Chapter 4

Carly was officially worried; she'd been sitting by the phone for the past hour. Jason was late, really late. That just didn't happen. It should be here watching movies or something equally meaningless. Carly would have gone looking for him, but Bobbie still wasn't home and Carly had no idea when she would be. So Carly had to satisfy herself with calling the brown stone every few minutes. She thanked God Sonny wasn't there. She knew that if he had been he would have done nothing but berate her.

She couldn't believe the way she'd let him get to her today. Like she actually wanted to go camping with a little kid and Hannah. The very idea was laughable. Carly had come home and hung out with Lucas. She had a ton of homework to do but she was in no mood to deal with math and history. When Jason had finally called and said he was on his way over, Carly had been elated. Now she was just worried.

Carly jumped off the couch when she heard the doorbell ring. She bolted for the door swinging it open and nearly fell over at who was in front of her.

"Corinthos, what are you doing here?" Carly tried to keep her voice calm. She failed miserably, Jason didn't seem to be anywhere and Sonny was ringing her doorbell late on a Saturday night. Something was wrong.

"Can I come in?" Sonny tried to talk normally; even though normal was the last thing he felt.

Carly felt her heart drop to her knees. "What happened? Where is he?"

Sonny walked in and looked around for Bobbie, Carly would need her. "Where's Bobbie?"

Carly sat down in the nearest chair. "Just tell me."

"Jason's in the hospital, he was in an accident." Sonny studied Carly's face for any sign that what he told her was registering.

Carly calmly walked over to the phone, picking it up and quickly dialling.

"Hi, it's Carly,"

`Yeah I know, I kind of have an emergency here. Could you come and watch Lucas till Bobbie gets home."

"All right, thanks."

Carly hung up the phone and then turned to Sonny.

"Lucky will be here in a few minutes and then you're taking me to the hospital."

Normally Sonny would have been mad at Carly ordering him around, but Sonny was in shock himself. Jason's injuries were serious and he was trying to stop himself from breaking down. He was only mildly aware of how strange Carly was acting.

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Carly was strangely silent through out the entire ride to the hospital. Neither Sonny or Carly spoke. Both had their minds on other things. More important things.

As soon as the elevator door opened Carly made a mad dash for the reception desk. "Jason Morgan Quartermaine, where is he?"

A somewhat disgruntled nurse looked Carly over. "Are you family?"

Carly glared at the nurse. It was obvious she wasn't family. Everyone knew the Quartermaines and she sure as hell wasn't one. "No"

The nurse sighed and spoke in a monotone voice. "I can only talk to family."

Carly was beginning to lose it. "Just tell me if he's okay, please."

The nurse started to walk away but turned back saying. "He's in surgery; you can wait in the waiting room."

Carly nodded turning and walking towards the waiting room. She sank down onto the couch. She was only vaguely aware of Sonny sitting down beside her. Neither said anything. They just stared into space. Finally Carly turned to Sonny.

"What exactly happened? Who called you?

Sonny took his hands away from his face and sighed. "Jason had his wallet with our address and phone number in it. They called and asked for his parents. I asked what happened, they told me he was in a bad motorcycle accident. I came and got you and here we are.

Carly nodded, she wanted more answers, Sonny didn't seem to have them though. Carly's head turned towards the elevator as she heard the unmistakable banter of the Quartermaines.

"If you hadn't of let him move out and buy that fowl contraption he wouldn't be here" Edward bellowed at Alan and Monica. He was only half-aware of who he was blaming. It was one of those things that just came naturally to him in a crisis.

Monica ignored him and headed for the first nurse she saw. A few minutes later she and the rest of the Quartermaines descended upon Sonny and Carly.

"What the devil are you doing here Corinthos?" Edward glared at Sonny well Monica stared contemptibly at Carly.

Sonny groaned and turned to face the Q's. "We're here for Jason. How is he? They won't tell us anything."

Edward smiled at that. "Why should they? It's not like you' re family"

Alan rolled his eyes and sighed. "Shut up father, Sonny he's not doing very well he's in surgery. We won't really know anything till he gets out and wakes up."

"He has to be okay, he just has to." Carly whispered to herself, however it did not go unnoticed by Sonny.

Monica gritted her teeth. She didn't like Sonny or Carly and at the moment they were the last two people she wanted to deal with. "Go home, you aren't helping anything by being here."

Sonny narrowed his eyes in contempt. "Jason is like a brother to me, I'm not leaving till I know he's okay."

Alan saw how close to the edge Monica was getting and put his hand on Sonny's shoulder. "There isn't anything you can do, I promise I'll call when he gets out of surgery."

Sonny stared at Alan not moving a muscle.

Edward had had enough of this hooligan. "You are aware young man that we can have you removed. Our family practically owns this hospital."

No one said anything but more importantly no one contradicted Edward. Sonny finally turned towards Carly and for the first time took in her domineer. She was sitting in the chair beside him crouched into a little ball, rocking back and forth. Her face was extremely pale and her eyes had a far off look about them. Sonny took her hand in his and gently helped her up.

"Come on, Carly let's go."

Carly looked up at Sonny, she had the look of a deer caught in headlights. But she nodded, taking his hand and following him to the elevator.

Sonny stopped and turned back, looking pointedly at Alan he said. "I'll be expecting your call."

He then turned and followed Carly onto the elevator.

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Sonny got in the car and sat for a minute. He turned to Carly, as surprising as it was he was concerned for her. "Where's Bobbie, you, you shouldn't be alone."

Carly looked over at Sonny and let out a snort of laughter. "Bobbie? You're kidding right? I have no idea where she is. She was supposed to be working today but she didn't come home after that. Normally I'd say that she was with Roy, but with him away, who knows where she is. Probably off helping someone she isn't related to."

Sonny looked at Carly strangely. Was that a dig? He knew he should be offended but the weird thing was that he didn't think that Carly was talking about him. "I'll take you home."

Carly turned to Sonny with fury in her eyes. "No, I don't want to go to Bobbie's house. Lucky is watching Lucas, I don't need to go back there yet."

Carly sighed rubbing her eyes with her hands. "Look Sonny, I know you hate me but right now all I want to do is go to the apartment with you and wait for Alan's call. I'll leave you alone. Just, just let me come with you."

Sonny nodded, he hadn't been looking forward to waiting by the phone by himself anyway.

The drove the rest of the way in silence. When they finally arrived Carly immediately went to Jason's room and gather herself in the quilt on his bed. She had lost so many people in her life. She had no idea what she'd do if something happened to Jason too.

Sonny took his coat off and checked the machine for any messages. He sighed when there were none. He turned to say something to Carly and noticed she was nowhere to be seen. The door to Jason's bedroom was open though, Sonny walked into his room and saw Carly curled up in his bed. Sonny sighed and headed for the kitchen to make some coffee, it was going to be a long night.

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Carly had fallen asleep almost immediately. Unfortunately what she needed more than anything she was not about to get. Dead sleep hardly ever came for Carly instead what she got were horrible nightmares of that horrible night when she was eleven.

Carly was thrust back into a time in her life where she was happiest and the most miserable. When Lisa her foster mom had been murdered. Carly had gone from foster home to foster home all her life. Till she was seven, till she was sent to live with Lisa. She had been a wonderful woman. She taught Carly about music and life. They would go for walks, but most importantly Lisa always heard Carly, she always listened. Carly lived with Lisa for four years and well they were the happiest of her life by far, they had also been the most painful. Lisa had a boyfriend that drank and for the most part he would stay away. They weren't even really dating, but they had been at one time. Sam would come over and beat up Lisa, Carly always felt so helpless but it didn't happen that often and other than those few times a month Sam pretty much left them alone. Carly never said anything Lisa meant too much to her for her to risk being taken away.

When Carly turned eleven she started to blossom, her blond hair was long and wavy and she had bright blue eyes. She was usually pretty happy and it showed. People noticed her, something she didn't usually mind. However when Sam started to notice her it began to scare her.

Sam had come over one night drunk as anything. He punched Lisa in the face before turning to Carly and smiling evilly at her. Carly knew whatever was behind that smile it was not good. She scrambled for a place to hide. Sam easily caught her slapping her across her face for having the audacity to try and get away from him. Carly had been frozen with fear and was terrified of what was about to happen when Lisa had come up behind Sam, hitting him over the head with a pot from the kitchen. It didn't knock Sam out but it gave Carly the opportunity to get away. Which had been the intent. Carly ran for the bathroom, grabbing the portable phone on the way. She had never called the cops before but Lisa had never hit Sam back and Carly knew it would not go over well.

She locked herself in the bathroom and dialled 911. She grimaced at the sounds of the beating that Lisa was taking on Carly's behalf.

By the time the cops had gotten there Lisa was dead and Sam was nearly there. Lisa had managed to grab a knife and defend herself. The officers had had a hell of a time getting Carly to come out of the bathroom. They finally had someone take he door off. She had been curled up in a ball rocking back and forth. Sam had later died of his injuries and Carly had been placed in another foster home. She stayed there for about a year before Bobbie had found her. Carly ha been depressed and quiet that entire year, but when Bobbie came Carly wanted her mother to want her. She made herself act sweet and nice. Of course it hadn't worked and Carly's wall began to grow. It was now a fortress.

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Sonny had been pretty tired himself, he had finally organized Luke's books. It had taken him all day but he'd done it. He had made a full pot of coffee and by the 2 am had drunken half of it. It didn't appear to be doing much good though. Sonny was dozy on the couch with phone directly in front of him. Sonny's head jerked up at the phone ringing. His hand automatically went to the phone. He picked it up and then realized that the noises were in fat screams and they were coming from Jason's room. Sonny instinctively ran to Jason's bedroom wondering what the hell could possibly be wrong.

Upon entering the room Sonny saw Carly who was still asleep. She was tossing and turning and yelling like there was no tomorrow.

"NO, LISA, LISA,... LEAVE HER ALONE!!! GET AWAY FROM ME. NO, HELP US, HELP US!!"

Sonny instantly remembered the conversation he had overheard this afternoon. Lucas and Carly had been talking about someone named Lisa. Sonny went over to Carly and nudged her gently. "Carly, wake up, you're dreaming. It's just a dream. Carly..."

Carly bolted up right at having been woken up. She always had nightmares but they hadn't been this bad in a long time. Carly saw they concerned way Sonny was looking at her and realized what must have happened. She wiped the tears off her face and tried to cover up as best she could. "What do you want Corinthos?"

I will try not to breathe. I can hold my head still with my hands at my knees. These eyes are the eyes of the old, shiver and fold.

Sonny however knew that this time her tough persona was an act. "Waking you up, you were screaming bloody murder."

Carly winced at Sonny's choice of words and collapsed back onto the bed to tired to keep up her act. "Please just go away Sonny, I can't do this right now."

I will try not to breathe. This decision is mine. I have lived a full life and these are the eyes that I want you to remember. Oh. I need something to fly over my grave again.

Sonny took in how frail Carly looked and knew he was not about to go anywhere. "Who's Lisa?"

Carly groaned, what the hell had she said this time? Carly was way to tired to lie or even try to. "She was my foster mother, she was murdered when I was eleven."

I need something to breathe. I will try not to burden you. I can hold these inside. I will hold my breath until all these shivers subside, just look in my eyes. I will try not to worry you.

Of all the things that Sonny had expected Carly to say this was the absolute last thing he could have imagined. "You're adopted?"

I have seen things that you will never see. Leave it to memory me. I shudder to breathe. I want you to remember. Oh. (you will never see)

Carly rolled over and looked at Sonny. "Bobbie is my real mother, she gave me up for adoption when I was born, she decided to come and find me when I was 12."

I need something to fly (something to fly) over my grave again. (you will never see) I need something to breathe. (something to breathe) Baby, don't shiver now. Why do you shiver now ?

Sonny let this sink in. "I had no idea."

(I will see things you will never see) I need something to fly (something to fly) over my grave again. (I will see things you will never see) I need something to breathe.

Carly rolled her eyes. "So now that you do know, are we going to be best friends, bond over our mass dysfunction? Sonny, I'm tired and worried about Jason. Just, just leave me alone."

Oh. Oh. Oh. I will try not to worry you. I have seen things that you will never see. Leave it to memory me. Don't dare me to breathe. I want you to remember. Oh. (you will never see)

Sonny bite his tongue. Every time he tried to be nice to her she bite his head off. If she wanted to be left alone. He'd leave her alone.

I need something to fly (something to fly) over my grave again. (you will never see) I need something to breathe. (something to breathe)

Sonny got up and wordlessly went back to the couch, his coffee and waiting by the phone. Unfortunately he couldn't stop his mind from drifting back to what he had just learned. That and what Jason had said, how he and Carly had similar childhoods. He hoped not, God he hoped not.

Baby, don't shiver now. Why do you shiver now ?

Carly listened to Sonny in the living room, he kept moving around and getting more coffee. She found the way he wouldn't be quiet annoying but oddly comforting. She sighed curling up into her comfort ball. She always pushed people away, even Jason she had only let him in to a degree and look what that had gotten her. Anyone's life that Carly touched just winded up getting hurt.

(I will see things you will never see) I need something to breathe. (something to breathe - I have seen things you will never see) I want you to remember.