IceHawk0000: can I help you with something?
CandieBunnie69: i can't just talk to u anymore?
IceHawk0000: well are you going to continue
being a bitch
CandieBunnie69: i'm tryin not to
IceHawk0000: yeah well you don't seem like it
CandieBunnie69: i haven't said more than three
sentences to you
IceHawk0000: I mean lately in general
CandieBunnie69: I'm sorry
IceHawk0000: that doesn't exactly change
anything
CandieBunnie69: neither does threatening me
jason
IceHawk0000: how have I threatened you?
CandieBunnie69: last night
IceHawk0000: explain
CandieBunnie69: no then ur gonna say my pov is
a bitch pov and then get all mad at me
IceHawk0000: yeah probably
CandieBunnie69: u haven't threatened me, i'm
seeing it all wrong
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry that i drove you to
another girl
IceHawk0000: like I said it doesn't matter
CandieBunnie69: how does it not matter
IceHawk0000: being sorry
IceHawk0000: how's it going to change anything?
CandieBunnie69: i will try and think before i say
anything
CandieBunnie69: from both ways
IceHawk0000: to what end?
IceHawk0000: what do I get?
CandieBunnie69: what do i get jason
CandieBunnie69: why is it always what you gets
IceHawk0000: because I've already made the
efforts
CandieBunnie69: rather, what do u want, u
always say i'm a bitch because i do not conform
to ur pov
IceHawk0000: everything I want is absurd and
impossible as you say... has been that way for
years
IceHawk0000: so I'm done with this bullshit
IceHawk0000: why in the hell would I spend more
time waiting on someone especially if they'd do
nothing that I ever asked
CandieBunnie69: i did try and come to pa over
the summer
CandieBunnie69: i did with my friends
CandieBunnie69: we couldn't cross cuz he was
17
CandieBunnie69: i didn't wanna tell u
CandieBunnie69: cuz it wasn't important
IceHawk0000: I'm tired of waiting
CandieBunnie69: and u think i'm not
IceHawk0000: you never cared about what I
wanted
IceHawk0000: so why should I care about that?
CandieBunnie69: so what do you want to do
jason, i can't come there yet, i can't get a
damned scanner home... what do you want me
to do
IceHawk0000: you had all the chances before
IceHawk0000: I'm tired of this little game
CandieBunnie69: the past is gone, i can't change
it, u can only look towards the future
IceHawk0000: what future might that be?
IceHawk0000: the future is yet to come
IceHawk0000: present is here
CandieBunnie69: what if u can't do a single
thing about the present
IceHawk0000: you should have thought about
that when the past was the present
CandieBunnie69: i'm stupid
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry
IceHawk0000: no not stupid... you just have no
common sense
IceHawk0000: do you know what Lydia is?
IceHawk0000: that you are not I mean
CandieBunnie69: i got confused
CandieBunnie69: ur friend?
IceHawk0000: no she's not a whore... she's
occasionally arroused and closeby... and she
actually likes to play with
IceHawk0000: me
IceHawk0000: not sexually
IceHawk0000: but just playing around and being
fuckups
IceHawk0000: you ever wonder that the things I
want are security and someone I can play around
with without being bitched at?
IceHawk0000: I shouldn't say bitched at
IceHawk0000: I should say made to feel like a
total asshole
CandieBunnie69: i don't feel that i can do it with
you anymore because i think u'd think i'm even
more retarded
IceHawk0000: ever think that I enjoy it?
IceHawk0000: ever notice how things went
downhill when you stopped?
CandieBunnie69: a lil
IceHawk0000: ever notice that you're in like a
constant state of pms towards me?
CandieBunnie69: not really, sorry
IceHawk0000: no I can't do anything or say
anything that I used to because it's wrong, no I
can't play around and we can't tease each other
because it's wrong
IceHawk0000: tell me then, what's right?
IceHawk0000: you went from being a normal
wonderful girl to being a nun
CandieBunnie69: cuz one day, i got scared
IceHawk0000: yeah well thanks a lot
CandieBunnie69: would it make u feel better i
don't tell u wuz wrong
IceHawk0000: nothing can make it better
IceHawk0000: because you fucked me over
repeatedly and treated my like shit for years
CandieBunnie69: and u've never done it to me?
IceHawk0000: after you went crazy I did
CandieBunnie69: u went gay
CandieBunnie69: u went into a hospital
CandieBunnie69: and I DID IT
IceHawk0000: that was waaaaaay after the shit
you pulled
IceHawk0000: before you got this holier than
thou attitude
IceHawk0000: so how many of your friends get
treated that way huh?
IceHawk0000: I'm guessing none
CandieBunnie69: because i have no friends
IceHawk0000: hey I bet you can joke around and
play with them all you like
IceHawk0000: yeah okay
IceHawk0000: that's total shit
CandieBunnie69: u think i tell them stuff i can
tell you
IceHawk0000: yeah
IceHawk0000: I do
CandieBunnie69: well i don't cuz i can't
IceHawk0000: wouldn't surprise me one bit
CandieBunnie69: i happy, i joke, i act my life
out, take a break and u'd see that i'm hot
fucking happy at all, i hate my life and i hate
that i'm just, a loser
IceHawk0000: yeah I sent you a picture of my
dick because I figured it would be a funny thing
to do and you SEEMED to be arroused at the time
IceHawk0000: and it was as if I put a bag of
burning dog shit on your porch
IceHawk0000: here's an idea
IceHawk0000: quit being such an uppity cunt
IceHawk0000: and people might actually like you
IceHawk0000: I know when I've been happy and
told you why for some of the stupid things me
and my friends do... you've been like the monkey
to my wrench and brought me down like an
anti-aircraft gun
IceHawk0000: but for some reason I pretend to
be amused at the things you talk about and
everything else
CandieBunnie69: and u dun think that i've told
you things and you completely and totally
thought it was stupid and you're retarded
IceHawk0000: or at least for awhile
IceHawk0000: you're forgetting your time table
again
IceHawk0000: look at when that happened
IceHawk0000: you went psycho
IceHawk0000: and changed into this major bitch
IceHawk0000: so I simply stopped trying so hard
CandieBunnie69: u simply turned into a machine
CandieBunnie69: a coke machine
IceHawk0000: oh yes that made sense
CandieBunnie69: it did
CandieBunnie69: like
CandieBunnie69: when u buy a coke, u gotta
pay a buck
IceHawk0000: yes people put change in me and I
shit out cold cans of coke
CandieBunnie69: when i wanna ur attention, i
gotta pay something
IceHawk0000: hey you never gave me shit
IceHawk0000: so why would I even care?
CandieBunnie69: so i haven't even been a friend
to you all these years?
IceHawk0000: more like an aquaintence that
pretends to care about me when it suits her
CandieBunnie69: that's how u see me?
IceHawk0000: yup
IceHawk0000: I really don't know why I'm even
bothering to argue this point with you
IceHawk0000: because it won't change anything
at all
CandieBunnie69: u don't even think i loved you
CandieBunnie69: so u think it was all lies?
IceHawk0000: that's the way it seems
IceHawk0000: so what... no comment on that
one or what?
CandieBunnie69: i'm hurt that u feel that way
IceHawk0000: well
IceHawk0000: guess what?
IceHawk0000: it's your fault
IceHawk0000: and you're hurt?
IceHawk0000: ha that's a new one
IceHawk0000: well here's one
IceHawk0000: I'm hurt
IceHawk0000: very deeply
IceHawk0000: and have been every day
IceHawk0000: since you basically came right out
and told me you couldn't allow yourself to be
interested in me in the way you previously were
IceHawk0000: and since you changed your entire
attitude and personality
IceHawk0000: give me a reason to keep putting
up with this shit
CandieBunnie69: because I don't want you to
leave me
CandieBunnie69: ?
IceHawk0000: why not? you need someone to
piss on that badly?
CandieBunnie69: I DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT I
PISS ON YOU OKAY APPARENTLY
CandieBunnie69: i don't even think about the
future without you in it
IceHawk0000: yeah well there won't be a future I
guess if you don't quit treating me like I'm a
fucking insignificant piece of shit
IceHawk0000: yes I've always been told that in
order to make a relationship work you must
compromise
IceHawk0000: well what happens when one side
gives everything away and the other does
nothing?
IceHawk0000: I'll tell you
CandieBunnie69: it dies?
IceHawk0000: the party that's given everything
becomes curious as to why they're the only
person doing anything
IceHawk0000: and then begins wanting the same
IceHawk0000: then when the other person is
completely unwilling to do anything...
IceHawk0000: the person that's given everything
closes off entirely because it seems pointless
IceHawk0000: I might be back
IceHawk0000: I gotta do some laundry
CandieBunnie69: okay
IceHawk0000: if I think about it I'll probably be
back
CandieBunnie69: okay
Auto response from IceHawk0000: Sorry
CandieBunnie69, I'm not here... I'll catcha soon
though!
IceHawk0000: yeah
IceHawk0000: anyways
CandieBunnie69: wb
IceHawk0000: whatever
IceHawk0000: like you even care
CandieBunnie69: how can u say that i don't
IceHawk0000: think about it
CandieBunnie69: when everything i've said to
you has been the truth
IceHawk0000: what have you ever done... to
show me?
IceHawk0000: I know you're a good liar
CandieBunnie69: do you know that i love you
too
IceHawk0000: yeah whatever
IceHawk0000: I hear that 60 times a day
CandieBunnie69: why do you even care about
me then if you think that everything that I tell
you is a lie
IceHawk0000: because believe it or not... I...
unlike you... care about the other side of this
relationship
CandieBunnie69: u think that i don't care about
you
IceHawk0000: well no...
IceHawk0000: I take that back
IceHawk0000: you care...
IceHawk0000: just not as much as most of the
things
IceHawk0000: you know... there was a time when
I worshipped you
IceHawk0000: but you beat that out of me
CandieBunnie69: i dont' know why u would
though
IceHawk0000: yeah well you were different
IceHawk0000: because I don't anymore
CandieBunnie69: i mean, u know you, ur mr. all
the answers
IceHawk0000: and you're Ms. I don't give a shit
about the person that cares about every hair on
my head and treats me like a queen so I'll change
and treat him like a complete asshole because I
don't really give a shit about him and care more
about everything else but him
IceHawk0000: what happened to the person I fell
in love with anyways?
CandieBunnie69: she's till here
CandieBunnie69: juss..
CandieBunnie69: suppressed for a while? x.x
IceHawk0000: yeah you're asking me
IceHawk0000: surpressed
IceHawk0000: supressed*
IceHawk0000: wow...
IceHawk0000: it's been a year and a half
CandieBunnie69: i don't remember how i was
IceHawk0000: like I said
IceHawk0000: it's not supressed
IceHawk0000: it's gone
CandieBunnie69: how was i
IceHawk0000: you were wonderful
CandieBunnie69: innocent and retarded?
IceHawk0000: playful... funny... you actually had
a sense of humor...
IceHawk0000: and another thing was sexual...
that was good too
IceHawk0000: but hey that all went away
CandieBunnie69: i just asked u a shitload of
questions back then
IceHawk0000: yeah well you seemed to have a
pulse
IceHawk0000: then you go "gee I feel like a
whore"
IceHawk0000: and then everything after that
went shitty
CandieBunnie69: after we went at it almost
every other day
CandieBunnie69: lol
IceHawk0000: that's not funny
IceHawk0000: how is that funny?
CandieBunnie69: itz not funnie... it was giggling
IceHawk0000: then after that I've been on some
kind of ration
CandieBunnie69: juss remembering.. hehe
IceHawk0000: and you've gotten bitchier and less
cooperative every day since
IceHawk0000: that was nice
CandieBunnie69: yes.. it was... hmm
IceHawk0000: I really love getting made to feel
insignificant
IceHawk0000: so who have you been fucking all
this time?
CandieBunnie69: i haven't been fucking anyone
CandieBunnie69: ur not insignificant, you in my
mind is my future
IceHawk0000: I don't want this
IceHawk0000: I wanted you like you were
IceHawk0000: you changed
IceHawk0000: and I don't want you like this
IceHawk0000: I don't want you in my future or
my present like this
CandieBunnie69: I can't change overnite Jason
IceHawk0000: bullshit
IceHawk0000: you did
CandieBunnie69: i did not
IceHawk0000: yes you did
IceHawk0000: back then you acted like you were
actually attracted to me
IceHawk0000: and made me feel special
CandieBunnie69: i am attracted to u
CandieBunnie69: hehe
IceHawk0000: you don't fucking show it
IceHawk0000: ever
CandieBunnie69: -.-
IceHawk0000: I'm not waiting anymore
IceHawk0000: I hate the "new Cara"
IceHawk0000: the old Cara was what I wanted
IceHawk0000: if you're gonna be this way
IceHawk0000: then I want nothing to do with you
CandieBunnie69: how do u want me to express
it then
IceHawk0000: notice how much more talkative I
was before?
CandieBunnie69: kinda
IceHawk0000: you have until wednesday
CandieBunnie69: to
IceHawk0000: change back
CandieBunnie69: with no help at all
IceHawk0000: you changed into whatever the hell
you call yourself now with no help
CandieBunnie69: well it seemed easier o.o
IceHawk0000: I get more excitement out of a
block of wood
CandieBunnie69: i dont' even remember what i
was back then
CandieBunnie69: jason that's a problem!
IceHawk0000: well
IceHawk0000: too bad
IceHawk0000: on wednesday I'm seeing Lydia
IceHawk0000: if you aren't back to the way you
were
IceHawk0000: I'm asking her out
IceHawk0000: that's not a threat
IceHawk0000: that's a promise
IceHawk0000: and once again I'm being lenient
CandieBunnie69: how so
IceHawk0000: because I wasn't planning on
talking to you again after last night
CandieBunnie69: so u just gonna leave
IceHawk0000: am I talking to you right now?
CandieBunnie69: yes...
IceHawk0000: then quit being a ditz and pull your
head outta your ass
CandieBunnie69: i dunno how
IceHawk0000: well you'd best learn
IceHawk0000: because you only have tomorrow
and the next day
CandieBunnie69: jason... please help me
IceHawk0000: no
IceHawk0000: I've helped you countless times
IceHawk0000: I'm done helping until I get the girl
I had back
CandieBunnie69: how can i get her back
CandieBunnie69: when i don't remember what
she's like
IceHawk0000: that's your problem
CandieBunnie69: but.. you're always there
CandieBunnie69: i need you
IceHawk0000: if that was true you wouldn't have
changed in the first place
CandieBunnie69: jason i'm sorry
CandieBunnie69: i'm so sorry please help me
IceHawk0000: what more do you want?
IceHawk0000: I've given you everything I have
CandieBunnie69: i do'nt know.. i want you
IceHawk0000: I don't believe you
CandieBunnie69: but u dun want me.. and u
want me to change, so i wanna know what to
change to
IceHawk0000: I want you as you were
IceHawk0000: you were so wonderful before
IceHawk0000: treated me like I meant something
CandieBunnie69: you are the world
IceHawk0000: if that's true
IceHawk0000: why'd you change?
IceHawk0000: why wouldn't you do any of the
things I asked?
IceHawk0000: why did you always make me feel
like I was a complete idiot by arguing about
anything I'd say that you didn't exactly agree
with?
CandieBunnie69: I don't know
CandieBunnie69: i do'nt know
CandieBunnie69: i do'nt know
IceHawk0000: you know
CandieBunnie69: no i don't
CandieBunnie69: brb
IceHawk0000: it really started to occur to me
when you refused to give me the pics I wanted
CandieBunnie69: okay...
IceHawk0000: that triggered my thought
processes
IceHawk0000: and the denial came to a halt
IceHawk0000: you used to make me happy just
by talking to me
IceHawk0000: but lately
IceHawk0000: it just gets me more and more
pissed off
CandieBunnie69: cuz itz juss about the pic
CandieBunnie69: pic pic pic, itz like.. dats all of
me
IceHawk0000: okay then
IceHawk0000: if that's all you think it is
IceHawk0000: you have until tuesday
CandieBunnie69: jason
IceHawk0000: I'm done being nice
IceHawk0000: I'm sick of this shit
CandieBunnie69: ...
IceHawk0000: it's like my girlfriend died
CandieBunnie69: i didn't die...
IceHawk0000: and you're her twin or something
that can't even compare
IceHawk0000: but now
IceHawk0000: come tuesday
IceHawk0000: if she's not back
IceHawk0000: Lydia will be my girlfriend
IceHawk0000: and don't give me that "I'll die
without you" shit
IceHawk0000: because it's simply just more
incentive for you to change back
IceHawk0000: would you like to piss me off even
more?
IceHawk0000: because I'm sure I could cut it off
to tomorrow at midnight
CandieBunnie69: no
CandieBunnie69: no pissing off
IceHawk0000: you're lucky that I'm even trying at
all
IceHawk0000: considering that I spent friday with
Lydia at Monica's house
IceHawk0000: oh and by change... I don't mean
partial
IceHawk0000: I want back what I had
IceHawk0000: you think I'm being unfair?
CandieBunnie69: no...
IceHawk0000: then what am I being?
CandieBunnie69: i just... want u to help me a
bits..
IceHawk0000: haven't I helped you in the past?
IceHawk0000: what more do you want from me?
CandieBunnie69: u want me to change..
CandieBunnie69: i kinda.. wanna know... that
umm
CandieBunnie69: what i should change back into
IceHawk0000: the way you were 2 years ago
CandieBunnie69: i dunno how
CandieBunnie69: Jason... 2 years ago i was still
the innocent lil girl... i didn't even know what bj
meant nor did i know what 69 meant
IceHawk0000: and that had nothing to do with
your personality
CandieBunnie69: how is my personality different
CandieBunnie69: i don't even see it being
different
CandieBunnie69: see my problem?!?
IceHawk0000: I
IceHawk0000: am becoming
IceHawk0000: angry
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry
CandieBunnie69: i'm so sorry
CandieBunnie69: please don't be mad
CandieBunnie69: i'm begging you
CandieBunnie69: please don't
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry
IceHawk0000: please don't what?
CandieBunnie69: don't be angry
IceHawk0000: why
IceHawk0000: don't I have that right anymore?
IceHawk0000: you plan on taking that from me
too?
CandieBunnie69: u do but but
CandieBunnie69: when ur angry ur really mean
IceHawk0000: well you were perfect the way you
were
IceHawk0000: but you changed
IceHawk0000: and I had no say
CandieBunnie69: i'm sorry... please be angry
IceHawk0000: you know
IceHawk0000: I used to love you with every
ounce of who I was
IceHawk0000: then you changed
CandieBunnie69: ur angry with every ounce you
have now?
CandieBunnie69: towards me*
IceHawk0000: and I've liked you less each day
since
IceHawk0000: people I just meet treat me better
than you do
IceHawk0000: I can get along better with
strangers than I can with you now
IceHawk0000: exactly what made you become
such an intolerable bitch?
CandieBunnie69: i don't know
IceHawk0000: you said you got scared
IceHawk0000: or was that a lie?
CandieBunnie69: u never lemme finish cuz u got
mad
CandieBunnie69: i do'nt want u mad
IceHawk0000: goddamnit I didn't want a speech I
just want to know what I asked
CandieBunnie69: i didn't lie
IceHawk0000: well what was so damned scary
that had you turn into something that I want
nothing to do with?
CandieBunnie69: i'm scared that u'd think too
much of me
CandieBunnie69: then u'd expect me to do all
these things so wonderfully
CandieBunnie69: so perfectly or whatever
CandieBunnie69: and and i can't do it and i am
not that girl that u wanted
CandieBunnie69: like you don't wants me now
IceHawk0000: so then you decided to be a total
flake and make me despise you?
IceHawk0000: if that's what you were afraid of
IceHawk0000: then why wouldn't you do any of
the things I asked?
IceHawk0000: because that had nothing to do
with it
CandieBunnie69: partly cuz i'm scared that you
wouldn't like what u saw despite what u said
cuz u could've been lyin or whatever and then
itz totally weird... and now ur mad at me
IceHawk0000: you told me before that it made
you uncomfortable
IceHawk0000: well then
IceHawk0000: if I make you so uncomfortable
IceHawk0000: I can solve that problem very
easily
IceHawk0000: all I have to do is click this little
button
IceHawk0000: and you won't have to be
uncomfortable with me again
IceHawk0000: I know I don't make Lydia
uncomfortable
IceHawk0000: and I know she was scared of
disappointing me
IceHawk0000: but yet that didn't stop her
IceHawk0000: in fact you're the only one it ever
stopped
IceHawk0000: when you love someone you make
sacrifices of pride
IceHawk0000: it seems that you don't
IceHawk0000: so I see no need for me to hang
around
CandieBunnie69: itz not pride :-( i wouldn't
mind if u was here
IceHawk0000: oh but the things I asked for were
IceHawk0000: you have 30 seconds to give me a
good reason
IceHawk0000: t-20
IceHawk0000: t-10
IceHawk0000: 5
IceHawk0000: 4
IceHawk0000: 3
IceHawk0000: 2
IceHawk0000: 1
IceHawk0000: and good explanations yet?
CandieBunnie69: umm
CandieBunnie69: no -.- i'm a failure
CandieBunnie69: how can i give you the pic then
if i can't scan it in
IceHawk0000: you had plenty of chances
IceHawk0000: the scanner thing is only recently
IceHawk0000: and that's not the only thing I'm
talking about
IceHawk0000: I'm talking about a lot of things
IceHawk0000: and the scanner died only weeks
ago
CandieBunnie69: like changing?
IceHawk0000: I've been begging for months
IceHawk0000: I'm talking about how it basically
takes me hours to even get you slightly horny or
even willing to talk about it
IceHawk0000: or how when you are... you don't
even attempt any of the things I want because
you just "can't do it"
IceHawk0000: I'm tired of waiting
IceHawk0000: I'm tired of having to miss out on
all these things because I'm waiting for you to
turn back into who I fell in love with
IceHawk0000: well you're not anymore
IceHawk0000: and something tells me you won't
ever be again
IceHawk0000: I'm going at 1am
IceHawk0000: give me a reason why I should
bother with you again?
CandieBunnie69: cuz i love you alot and i don't
ever want you go away
IceHawk0000: what does that have to do with
me?
CandieBunnie69: cuz you love me too?
CandieBunnie69: ..
IceHawk0000: I did
IceHawk0000: what have I done for you?
CandieBunnie69: u will love me?
CandieBunnie69: ..
IceHawk0000: well?
CandieBunnie69: everything?
IceHawk0000: and what have you done for me?
CandieBunnie69: i've been there for u?
IceHawk0000: what else?
CandieBunnie69: i've talked u outta stupid
ideas?
IceHawk0000: it's 1 am
IceHawk0000 signed off at 12:57:38 AM.