you may think i suicidal
but suicidal I am not
i do not put so much pressure on my myself
that i cannot breathe
that is society
and i do not write these poems
for reality
but rather fantasy
my fear of death is greater than
my fear of life
so much so that i want to live forever
that would be cool
to float above a mountain
to see twenty centuries
to dance along the intergalactic roads ahead
living is so much more fun than being dead
or so i can imagine
rotting in a box
or buring until all that
is left is ashes
so please take my assurances with heed
and do not fret
you may think i suicidal
but suicidal i am not