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A MEMORIAL TO JOHN
This page is a memorial to my son
John David Maurer
May 29, 1956 ~ May 28, 1987
THE SILENT CRISIS
I have gone through much thought and prayer in preparation to write this page.
My intentions are to help to inform and educate. I have searched through web
sites in an effort to provide the best links I could find. For those that are
ready to heal, have healed and are ready to go forth and help others. This page
is also for you. "There is a Duty to Warn" so the cycle will not continue.
A TRIBUTE TO JOHN
A tribute to my son. A release of my pain.
My journey in this world without you.
You left my presence, when you chose
to return to your Father in Heaven.
You did not leave my heart.
You took your future; the joy of
watching you raise your boys. With
you went the joy of seeing you become
a grandparent.
But you could not take with you the
memories of the past.
The memories of a little boy that was
always busy, doing, touching, getting
into things, exploring the world.
The memories of young child so eager
to earn a dollar. Pulling a wagon full of
vegetables grown in the backyard garden.
As a preteen convincing the neighborhood
merchants to let him clean their parking lot
for a dollar or two.
A teenager in a hurry to become a man.
To show the world
"If it can be done I can do it".
A young man so proud to be a parent.
Showing off his first born, his son.
The memories of a young father working
hard to support his family and go to school.
The well earned joy and pride in your
college graduation.
The young man embarking on the beginning
of the rest of his life only to have it all end
before it had even begun.
I will remember you as I watch your three
young boys grow, to young men.
I remembered you when your son was
married. I saw you when he became a
father.
I see you in your middle son as he says,
I want to go on a mission. I want to serve
the Lord.
I put my arms around your youngest, a baby
when you left. Now almost as tall as I am.
I see a mirror image of you.
You left my presence. But you will never
leave my mind or my heart.
Until we meet again, I will love you with the
undying love that only a parent can have
for a child.
I love you to the sky and back!
Your MOM
I cannot think of a greater pain than that of losing a child. It does not
matter the age of your child. It only matters that he is gone. A parent is not
meant to bury a child.
A lot of years have gone by since this tragedy in our life. It has taken a lot
of time to reach the point to write about it let alone talk about it.
When someone would ask how did he die? I would answer
it was an accident. Then I found the "save face" answer. "My son chose to go
live with His Father in Heaven".
The pain must be unbearable when a parent loses a child through a tragic
accident or murder. I do not know if the grief is different or harder under
those conditions.
I do know what it is like when a child or a loved one choses to return to their
Father in Heaven. And Yes the pain is unbearable.
SUICIDE
This is the one cause of death that is still hidden, from family, friends and
the world. Can it ever end if we continue to turn the other way and pretend it
did not happen.
I have learned suicide can and will continue in families if it is not
addressed. We need to teach our children not to follow a parent, sibling, or
friend that has taken their own life. The consequences of this action are like
a pebble tossed into a pond.
Some never accept the action. For others it can take
years just to learn to talk about it. No matter how we
address the subject suicide never goes away. The hurt
the pain is always there.
But, at sometime at some point we learn to cope with it, to go on with our
life. Not to face it and go on, would only let the cycle continue through the
generations. Let it begin with me. Let me make a difference.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
My son, you took part of me when you left this world.
In your place you left a pain that will never go away.
But, you also taught me a great lesson, what true
unconditional love is. You taught me to accept all through love. When I look at
the world now and deal with my earthly problems, I know it could be worse.
I learned through your death that I could accept just about anything. When I
see a parent grieving over the path a child has chosen to walk in their life. A
path they did not want them to chose. I whisper, accept the path your child
has chosen. It could be worse, you still have them. They are not dead.
Yes, it could be worse. We have only lost one child,
because you chose the path that you did. You have given others the strength to
continue on. The courage to fight and not let it happen to our family again.
To accept the challenge of life not of death.
THE SILENT CRISIS
Living With Suicide:
Shared Experiences and Voices of Loss
This is the very best
Survivors of Suicide Support Group
The Suicide Paradigm Links
Anonymous Survey
For those who have lost someone to suicide.
Support Groups by State
Online Resources --The best of Links
Diana Spisak Momorial Page
This is a good link
The Silent Crisis
This is an article from the Denver Post. It is a good
article that applies to Anyplace USA.
Suicide Facts
American Society of Suicidology
Light for Life Foundation of America
American Suicide Foundation
SA\VE - Suicide Awareness \ Voices of Education
the real world[suicide]
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