The strain swells in my brain cells where pain dwells/
I stand upon forbidden land while the rain fell/
Trapped in the same hell that's driving me to limits/
I strive to Be infinite but it's depriving me of minutes/
So I write this testimony, yes I'm blessed with homies/
Only about 3 is real and the rest is phoney/
I'm so stressed and lonely, what's my place in this world/
Trapped-encased in steel, stress in my face and it's real/
To the point my eyes is teared, damn I ain't cried in years/
Tried of covering up pain and hidin' fears/
My own people don't Know I'm here, so they can't come get me/
Wanna take all this wit' me and hope this world forgives me/
Upon blocks it's do or die, fighting thoughts of suicide/
I was told to fix what I go thru inside, and it's True I tried/
I dream of bluer skies but storm clouds have me worn out/
As downpours sprout and leave me filled with more doubt/
I wanna travel your route but where was You led from?/
Cause my whole journey has been a maze but I forgot the bread crumbs/
I've got so much livin' left but at times I'm wishin' death/
Would just come along and take my given breath/
I was once the one blessed but now since I'm stressed/
It's become a test just for me to get some rest/
Many ask if I'm all right but only a few care I learned/
I lay awake all night with nowhere to turn/
Inspired by: Pain
