Sunday, 8/15/10, 10:07 AM EST USA
All my life I always wanted to be able to do ... to do something with it. I study physics, got a Masters but went no where; I learned photography, rose up, but was cut off; I help everyone I meet, but have no friends; I pay my debts, but am still in debt.

I just realized that (duh and of course) this is God's will for my life. So I realized even further that since that is the case - that God is allowing me to be "fallow ground" - then I must say "so be it." That's when the "light" turned on - I must not think in terms of me and my desires - my "will" - rather, think and accept that this is His will for my life. My desires were in opposition to God's will for my life. So I labeled this page "I vs Him".

I must learn to forget my life as central to me and put His will - Him - central to my life.