Locked up in my room
Alone I cry at night
Thinking about the things I did
The way we used to fight

The way you raised your hand
Whipped it across my face
The welts and all the bruises
Left just about everyplace

I told you I was pregnant
You flipped out like always
Told me to have an abortion
Then went about your day

After that you forgot me
Said you didn’t give a damn
I tried to move on with my life
Thinking about how you ran

I thought it would be over
Riding home on the bus
Never did I know
I’d still be thinking about us

I thought about my plan
Planned it out for weeks
Swallowed the pills down my throat
Heard the bathroom door creek

Why’d I do it?
They have no idea
I tell them I don’t know
Watching the charcoal start to smear

Why didn’t you let me die?
Allow my life to drip away
Why’d you have to save me?
It won’t take the pain away.

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