You are the greatest thing to ever happen to me
Nicky I don't know how else to try and tell you how I feel anymore. I miss you terribly, not a day goes by that I don't stop to think about how much I wish I could have you in my life again. You are the greatest thing that ever happened to me, you really are. You showed me so much unconditional love, more than I've ever known from anyone to even be possible. You loved me when I couldn't even love myself, and for that I guess all I can say is thank you, because I really didn't deserve it, but you loved me anyway. The only thing I knew how to do then was love you, and I thought that would be enough to keep us happy, but I was sorely mistaken. I used you, and I'm sorry. I used you to make me happy, when I should have been making myself happy, you were my only excuse to smile, ever. I don't mean to sound like an ass but I've realize there is more to being happy than simply loving someone, because if that were the case we would have been perfect. There is no doubt in my mind, and there never will be, that I love you with all of my heart, and I always will. I would like to believe that you still love me too, but I know things change. It's been a long six months, and I don't think either of us are the person we used to be, but my love for you hasn't faded one bit, if anything it's only gotten stronger. I want to be in your life Nicky, I don't want you to just be a memory to me, I want to be a part of your memories, I want to make thousands of new *GOOD* memories. I've already missed so much, I don't want to miss anymore hun. This is already turning into what I didn't want it to be, long and sappy, so I'm gonna stop, but please take a minute to look at the rest of this page, I know it's not as original and cute as the "fun shtuff" page. This is just all the stuff my missing you has lead me to do and think of... because I don't know what else to do with these feelings, but I was watching a movie and I don't even remember which one it was but there was a line in it that said "don't ever keep something as complicated as love all balled up inside because it will only make you sick," and it's true because hiding this all away really has just about made me sick. I'm not gonna be sick anymore, what I've been doing to myself is not healthy, and I won't do it anymore, I am going to tell you exactly how I feel every chance I get, I atleast owe it to myself to do so. So I'm sorry, but you are my one and only, there's just no getting around that, I love you more now than I thought I ever could even when we were together, and thats just the way things are. I'm not gonna feel bad or embarased for loving the girl I've been in love with for the last god only knows how long, you are and forever will be my Nickers....
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