A new year and a new life?
I still feel the same, but at least I've lost about 4 kilos (10 to go..)
My rehabilitation proved to last a little longer than I had expected. It's been more than four months since the accident and the foot is still not well!
I don't care to bother anymore so I'm going back to work next week. I've been out of buisness for so long the thought of work is starting to feel unfamiliar..
I kind of whish I'd done something more creative on my involuntary vacation, but at least I've had some time to watch good movies and catch up with old friends.
Our plans as of now are: Me and Elin find suitable work in Scotland and then go there, as soon as we're done in the factory (in march)
Now Ammi (our pet) is begging for attention (it could also be sweets)
And since her whish is my command... Bye
Well... I am amazed and most embarassed to see that it's been more than a year since my last post in this godforsaken diary..
I can see that last time I bothered to stop by was when me and my ex-fiancee where planning on having children.
I am happy to tell you that no babies bothered to show up, and they are lucky they didn't!
I am afraid I was very naive at the time and now a year later I've only grown so much I realise I'm
not fit to be a parent for at least 20 years!
Being bored and unhappy I broke the engagement
with my fiancee and moved back with my parents to try and find happiness elsewhere.
I went as far as Norway with a friend to work for a few months and then travel around abroad.
Unfortunatley I fell 3 metres and broke my foot a little, so I'm now facing 4 more weeks in rehab...
It's a little boring but I'm using the time to watch TCM and meditate over my situation.
Earlier I've had huge plans for the future and none has been very realistic (except for the pony-
dream since I'm now a horse owner!).
Anyway, instead of making plans I try and live in the present.
I've learned a lot by living in a relationship for three years and while working as a nursin assistant
(realised I'll never, ever do that again).
I could have had a baby to release me from boredom like so many other, unexperienced girls in my age.
Luckilly I did not.
I bother to write this down since it is such a huge matter to me.
It's my biggest fear as well as it includes my whish to help people in this life.
As of now I do not now what to become of myself.
But I'm sure I'll think of something ;)
Just stopping by to update.
Today I'm going to a friends funeral.
We went to high school together.
He drowned a few weeks ago, so I'm going to say goodbye.
Today is also my grandmothers 80:th birthday and my grandfather is in the hospital.
I feel emotionally stressed..
And tomorrow I'm going to Norway where I'm gonna work at a hotel this summer.
I'm looking forward to get away from here and do something else on my own for a while.
This fall I'm going back to school again. It's a long education but I guess learning is fun.
No babies yet, but the fortune teller said I'd have a daughter pretty soon.
I'll let you know if that happens...
*G* I'm really not supposed to be here.
I have a pile of homework to do and I always seem to get busy doing anything else when I should be concentrating.
I had forgotten the tiring side of studying..
But still I'm happy I've come this far!
It's a lot of fun too and I'm looking forward to the 5 training weeks on a local school this spring.
Not that anyone is really visiting this page but I'm a little embarassed I haven't updated the place for such a long time.
I'll have a brief look at it now and come back later (when I have the time).
Wow... It´s been ages and more.
I worked at the retirement place all summer through.
It was very tiring.
Then I began my trainee period at the hospital, where I learned that nursing wasn´t for me.
Now I'm just about to start school.
I've decided that I want to become a school teacher and that's the profession I'm intending to learn at the university.
It's a little exciting going back to school again, and it will be for a while this time.
I still live with Tobias in the same apartment as before.
I took a course in tarot reading in September and I'm now taking a course in how to feel good.
Many way laugh when they hear about that, but I don´t care.
I prefer taking the course now instead of 30, miserable years later..
I´m studying maths one evening a week trying to raise my grades and perhaps seek into med. school.
Other than that I still live with the man in my life. I´m trying to find a apartment of my own closer to town where I have friends and spare-time activities.
I´m having a bad cold right now so I´m not feeling very well. I am however optimistic ;)
Living with Tobias is not bad at all. I´ts been about three weeks since I moved in and I like it.
I´m not homesick or anything, and we don´t get on eachothers nerves too much either since we´re both working a lot.
Next payday is next friday and when I´m done with all my bills I have a poor month to look forward too..
It is hard sometimes to get up in the morning to go to work but it´s actually nice to at least have a work to complain about.
And know that ones efforts will pay off once a month.
I moved into my boyfriends apartment last weekend. I know we´ve only been together
for a short while, but I love him. And now it´s closer to my job too.
Other than this not much is happening. I went out for the great lake festival last friday.
I had a good time until me and Jennie went for a ride on one of the carousels. We were terrified.
I haven´t written that much lately but I´m still unemployed. I came home from the Hultsfred festival
about a week ago and I don´t think I´ll ever go there again.
I don´t have any plans at the moment, except for finding a job. I can´t believe it´s so hard.
And now the dog is barking. Excuse me.
On wednesday I´m going to Gothenbourg with Hanna on vacation. We deserve that.
And then I guess we´ll be unemployed for another while.
I´m suffering from a cold again and I don´t mind all this spare time at all.
I was so tired when I finally came home from Are.
We have new plans of what to do all the time but we´re not really in a hurry.
Being twenty isn´t really that old and I´m planning on living this way for at least another ten years.
Then we´ll see.
Oh, and I´m still single and as pathetic and lonely as ever, so nothing has really changed except
for the fact that I´m now earning money.
My birthday is only 16 days away and I´m intending to celebrate it too.
I might as well, while I still have springfeelings in me.