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It's been awhile now, since you left.
And I'm actually getting used to it,
I mean, really.
It's been awhile now,
Since I've been walking home alone.
And I'm actually used to this emptiness within,
It hurts, no doubt.
It's not like it matters so much now.
I stopped crying about it centuries ago.
And I stopped waiting for you.
It's nothing serious, I'm fine.
You don't have to say your condolences
Or wish things were like before
I can accept reality.
You don't have to write back
And pretend that you still care
Coz I know you don't -
You've replaced me, long ago.
Please don't think I'm stupid.
You don't have to explain
And play psychiatrist with my pain
Coz I know ok -
I don't need another deceiver in my life.
I learn from my mistakes.
And I thought our love was a fairytale.
And your kisses were my sleeping beauty.
But seriously, I've awakened from a walking nightmare.
And you said all your Romeos.
And your poetry entraps me in a web.
I'm still untangling myself out of this mess.
You think it's funny?
You think it's so cool to play with emotions?
Well alright, I'll laugh with you.
Not because of the humor,
But for you-being such a fool to let me go.
You think I'm so easy to forget?
You think you can replace me just like that?
Well, I don't think so.
Somehow the thought of me will hunt you forever
And I hope it will -
Until you die.
I quit, even though there was no resignment.
I've had it from loving you.
And I don't need this job anymore.
This situation's vacant for me.
I quit, even though I broke the contract.
I've had it from believing you.
And I'm not expecting any reinbursements.
I'll look for a better life in the classifieds.
I don't need you to open the door for me.
I'll blindfold my way out.
I can handle that myself - I ain't handicapped.
I don't need your good-bye kiss.
Send it to your bitch.
It's bitter- sort of like your love for me.
Don't hug me.
I'm scared you'll engulf my soul.
And I'll be trapped-forever.
Don't let me cry in your presence.
I'm scared I'll end up in isolation.
I don't want to summon your ego.
No I love you's, please.
Your words stab my heart like a rusty knife.
I'm afraid it'll leave an open wound.
No promises, please.
Your words will only lead me to my black hole.
I'm afraid of living in tunnels.
Just leave me alone and give me a chance to recover.
Just say it's over and I'll be on my way.
Away from you.
Just give me space and give me time to think.
Just say the word and I'll go.
Gone to an opposite direction from you.
You know
It's funny how we used to chat about mostly everything -
Online and offline.
Now, we hardly say anything to each other -
ANYMORE.
I even deleted your name on my list,
Just to forget about you.
You know
It's funny how we used to spend hours writing to each one -
Online and offline.
Now, we hardly greet each other happy birthdays -
ANYMORE.
I even blocked your mail in my box,
Just to go on without you.
You see little things like these, still hurt me,
(I say little coz I know we're through.)
Little things like these still leave me bleeding,
like something's pulling me into a whirlpool.
It's just, little things like these, still bug me,
(I say little coz I know we don't give anymore.)
Little things like these still leave me hanging,
like something's pushing me into a wall.
Things we once idolized with all our cares,
now with so little value.
And me ending up hugging my teddy bear,
Coz that used to be your place.
Things we once remembered with all our hearts,
Now we pretend to forget.
And me ending up looking at the calendar - JUNE 24,
Coz that used to be our anniversary.
Oh well ~
I'll just wait and let it pass,
Like nothing special has ever occurred today.
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