Hey, why hasn't this been updated in a while?? Well, the answer is that Casey doesn't pay much attention to her webpage sometimes BUT she did find a more efficient way to keep the thought of the week/day/whatever going.
In a few weeks, I'm going to turn this page over to a journal on livejournal.com. You can find my thoughts here
4/25/01
Whooo hooo, there's nothing like the feeling after you get work done at the last minute and realize late at night that you're actually allowed to sleep, well, it's just really really nifty. If you can't tell, I'm a little tired right now. :)
4/5/01
The sky sparkles with morning light, and I'm so glad it's spring.
There's something deep-winged inside that shakes with will to sing... Any clue that I'm in a good mood today??
3/16/01
Inspiration strikes again. I have a new idea for a novel, and am really into getting started on it. I wrote the pivotal scene of the start of the conflict. I'm totally into it and I'd like to see it mature fully, unlike the way Arcane fizzled out. I'll return to writing Arcane eventually but for now I need to think about it.
3/14/01
As good as someone can be at something there will always be someone who doesn't like it. I'm talking in a mainly creative sense since expert toliet paper makers aren't usually argued about. Entering contests is a good way to gauge your talent in one respect, but it only shows what one small group of people think of that talent. I entered two contests the other night, and I really don't care if either wins. The money would be nice though. :)
3/9/01
The bed was so warm and deep. I thought to be engulfed would be my ideal fate- engulfed in sheets, engulfed in blankets, engulfed in arms and skin and kisses. My day looks brighter from here but - the bed was so warm and deep.
3/7/01
It's Jon and I's 8 month anniversary and I can't help but love him even more now. We were lying back, watching tv tonight and he sat up at one point, leaning back on his hand, and the line of his back was just breath-taking. It's amazing how the simplest things about someone you care for can be the most attractive.
3/1/01
written at midnight trying to aviod doing work: Blank pages are beautiful things... cause the future is only what you make of it... I'm only worried about when I run out of pages, cause all the blank ones will fill with time. The only thing I really fear about the end is that I won't learn, or grow enough... that I won't meet those few extra people that make the world worth continuing on... those people living as hope encarnate. (i.e. Jon, Stacie, Christie, Patrica ;), Elizabeth, Kyle and Chrystal {miss you guys}, Jon K., Nick, Matt, Nancy, Karen, Jenn, Amanda, Dave, Jay, don't ever forget both Renees, and all those people that may just leave your day a bit brighter, I love you guys!)
2/28/01
Still slightly on the same subject, some little nuggets for you... I hope I never find myself grasping widly for something to stay my fall in the pile of people I've inadvertantly hurt over the years... people need a certain amount of mystery about their thoughts, I don't want someone finding something I had written when I was unsure about what I was thinking, because sometimes thoughts are purely hypothetical and won't see the light of day ever again... It's not worth the trouble of teaching people what's special about you in order to keep them in your life, if after a certain amount of time the appreciation just isn't there, move on (it's a hard thing to do, giving up on a person, but there's only so much time in a life, and only so much pain a person can take)
2/27/01
A bit of 20/20 hindsight for anyone out there: Nostalgia can be a pretty powerful thing when let roam in the imagination like an elephant in a china closet. If you don't watch out it can seriously give your intuition a run for it's money, and it might even take grasp of your reason. Just remember to hold on tight to something stable and listen to those friends you've helped along the way. At the very least, they've at least learned something from your previous help, and at the most they may be more knowledgable than you'd ever know.
2/26/01
The idea of feminine intuition caught up with me this week, particularly the 26th and 27th... I felt this nagging doubt of something in the back of my mind and just didn't know where to focus it. I asked myself question after question after question about how I felt about each seperate aspect of my life. Sometimes it's nice to have a mystery to solve, and sometimes it just annoys you. So I really reached down and wrote some soul searching things (forgive me for not venting here but there are people who may read this involved). And I found myself at the end of it all remarking how I'd just end up laughing about all of the BS I went through later. The next day, I figured out what the problem was, and as of now it hinges on the ability of a certain person to lie to my face about his feelings... so it's basically over. The point, I laughed, I laughed hard. Trust your spider sense girls.
1/22/01
Anger ties itself in with hurt. They're really brother emotions, with the feelings of betrayl and heat towards the offending person, there's also a sense of 'how could they?' and caught up in that can leave a person sobbing instead of fumming. The anger feeling lives in the moment and you really just have to let it fly before you start labeling yourself the "victim" of some unspeakable crime. I've only just started reacting in the proper manner... I think my sensitivity is starting to serve itself better. My defense mechanisms have taken on an aire of confidence, and I must say, I'm completely enjoying it.
1/19/2001
Just as a reminder to those fellow students out there, when a teacher says a 10-12 page research paper... don't immediately say "Phew, I thought it was going to be something like 30." Teachers are strange creatures, the second you seemed releaved at an assignment they're bound to make it harder. Somehow they actually think we enjoy a "challenge".
