Monday, 03/05/07 @ 8:27 PM EST USA
I have been thinking about this for several days now. Christ told us that it is difficult to turn away from the worldly things we accumulate. Not being rich I figured that didn't mean me. I owe lots of credit card money; I live in a rent stabilized apartment; my income is lower than most people's. So I thought I don't own anything that owns me. Not true.

Today I realized that I am sucking on the teat that is TV. It has been with me since I was little. The addiction is quite palpable. So far I haven't turned on the TV tonight and am feeling a bit of "withdrawal" from its mighty hold on me. There is nothing I can do ... except pray. Indeed just as Christ told us - with God all things are possible, but with man nothing is possible.

I can't turn it off alone. I can't turn it off at all. In order for me to kick the habit the Lord will have to allow me to not be addicted. Only God. It is His will and no one else's that allows us all we have, and all we are.

There are other addictions as well. TV is not to blame - no one is to blame. If we say "this thing caused that" then we are denying God's Sovereignty in all things... in all things. God is Sovereign alone. His will is done on Earth as it is in Heaven. Just as Christ prayed in the garden: " ... not my will, but Yours."