Future planning is damn hard. Only of course if you have no direction whatsoever. Like me. I've been looking into colleges lately, mostly those in Ohio close to home. Went to visit Ashland U. last sat. and wasn't impressed, but I did find a new career option to add to my collection. So far I've got chef, astronomer, nutritionist, vet, and my latest.....are you ready?? The field of fashion merchandising. I'm no Joan Rivers, but I can pull together an outfit. and I can tell when things don't match. At one pt. I thought of web design, but I can't even keep up with this site. Wish I didn't lose interest so easily.

The problem is finding a college. I'm not a partying person. Not around total strangers anyways. I'm just afraid I suppose. I don't much care for drunk people, and I don't have any ambitions to become one. Yeah, I know it sounds like I'm a loser. Because I am.

Moving on

Almost Valentine's Day again. That letter didn't work so well last year. No flowers, no candy, no lovin. I'll console myself somehow. Perhaps with many many chocolate hearts.

Prom is in May. Just starting to work on that. I asked Ryan to go with me, because he's who I thought of taking first. Said he needs a week to decide. There goes that. I don't want to make people do things. Not the end of the world. There are other people I have in mind, but we'll see how it all works out. Its early. All I really feel like doing is getting a dress. Its just so fun. Sounds all girly and stupid, and it is, but fun. See? Maybe fashion merchandising is for me...

I stayed home today. Totally sick this morning. A road trip sounds so very good. To just leave with friends and some gas money, meet some guys, get lost. I'll do it someday. Until then I have to stop buying stupid things and put some cash in the bank. Which was robbed the other day. MY BANK WAS ROBBED. I didn't think that was still possible. The guy got away with it I think. Too bad I don't know him. Alright, I'm off to check on the song i'm downloading and finish hw i didn't do yesterday.

later...........JJJJJJJJJIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLL