"who was she"
"just calm down"
"Who Was She"
"please calm down it's nothing like that"
"I SAID WHO WAS SHE"
"let me tell you..."
"WHO THE FUCK WAS SHE"
"it was just a one time...."
click
I'm helpless.......
I don't want to fall in love with you......too late.
My heart skips a beat everytime I talk to you....
You don't know this, I may never tell you.....
Perhaps in a different time, and a different place.
I can't do anything without the thoughs of you creeping in to my mind...
If only I could find the words, if only things had been different.....
but of course.....we may have never met if things were different
Three little words....I need you.....I love you....I want you..
So small, so easy, and so common.
But everytime I open my mouth to say them to you.......
Suddenly they are the most complicated tounge twisters known to man
I hope you see this
I hope you know that this is for you, and not someone else.
I started out not wanting to fall for another man....
Your words pushed me.......
You are everything I have ever wanted.......and needed
I would do anything to just confess this to you.....
The words simply aren't there.
She claims she is over it all, but the pain still burns through the night.
Walking, head held high, in to her future.
Dropping the weighty cloak of misery on the roadside.
Another pair of kind hands helping with the knot.
She anticipates the sudden tightening of the strings.
I pulled on my boots and zipped up my jacket and stepped out in to the wind. It whipped and tugged my hair about, and the snow flakes stung on my cheeks like tiny needles. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Silence. No cars, no people, no animals, just the wind, the snow, and me. The street was as bright as daytime and everything had taken on an orangish glow from the street lights.
As we stood on your roof top I gazed at the sun with my back turned to you. I was hoping praying you would make the right move. As these thoughts raced through my head your arms enveloped me. How gently you brushed the hair from my neck. As your lips pressed against my shoulder everything was perfect for me.
You dropped me off that night full of hope, and happiness, promising to call me the next day.
I never heard from you again.
Through all the fights we ever had I knew there was a line I must not cross, words I must not speak in order to keep you near. Tonight I crossed that line and said the words that have been fighting to come out. While you cried and cursed me I simply, happily, smiled, knowing the end had finally come.
"you better sit down for this"
You stand less than five feet from me, but you can't reach me. I've gone deep in to myself. Before I turn to walk away you stare at me with pleading, red rimmed eyes. I want nothing more than to hold you, and make everything go away. Although at the thought of touching you I cringe, and feel ill. I turn and walk away, praying that I should never have to see those eyes again.
For you.
Sadness lingers through her smiles.
Flying down country roads with the windows open wide. Radio turned up loud enough to hurt my ears. I sing. Screaming it out. Shouting it to all the Gods in heaven, the cows, the trees, myself, you. "I'm free!" The empty seat next to me reminds me of this.....ahhh sweet release. More powerful than any orgasm. I let the cool air blow the last traces of you from my soul. This is a freedom that can't be explained, only experienced. You made me feel little. You made me feel weak and worthless. How many times did you tell me I couldn't? Couldn't drive good, couldn't get any good job, couldn't go to college. Well guess what?! I could, I can and I am. I didn't know until you were gone. 
The truth was there, but she stepped out for a smoke.
Nothing but silence. I pull open my eyes and turn over to hold you. My arms grasp nothing but air. Startled, I leap to my feet. You are leaning on the window sill. I softly walk to your side to try to kiss you. You shove me against the wall with a grunt. Tears are rolling down your cheeks.
