my thoughts

Welcome to my page.

I have grown over the past few years since I began this website. Looking back at it as it was before November 1st, 2003, I see glimpses of my old self. The one who wanted to intrigue and make friends with others. I have changed and am no longer that person. I've realized that I can't please everyone. I may want to, quite often, but I see that that is close to impossible. I believe in reality and a good dose of common sense has not hurt anyone as much as a person who I would consider a faker and who tells huge lies have. Even when it hurts, I prefer the truth. Anyhow, didn't mean to rant about that.

I'm happier then I've been in a long time, and that someone special, well he knows who he is. I don't look for the ending anymore. I'm growing up, I don't spend much time(unless I'm trying to avoid school stuff) there on Ancient Anguish anymore. But I think you'll find my sister on there alot, Michele aka Fairydust, and to all those who know her alts, well good for you. Family is pretty important to me too, but you know, I'm learning not to let it all be so much MY problem. Everyone makes their own mistakes, but I still do get in there and try to help quite often. What can I say? I'm a work in progress.

I'm a high school or middle school English/Language Arts teacher. Yes, I want to work with the youth out there, and I know that I will be constantly challenged during the course of my teaching career. But you know what? I will cope, I will find solutions and I will make the best of it. I don't want to be one of those teachers who freaking drops the ball on their class and leaves partway through the year. I don't want to be one of those who will just assign bookwork and seatwork and sit at my desk and do what I want. I want my students to learn, I want to try new stuff with them, I want to challenge them as they will challenge me. I don't want to be their friends, I intend to model what I hope they want to be in life. I hope to be their role model or at least show them there is more to life then parties, sex, and drugs. Yeah that was a generalization, but life has some generalizations, if you can't deal with it, go elsewhere. Life's about making decisions, and you know you will regret some of them at least at one time or another. That's human-we do regret! I regret but you know what, I'm not going to keep dwelling on the past-I need to move on! I want to breathe, to fly and to be free in my own unique right...

I consider myself to have an open mind, I will always do my best to listen to my friends, and those I know. I may not always like what I hear, but I will consider your point in the conversation. I don't feel the need to belittle you in order to feel superior, and I enjoy having semi-intelligent conversations with others who like to talk. So, have a great day! Blessed be.

"I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and understand." -Chinese proverb.

Links

Fantasy art of Elfwood
inner thoughts & scribblings
Links to some other things
Stories, poems and what-nots
Songs, lyrics that I like
Unicorns
Dragons
Jokes
More jokes
More and more jokes
Beginning to end of an old relationship
another Ancient Anguish page

Email: maab@angelfire.com