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From your childhood love:
I used to mess around, fooled about
Flirt from one flaw to another
But I never let it get into me
I never took anything seriously
Just as I never looked your way
Same story, the same blinded lies I face of:
"There's nothing here so I leave you in peace"
But now I am so lost in thoughts
I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore.
I know there's an ocean between us
And I never meant it to be this way
But if I could have forsaken all this
Forgive me but I'd take us back to yesterday
For the things that I could've had in you
I want to tell you I was wrong
I wish I had even thought of us
Now that you're gone I want you more each day
This has slapped me on my face
For the things I've said that I shouldn't have said
For the things I didn't regret, now I've regretted and have asked:
What was I on when I turned away from you?
Without your love, I realize
If it takes my whole life through
No matter what I must find my way back
I won't leave unless you come w/ me
I miss you so day and night
It seems like you're still here, BUT YOU'RE NOT
Now that I'm so lost in words
I'm not even talking decent anymore
I should've been looking at "then"
Then I shouldn't be what I am "now"
Like a sentimental fanatic
Lost in thoughts, lost in words
I don't know why I'm going crazy alone in a daze
My heart isn't the same and I don't even think
Unless I think about you and you make me so sentimental
And it has slapped me on my face
For the things I've done without thinking
For you I've rejected and dreams I've shattered
Walking mindlessly, doing things on my own, I don't even feel
Unless I feel you and that's when I feel so sentimental
Sitting on the bay window, so human
I know I'm about to TOSS THIS LAPTOP OUT.
I don't understand coz I knew had a chance but didn't grab it
I wish I could've made you turn around
You see, I only wanted me to someone to love
But something happened on the way to heaven
You had a hold of me and wouldn't let go
I never realize all this until I lost you
Crazed, words and thoughts disoriented, reminds me of
Things we take for granted, we realize the value
Once gone.
Lord, let this not be one of my:
I'll sleep on this.
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