Monday, 23 August 2004 - 7:53 PM EDT

real chic you better watch your step,
dont ever talk about me ike that again,
you have no right no you do not,
i am not all this stuff you said about me no no no no no no no no no no no oh hell no, so stop ragging on me, stop putting me down, stop persecuting me and get off my case it will not do any good, you are always putting me down excusing me for saying this but that is very fucked up how you are always putting me down and persecuting me what is your problem, why are you like that jesus christ, goodness gracious golly, i have enough trouble with all these idiots on the street always perscuting me, picking on me and bothering and i have enough trouble with my family always yelling screaming shouting fussing at me and arguing with me and getting defensive every time i say something everyday, jesus christ goodness gracious golly. real chic even though you persecute me and put me down i contradict you and everyone else on your message boards because you are wrong you dont know a doggone thing about me because you have not been around me for 20 something years, you have not been around me all my life to know what i am really like, you are only going by messages i post you should know by now talk is cheap. i have a song for you by lisa lisa from her LL 77 album from 1993 or 1994 called same ole thang it goes something like this " i look around this is what i see people of different colors and personalities so many faces so lives it's for them to choose how they want to live their lives so how can you be wrong for being who you are that is all you can be its gone way too far when people say you're too black you're too white you're all wrong you're not right it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang when people say you're not that you're not this you're not much you're not fit it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang too many judging and no ones qualified to change my life style and keep me satisfied those that matter dont judge those that judge dont matter think about what to say more before than after how can you be wrong for being who you are that's all you can be it's gone way too far when people say you're no good you're no pride you 're not the right size you're not the righ type it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang when people say you're up too high you're down too low you talk too fast and you move too slow it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang" and later " are you wrong or being right same ole they saying you have no right to say what you want to say it should not matter if you are straight or gay telling me how to live sounds like the same ole thang to me how can you be wrong for being how you are that's all you can be it's gone way too far when people say you're not all that you're not too tough you're not for real you're not in love it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang when people say you're less than her you're less than him you cant be down if you're not with them it's the same ole thang it's the same ole thang" and later "telling me what to do telling me what to say telling me what to give telling me how to live it's the same ole thang telling me what to do telling me what to give telling me what to say ooooooo same ole thang telling me how to live" "same ole thang same ole thang" now please tkae some time to think about this song i just mentioned i listen to this song much often. by the way this may sound weird and all but the name marina reminds me of some white mozzarella cheese but also the name marina looks scary too marina as in marina toscano isabella toscano kiriakis's evil half sister on the days of our lives.

Monday, 13 September 2004 - 8:13 PM EDT

as for somebody on the hotc support saying let melmel rot in hell, no melmel aint rotting in hell no she isnt let melmel rot in hell my butt melmel is not a psycho hose beast psycho hose beast my butt, sick twisted cunt my butt, melmel is not jealous-jealous my butt, melmel is not a miserable shit-miserable shit my butt, and dan will not attack melmel, he better not, melmel wont take that from a bullysome bastard like him, who does dan think he is, he aint nobody, he does not like melmel saying crazy stuff on these board but there is nothing he can do about it, he cant do anything to melmel and he cant touch her, he better not, melmel does not deserve dans verbal abuse in realchics guestbook his verbal abuse was way out of line(sorry to bring this up real chic but that nasty pathetic message dan posted in your guest book still bothers me i decided to put my foot down to people physically harming me especially what happened to me at the restaurant with some crazy psychotic bastard that tried to beat my brains out and pound my spine and pound my ear to death and sticking his ugly penis in my face-( slice that damn thang off and give it to a bird) that still bothers me that i let some fool beat on me like an ignorant crazy bastard, it bothers me because i did not fight back it is like i just backdown sometimes when i am sleep this incident bothers me, it also bothers me sometimes when i think about when my aunts and uncles used to hit me, they used to slap me in the head, slap me on my back, push me up against a dress and make my ear hit a dresser, and then one time my aunt grabbed me by my shirt and threw me on the ground and another time she scratched my face, one time when i was in school a kid once pushed me on the ground, other times a kid kicked me in my thigh and in my waist, stuff like this bothers a person because they did fight back and protect themselves that's why it bothers me so much, i am regretfully ashamed that i endured this physical abuse while growing up and going through life now, i regret it because i have a hard time protecting myself from this garbage, i wish i could protect myself from all of this sick garbage, let the crazy people on the streets rot in hell for the bad way they always treat others- the name calling, the harassing, the being smartmouthed and nasty, the trying to be cute(funny), the sexually soliciting others, the badmouthing others and the rudeness and many other deceitful things these sorry shit excuse for a society people(thangz) do to others that are unexcusable.

Friday, 1 October 2004 - 7:24 PM EDT

i am not a slimeball, slimeball my butt. i am only a wornout depressed withdrawn worryaholic