The Gates of Time
Hello all! This is the part of the website that talks about the creator of this website. For all who wish to gain more insight into my life, this is the place to be. I figure if I create a whole website on celebrities, music, and other stuff, the least I could do is dedicate one page to myself, right? So, here I am.
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Some Quick Facts About Me
Full Name- Robert Alberto Castaneda
Nicknames: Bobby, Bob, Rob, Bobo, Bobs.
Birthdate- May 14th, 1984
Astrological Sign- My sun sign is Taurus, and my moon sign is Scorpio.
Height- 5 feet, 7 inches
Weight- 135 pounds
Schooling- I attended Daiches Elementary School from kinder all the way to 5th grade. Then I attended Cigarroa Middle School from 6th to 8th grade. During 6th to 8th grade I was in band, and I played the trumpet. Then I quit band when I reached high school. From 7th all the way to Graduation I was in the Advanced Placement Educational Program. From 9th to 12th grade I attended Cigarroa High School. During my education at Cigarroa I was in Student Council, the Senior Class, UIL (which actually consisted of several events: Ready Writing, Editorial Writing, Headline Writing, News Writing, Number Sense, and Choir). I graduated from Cigarroa High School in May of the year 2002.
I attended Laredo Community College from Summer of 2002 all the way until Summer 2004. Then I applied to The University of Texas at Austin, came close to being totally rejected because entrance was very competitive and my GPA was not high enough (this being a 3.4). Then my Spring grades were factored into my GPA (which made my GPA a 3.5), and I was finally accepted into the University of Texas at Austin. I went to UTSA for 2 years and I graduated in 2006.
After graduating from UT Austin, I applied to the UTSA counseling program and was accepted. I studied there for two years until I got my Master's in Counseling. Now I am currently looking for a job, lol.
Drink: Big Red, as far as sodas go. In terms of alcohol, I have changed a bit. If a party affords me the opportunity, my primary liquor is tequila. I especially love Tequila Sunrises, but if that's not available, I'm not picky in terms of liquor. I also like strawberry daquires or winecoolers and I don't like beer at all. Not very partial to wine either.
Foods: Apple pie, pizza and spicy buffalo wings (mmm mmm good!), tostadas, panchos, strawberries with creme, hot dogs, spaghetti, and frosted animal cookies. Much more stuff, but that's all of it in a nutshell.
Hobbies: Nintendo (If that is a hobby), chess, lifting weights (even though I don't do it very often), singing, and working on my webpage.
Video Games: Smash Bros. Melee, Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time, Super Smash Bros., Perfect Dark, Banjo-Tooie, Super Mario 3.
Songs: "Outerspace" by Evan & Jaron, "I Can Tell" by BBMak, and "Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd
Shows: "Buffy the Vampire Slayer", "Xena, Warrior Princess", and "Sex and the City".
Movies: "The Silence of the Lambs", "Hannibal", "Lara Croft: Tomb Raider", "Queen of the Damned", "Cruel Intentions", "Kiss the Girls", "Independence Day", and "Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring".
Quotes: "Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir, open its jaws, and howl... It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace, but we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuddered, dank. Without passion, we’d be truly dead." - Angel, from "Buffy..."
"You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's blood... blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it." - Spike, from "Buffy..."
"Many that live deserve death. And some died that deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in the name of justice. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." -Gandalf, from "Lord of the Rings, The Fellowship..."
Likes and Dislikes
Likes: Green or blue eyes or just nice eyes in general, looking into people's eyes (for the purpose of seeing a person's innerself), considerate people, finding out something nice about a person that I was not aware of before, smelling nice perfume or cologne, intense chemistry radiating from the eyes like the picture below, observing interesting people sometimes with or without their knowledge (no, not in a stalker way, lol!), and long conversations that are deep and not superficial.
Dislikes: Being asked or told that I look angry (which only makes me even more angry), people who get a kick out of insulting someone else (even if they don't insult me), horndogs who think mostly about sex (horndogs include men and women), long awkward stretches of silence during conversations, smoking, and loving someone who will never love me back.
Personality Description Most of the time I'm a pretty quiet guy. Although I did have quite a few friends in high school, and I think I was popular, they probably never knew much about me. That's probably because I'm a very secretive person. I really don't share my inner feelings or thoughts with someone unless I really trust them, or unless they really annoy me and I want to tell them off. Although I'm quiet most of the time, sometimes I do get hyper. Oh, and most of the time I bring food to class! As far as weirdness goes, I'm kind of in the middle. How do I know I'm weird? For one, I've heard it from several people. You'd be suprised how that stuff gets around. For two, I just know. But I guess being weird can be a good thing.
My Philosophy on Life
This is quite an extensive subject. As far as religion, I do believe in God, but in addition to God, I also believe that spiritual elements balance the forces of nature. The triforce-like sign on the top of this page best represents this believe. It can mean several things. To me, the little men on the outside form a barrier that protects the inside. They represent the virtues of trust, unity, and reliance. The orange triangle stands for the power of earth, red triangle the power of fire, green triangle the power of wind, blue triangle the power of water, and magenta triangle (the pinkish color) is the power of heart. The yellow triangles represent all the smaller elements of life that interact and form the balance of life. This doesn't mean I'm totally against science. In fact, science works much in that way. It consists of delicate processes that perpetuate energy and motion, and those processes in turn contribute to life. Although science and nature are very different, they have two basic similarities. Sometimes they can be controlled and sometimes they can't, and sometimes they have the power to both destroy and create. Love is another topic that some people think about, at least in one form or another. Of course this brings me to the basic question, "What causes love?" Is love random, or is there some unconscious stimulus that motivates us to fall in love? Perhaps people sometimes fall in love with either looks or personality. People sometimes fall in love with people who are like them, and sometimes people fall in love with people who are totally different from them. I guess there's no real answer to that question, because it all depends on the person. If you think about it, differences can be good because both persons gives something to the relationship. Of course differences can be bad because sometimes people may not be able to resolve conflicts and decisions. All of these are perspectives, but I think it has something to do with attractive forces. Perhaps love sometimes fails simply because the bonds between two people wear out, kind of like the bonds between chemicals. Ah, but if love does fail, then wouldn't it be better for an individual to just forget about someone. Instant amnesia!!! Nope, unfortunately it's not that simple most of the time. Even after it's clear that certain loves are one-sided and a person falls out of love, the feeling of love can still be felt from the other person. Love just isn't logical.
"Love isn't brains, children, it's blood... blood screaming inside you to work its will."
Time does help cure bad love, but psychologically, our past experiences and observations, including those of love, will always have an influence on us in the present and in the future. It's also important to remember that even if a person has bad relationship experiences in teenage years, it's not written in stone that the person will be a grouch for the rest of his/her life. What makes the impact of our observations and experiences more significant or less significant is our own thoughts and beliefs, and whether we let those beliefs take hold of us. There's also false love. Sometimes a person falls in love with another individual, wanting to buy them flowers and candy and gifts, but the truth is that person can sometimes become obsessed with the other individual and/or lose all sense of reason. This is known as obsession, not love. Obsession takes more out a person and doesn't put anything back, whereas love sometimes does. Do not confuse obsession with love, for obsession is more of a selfish wanting. Waking up and not being able to get the image of the person out of your head despite the fact that the relationship is over, sometimes not being able to stop yourself from thinking about the person, wanting them and yet hating them at the same time for not wanting you, all of that is obsession. Even after "switching sides" and going from loving a person to hating a person to help get rid of the awful feeling of love, a person doesn't feel better. All that does is make you even more mad. Time does help, but the scars always stay there, just like a bad cut, and unfortunately sometimes even old wounds can be reopened. Sometimes you can go months without being with someone, with knowing that the relationship is over, and you still have this desire to see or be with the person, even when it's extremely clear that the othger person just wasn't as into you like the way you were into them. From my observations of my friends, the negative experiences they went through seemed to make them more depressed and cynical. All that commitment and pain they must have gone through. It's gotta take a pretty strong person to either stay away from love, or keep a relationship going. Love has the power to complete you and tear you inside out, but I think love can also be a very beautiful thing. Love is very complicated and messy.
"Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping, waiting, and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir, open its jaws, and howl... It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace, but we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuddered, dank. Without passion, we’d be truly dead."
I like to spend time alone sometimes, but not to distance myself from the world. I do it because it helps me relax and think. I do get depressed once in a while (not like clinically depressed but kind of sad) and there are several reasons for this. One reason is because sometimes I just want to have someone that I can share my life with, someone that I can love and who will love me the same way. Another reason is that sometimes feel like I don't belong in this world, like if I'm meant to be somewhere else. If I had a choice, I would like to live a higher, immortal, spiritual state of life. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to die and cease to exist, I'm definately not suicidal and I know life is pretty good to me for the most part, but I just want to exist in a higher form, if there is such a thing. For the most part, my philosophy on life is pretty much in the middle, with some great parts and some rough spots, but whose life isn't, right?
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