Brick Wall - Chapter 13

I walked into Karie and mine apartment.She wasn't home.I guessed her and Greg probpaly went out somewhere.I was cool w/ that, I needed time to think.The truth is I was hurt by his confession, but if I was ova him then why would it hurt.Sure I would of felt sad and betrayed.But i was hurt cause I knew I could never 4give him and we would never have a chance to be together.I faced the truth, I wasn't ova Chris.But I knew I needed to know no why and i was more than anything curious that if he cared about me, why he would of lied.Call me insane. ok i was...I called Chris.

'Hello'I heard Chris say.IT sounded like he had been crying.I didn't feel sorry 4 him.He should be crying, gosh if I didn't belive in God I would of killed him when he first told me he was cheating on me.Worse I was the other gurl, I wonder if this gurl knew about me.

'Chris...'I started to say'Can u come ova?'I said sadly but making sure that he still could hear the hurt and betrayel in my voice.

'Yea...I'll be ova'He said and hung up.

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'So ya miss me?'Greg asked Karie.

'Of course, but I know u know so what did Chris do to Mara?'Karie had to know, she didn't want to be lied to.She knew that Mara would probpaly be in tears when she got home.But Mara was strong she rise above the situaction.She always does.

'Kare....He was going out with another gurl when he meant Mara, I knew about it but he told me that he broke up w/ her.mARA wasn't the only 1 he lied to, well when he didn't show up at the airport that day, I was as confused as u 2!He spilt the whole story out, how he fell in love w/ Mara but still very munch loved his gf.He was afraid to tell Mara, afraid he lose her.He later found out that his gf cheated on him.Sooo he knows how Mara g2 feel, im sure he told her tonight....Im not sure that I would forgive him...not that I swing that way!'Greg started chuckling.He always could make a person laugh in the darkest part of their day.I looked at him and thank god he was soo truthful w/ me.He drove to his place we were g2 rent some movies and just cuddle on the couch.WE got there and luckly his family was out at dinner, I still couldn't live my embrass of them walking in and seeing us making out during the summer.Greg was like'No Karie I don't see any cavities'He was soo obvious!

'U still thinking about when we got cault'He asked reading my mind.'Yea'I said

'We'll why don't u sit on my lap and were see whet pops up!'Greg said and smirked.

'Shut-up Greg...when u become a pervert!'I smiled and sat next to him I'd rather not no that anything popped up that night.All I wanted was...well Greg,,,, but his Jr. could wait.

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I was sitting on the couch when the doorbell rang.I screamed that it was open, I didn't feel like getting up.Chris softly walked over to me and just sat on floor below me.I guess trying not to make me feel un-comfortable.

'Chris...I was sitting here thinking about everything that happened.U know I should be pissed, scream, gosh choking u wouldn't be to far fitched.But im not, so that's a werid feeling.I know why, I need to stop lying to myself.Chris im still very munch in love w/ u weather I wanna be or not.It won't change what my heart feels.BUt luckly God gave me a brain.Cause I don't know how in the hell u could of done this to me.U know how munch pain I went through w/ Kevin.U know that I was giving u a weak heart.U betryed me. So u got this night to tell me all the lies.I wanna no Chris...I may not ever forgive u, but I need to know!'Mara said she looked at Chris she could see hurt in his eyes.She knew how easily it would be just to kiss him and forgive him.But she knew she would also regret it.

'Mara, ur right my lie gets worse...Her name was Brandy.We were going out 3 months be4 I meant u.I knew I loved her.Then I meant u.U had a spark that was contatious.I loved ur willing, strong, outgoing personallty.I couldn't chose.I even lied to the band, saying I had broke up w/ her.By the end of the summer I was even more confused.Plus very munch in love w/ the both of u.After the cuddle we had at my house the night be4 u left.I promised her I'd come ova to her house.I lied to her and said rehearsal ran late.We got cault up in the mommet and well I slept w/ her..'Mara couldn't belive him.She was so close to hating Chris...How could he, u don't love some 1 and sleep w/ some1 else.She just....she was even more confused.'Thats why I was late...I was at her house..I felt so terriable.We broke up a month later.She found out bout u cause 1 of the guys slipped..but i soon found she was cheating on me to!So I basiclly lost my 1st love to a gurl who was cheating on me.U don't have to 4give me...im sure u won't.But Mara I do love u!'Chris said and started to lean in.

'Chris stop!'I said and pushed him away'U don't love me!U can't!Ur a lil'boy I mean u cheat on me plus sleep w/ another gurl.If u loved me u would of not done that!'I screamed I had heard enough.Chris stood up he looked down at me he had many tears running 4m his face.I had none..I loved him I knew that for sure..but I just couldn't forgive him.But my heart was taking over my thoughts.I stood up about inch away 4m him.I just looked him straight in the eyes and started kissing him.I knew I should ofstopped, but I couldn't stop.He was like a magnet.He slowly pulled away.He looked at me.

'Mara I don't want u to regret this..'he suprised me , he was definatly a jerk, but yet he was still the sweet Chris I had feel in love w/.I knew he was sorry.I knew I loved him.So what we both become depressed cause we both know that we are meant to be togeher.I couldn't forgive him, there would always be a hole in my heart 4m what he did.But I couldn't stop lovin him.

'Chris...I love u and there is no way I can help that feeling, but if u still love me, ur g2 have to understand that I'll never completly heal 4m what u done to me.I meant not be able to trust u.'I let out how I truly felt.

'Mara, I love u too, I could never hurt u again..'With that he layed me on the couch and we made out 4 a little while, then turned the Tv on and feel asleep in each others arms.I have to say I missed being in his arms...