Dedication to my Mother
This is a special page made specially for my Mother. She is to me my rock. She is by far the strongest woman I have ever known. She has had many trials in her life and tragedys, yet she overcomes all of them. And becomes even stronger then before. I remember as I think back on hard times the strength she had. I remember always saying to her, your so strong Mom, How do you do it? How do you go on? She had six children so she had to go on. But many cant, yet her strength always kept her moving forward. She has been the rock for the whole family. She is there for us 100%, no questions asked.
When a woman gets married they have a sense of security that comes from her husband. I have that sense of security from the love my Mother has for me and how she shows it. When I lost my son she came to be with me at the hospital, and stayed with me through the entire three days of labor. She held my hand, brushed my hair, cryed with me, and prayed with me. She was there for me in the most loving and beautiful way. And as she went through this sad experience with me , what was she going through? You see she to lost a son back 16 years ago. He was also stillborn. And here she was reliving all her saddness, but this time watching her daughter go through it. How did she do it? Where did she get the strength from?
I'll never forget as long as I live something else she did for my husband and I and my angel Charles Daniel. She thought that the baby being in such a big hearse all by himself was not a good idea. She didnt want his little casket in that big car all alone. So she offered to drive my husband and I as we held our babys lil casket in the back seat. That has meant more to me then she will ever ever know. I still cry thinking about how much of her own emotions she just kept inside so she could be my rock.
I have learned something about myself after the short life and death of my son Charles Daniel. I have learned that I to have strength. Strength to carry on with life when tragedy hits. No my life isnt perfect, whose is? Some days I still cry. But thats ok, because it makes me feel human to feel. I have to thank my Mother for giving me and teaching me strength. Without her I dont know how I would have survived this past year. From the very first day that I lost my son, so many people would say your so strong, I could never be this strong through such a sad event. And I would tell them I wasent given a choice. I didnt ask for this to happen. "I NEVER EVER WANTED TO FEEL THIS STRENGTH". But I did. And its because of the love and strength that both my Mother and God gave to me. And my faith in Jesus.
Mom, words can never express the deepest gratitude I have for you. You have been there for me my whole life and I love you so much for it. I mostly admire and love you for the person YOU are.
I love you always,