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There are clouds forming above
Darkening the whole day
The sun's gone, the rain's come
Like heaven's pouring down it's tears
I watch it fall outside my window
Wondering why my tears are falling too
Why are you so cruel?
There is no one outside
The street is empty, wet and lonely
And infrequent glimpses of passers by
As I watch a spectral reflection
Closer, closely to the window
Is that person really me?
I touch the metal rods from it
I touch the cold, lifeless glass
But I cannot touch the raindrops outside
Not from where I am, canned
As I stand, I fall
I bounce off these 4 walls
Absorbing the warmth inside
As the heat penetrates through me
Still, it feels cold deep within
And how I wish it didn't
I guess I'll never know why
There used to be two pairs of shoes
Outside my room, now there is one
There were two people in the dark entwined
But now, it's just the shadow and I here -
I miss you and it hurt me so
But I don't mind keeping this bottled up
Inside of me
I learned to realize many things
When you left me
They gave me to strength each day
I learned that as time change
People do too --
That's why I stand here in solitude
Watching cars pass by
Hoping for one to stop by and take me
People who take time to care
Risk their lives being betrayed
To give and to give and to
Never receive for oneself
Still, they learn to live with hopes in the sky
It's the one who goes out in the world
To give affections and illumination
To those who are in need
The ones left with their hearts
Meant to be shattered mercilessly
I belong to these people
And I know how bad it feels
But I'm used to it by now
I know how others come and go
Passing by with their pathetic passing
Glances offering their shallow grievances
It's always I who gets hurt
The one who always stays
I know how love can get so heartless
Stabbing the heart making it bleed
Leaving me counting teardrops
Night after night until morning dawn
Staring through the same windows
Watching cars go by
People just don't realize
what they have until it's gone
But I never have thought that
We could be one of them
And all I ever wanted was US
To remain forever the same
For all time and time again
Well I'm hating, all of this
This, this, everything of this
Anything of You & Me in the bin
So where the hell are you?
So where are you when
I needed someone too?
I'm so tired of needing you
Wanting you; now I know why I felt
Like shit when I woke up this morning
As it was all so good to be true
You came along and tore this world out and
Around me without waiting for my response
You couldn't even stay for awhile
To feel me --
Now, I feel like things must end
Coz you don't feel us
As I hold on to me and I settle to scream
Reality is just to much to bear
I know time will heal, if I keep my faith
As I stare through the window day by day
Still hoping for a miracle to find me
Someone to stop by and say that I'm wanted
Someone who'd take time to notice that
I exist --
I'm fed up watching cars pass me by.
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