For a brief moment I envy you in your ignorance.
I can't find that release
I can't find that relief.
Your face is free of worry
You look like a child lying there in my lap.
You are going off to war.
I'm scared for you
I'm selfishly scared for me
But you are unaware of all this as you lie sleeping.
In my arms you lie.
I rub your cheek gently trying to commit to memory the texture of your skin
As if I could ever forget.
You don't know that I'm crying
Or maybe you do.
As you lie there in your content slumber
I wonder if you realize what you are about to do.
You don't realize that you will soon be alone
In a place you've never been
Calling home to me crying.
You don't know what your silence will do to me
That I'm a wreck
That I love you this much...or maybe you do.
You don't know all this.
You don't realize that it will all be different from what you thought.
You don't know that I'm watching you knowing that this goodbye is more than just goodbye.
You don't know how beautiful I think you are right now
As you sleep away our last moments together.
Goodbye I'm screaming silently...just goodbye.