill me! Im never going to be able to go to college with these scores let alone my fucking grades!! Why me?? I know Im not the best person in the world but why me?? I dont understand! Now i have to work my ass of in college so that i can go to Medical school! Now what i dont understand is why dont ppl belive in me?? I dont understand! My parents think that im going to drop out of school during my first sememster!! I cant belive this I think im making lots of progress with curing my procrationation!!! I have already completed my English Composition paper!! And I need to study 4 my physics test, and then I dunno!! Why cant i just get out of school already. Well letz c what else o precalculus is actually starting to come to me!! FINALLY can u belive that shit?? I actually almost get it!! Im going to get an A in that class!! I have 2!!! Now what i dont understand is why is it that white kids pretend like they are stupid but have fucking A's in class then my ass is stuggling and i dont get shit?? What the fuck!!! Well yea now that I done with my hate towards i think im stupid white kids but really im an A getting white kid that likes to pretend that im stupid!! Then i ask god why did u make me black?? Why?? Is it because u want me to struggle with life?? Then I think to myself NO U want me 2 do something that is crazy something that white ppl would never even think that a black person let alone a black female could do!! Well that enough 4 2day
*~~*DES*~~*
10/22/03-Bored as i dont know what!! I cant belive Val lost my note!!! Im sooo angry!!! I think i might beat her up at school!! JK I love her she reminds me of my bestest best friend in the whole world, Jennifer!!! I get to take ACTs on Saturday wish me luck! So newayz i need a boyfriend...that was random!! K well there is this guy that i sorta like but he is a really good friend of mine plus he is white and i dont wanna ruin a friendship and im really scared to date a white guy cause i dunno i never have b4 and well i dunno what to do!! Oh plus get this u guys dont know him but he was in my Chem class last year and he was from Columbia and i think i still like him! I dunno i have mixed feelings about everything!! Well NE wayz as far as college goes I went to Hampton Virgina and I love the school there it is sooooooo amazing its a beautiful campus and i wanna go there and i want to major in a science but everybody knows how bad i am when it comes to Chem and im pretty good at Biology and i "rock" at Physics!! Cause i wanna go to medical school beacause the oppertunities (I cant spell) were amazing when I was in the Young Professionals' Academy at school!! I got to work in the Emergency Room and the lab!! It was the most amazing experience ever!! I really wanna work there!! I loved it I got to see a heart surugry too!!! It was awesome!!! Plus i met a really hot doctor (Dr. Busch) but that is besides the point!! I think it was a great learning experience and if u ever have the chance you should take advantage of it cause u will regret it when it passes right by you!! Live everyday to the fullest because tomorrow isnt promised today!! I think i got that from Ludacris!! Well good night guys I love ya!! *~~*Desi*~~*
10/21/03-Trying to figure out how to remodel my room!! I want a Hawaiian theme to it!! Plus I wanna surf board just to chill in there!! But so far I got it all planned out!! Now as 4 college that is a whole nother story!! Wow I finally finshed my hampton U application now the real challege is mailing it cause my mom took away my keys!! And i cant drive to school i have to ride the damn twinky to school!! Oh well!! Until next time kids!! *~~*Des*~~*