You used to say you loved me
You used to show you cared
You used to want to hold me
Whenever I was scared
But then things got real different
Your attitude just changed
It was then I realized
Things would never be the same
All the ways you touched me
Even when I said no
I never believed in a million years
Something would start to grow
It was that night that I gave in
We never thought what might’ve been
I just thought we’d stay the same
Had no idea of this kind of pain
I myself never felt so hated
Another life that we created
On that day that you flipped out
I found out what you were all about
The way you hit me
The way it hurt
Down went my worth
I felt like dirt
And with that you were gone
Had to face the facts and move on
I still didn’t understand how this could be
Carrying a baby inside of me
Three long months I kept this secret
Didn’t want anyone to ever hear it
You only knew, I didn’t tell
Why I thought I’d go to hell
All alone and in a clinic
No one knew that I was in it
I see the charts and the machines
In my head I hear the screams
It’s all over the doctor says
But now I hear voices in my head
This is my secret
I know I need to keep it
I thought it would end
I want to wake up
I enter the school
They call me a slut
I’m empty
I’m worthless
Please help me
I’m dying
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