Today i talked to an old friend i havent talked to in a year. I met him online about three and a half years ago and we lost touch i guess. I kinda lost touch with alot of people..see back then we had this little *clique*, it was a tight group of about 15 of us. Anyways i was talking to him today and i found out he's like this big druggie now..liquid acid..special k..weed..liquor you name it he does it. That shit makes me mad cus he's only like 21 and he got alot to live for.

I dunno i guess it's just the way i feel..like i can do anything or i can help anyone. But then you relieze nothings going to work if they don't want it too..sometimes you feel like failure because you can't help everyone you come across with problems. Sometimes i worry about other people more than myself. I guess i have this huge caring side in me that i never knew about..anyone that really knows me knows that im a really laid back person and i have this big *i dont give a fuck* attitude. I guess we learn something new about us everyday.

I hope i can make him relieze everything before it's to late...