october 3 . 2000



i am sick today. not just sort of sick, i'll get over it sick, or 24 hour flu sick. i'm reaaally sick. it started late last week with a sore throat. it has escalated into a ragged throat, harsh cough, sneezing, and loss of use of vocal chords. i can't speak. well, i technically can, but it's strained. i had to stay home from school today, and i hated it. any other person would have delighted at the chance of staying home from school, but today would have been a busy day if i had attended...

plus, staying at home doesn't have too many perks. i mean, sure, you get to watch tv and lounge around, play with pets, but you don't really...do anything. you're confined to the house all day (at least i am), and you feel so miserable, there's nothing that's really fun, anyway. everyone in my house is gone from 8-4, too. it gets pretty lonely around 11 am.

i think i have bronchitis. after i cough, it hurts to breathe. maybe it's not bronchitis, but there's something that i have that links painful breathing to coughing. i don't have asthma. i'm not allergic to anything.

something i really hate when you're sick is how everyone makes such a big deal about it. for example, when i called friends on the phone to say hi, they immediately commented on how awful my voice sounded (seeing as it was 4 octaves lower and all...lol). it was nice that they were concerned, but...i don't know. i don't like it when people fuss over me sometimes. it's nice to be paid attention to, but too much is too much.

i've been a good girl. i've been drinking my fluids and taking my daily dose of nasty yicky cough syrup. even though it tastes gross, it's actually quite effective. i take it at night, it knocks me out and helps me to sleep. i'm doing everything i should be doing...but i'm not getting better. damn you things that are viral infections....

i heard that my mommy is going to set up an appointment with my doc tomorrow about my "condition". here's hoping that i don't need a throat culture.