Reorganization 10/06/90

Stewart: What does it begin with? Anybody know right off-hand(snapping)(((taking Jesus seriously, problem with sin settled))) Really living admitting the truth about me, which looks hopeless. If I ever admitted the truth about me, there's no hope. That's the way it feels. How much do you love Jesus? And how much do you believe in Him? That's what you're gonna prove. By your running away and not paying attention or by your taking Jesus seriously the way I do. That's what you're gonna vote. You're gonna vote. The results will be one or the other. You're  drunk or you're growing in Christ. Did you hear about our meeting last night?(no) older brothers(no) what?
Brother6: I heard a little bit about it.
Stewart: It wasn't nice. Now , what do you got going here? Is this an insisting following Jesus the real way or is it just getting together? Let's hear it. ( lot of just getting together) It's not even interesting. And pretty soon you're gonna need something more interesting. It's not interesting just to be sitting around. And to have no confidence about what you're doing. You might go for it because it feels good to the flesh but you hate it. and you're not getting anywhere that way. And you've got to come to your senses, come to your right mind, and begin with living the truth about you. And it's pretty bad...It's PRETTY BAD. Jack, the rest of ya maybe. your reaction is "well, I just don't care about the truth about me. I'm not gonna take it seriously." Well That's your fatal mistake right there. Even before Jesus. That's before Jesus. Whether you'll prepare for him or not. Are you gonna prepare for Jesus or you just don't care? (care, prepare) What do you know about preparing and John the Baptist? and make straight the path. Whaddaya know about that?
Brother 7: I know it begins with repentance of sin

Stewart: How can you repent for something that "I don't think matters anyway?" I repeat, Jack...How can you repent when my attitude is "I don't think sin matters anyway? If that's your attitude how are you gonna repent? Now how are you living? My sin is an awful offense against God and it bothers you the way Jack is so bothered that he can't pay attention, by the next flower that goes by his eyes that's what he concentrates on. Is that you? Or do you concentrate on the basics? Do you compare God's wrath and the real truth about you? Do you ever do that? Did you ever read....when you're done...ready?...Did you ever read the scripture that says "Who considers thy wrath according to the fear of thee" Did you ever read that?(yeah I read it) What's the anti-reference to that? "I shall be safe though I walk in the stubbornness of my heart." Because I'm  Jack, I'm so great. It doesn't matter. I'm so great. Is that the way I live? I'm so great it doesn't matter what I do. And besides, I didn't do anything bad today, so leave me alone. Is that our attitude? Is this what we're insisting with each other? People, did you ever compare all the scriptures about God's wrath against sin and the real truth about you? Did you ever do that? It will be an eye-opener. Did you discuss the fear of God here tonight?(no) As to whether the fear of God is really in you or whether you're just rolling along? God said you do not fear me. The fear of me is not in me. The fear of me is not in you. The fear of me is not in you. Is that true about you? Or do you really fear God? That's what we gotta unite in. This is part of 'you must take Jesus seriously this way.' And I didn't invent this way and I'm not the authority. But this is the way, People! Walk in it or else. And it begins with taking my sin seriously and what does taking my sin seriously mean instead of  trying to act like it doesn't matter. Compare the truth about it to what God says about it in the Bible.  Now anyway let's hear it brothers. What can we get into here tonight. We must take Jesus seriously, how can we reorganized to help everybody to take Jesus more seriously?
Brother 8 :: I think one thing we can start to do is find a ...plan a schedule about bringing brothers to you to get worked on or to get help right away. Brothers who are weaker in their faith, brothers that we can't help or we're not able to land
Stewart::: you know something else that's very important. The older brothers, you ought to get out of here , get out of the way or act rightly. Because they look to you and you provide nothing. Just your fathead. You're not providing leadership or you are. Christian Leadership. You are or you aren't. And if you aren't you should get out of the way. you understand that? (yes) Because you're only misleading. You act like Jesus is a liar. You say that "Here, you have what is yours." "It's enough if I just sit here." But He said, " He who does not gather with me scatters." That's what you're gonna meet. You older brothers should just get out of here or be older brothers. One of the two. What is this lukewarm...sit around...teaching the new ones to become...what...you make them twice as much a child of hell as yourselves is the scripture...talking of that kind of thing...misleading them... right?(yes) That's one of the things that's really needed. There'd better be new older brothers then. If you aren't interested...How did the older brothers act here before I came? How'd they act?
Brother 9: They insisted that all the brothers join in and unite in Christ.
Stewart::: They did?(yes) very good...very good . I look for something good to say. rarely do I get the opportunity, they did huh? (yes)They insisted they unite in Christ, then what?
Brother 9:: Then brothers slowly started speaking to the brothers that returned...trying to seek their good
Stewart:::All right.But they can't be,  "you must take Jesus seriously the way I do." They still don't do that. Because if they did you'd jump on them and beat them up, is that it? No/Yes? Y'all know that passage in Acts? (yes) So that's a very important matter about reorganizing. These older brothers should get out of here, get away, stop....hope deferred makes the heart sick. What are the older brothers doing with the new ones. Well here goes the teacher now he's gonna teach how he's killing you. Go teacher. Go! ahh...pull a pity act, never mind. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. Ya ever read that?(yes) They're giving you the phony promise of leadership, but is playing the great man but lacking bread, because they won't take Jesus seriously themselves. They won't pay the price. They won't surrender to him really. Instead they're working at their life in this world, hanging on to it, building it up, loving it. And therefore trying to serve two masters and neither one of them is anywhere. People, that's a big thing in reorganizing. These older brothers, either are older brothers ands we call them older brothers or we don't. One of the two. Just because they're body is 90 years old and they're sitting there looking very serious, that  makes them and older brother? There better be new older brothers. That pay attention for more than one second and that take Jesus seriously the way I do. Not their own drives. Remember the scripture , you judge yourself, remember the scripture, "These men do not serve our Lord Christ but their own appetites." and you judge yourself. I'm not the authority. What are you gonna meet? That's what you're gonna meet. Now reorganizing . So far we've got...the older brothers either in or out. And, what's the other one? Kevin, what was it? Kevin?...Kevin?  Kevin?(I don't know) Didn't you say the other?..
Kevin B: Pardon me?...I thought about getting brothers to you for them to be helped
Stewart:: Thought about or you said it?
Kevin:: I thought that's what we should do...I said it...I was doing that constructively, bringing brothers to you that we can't help.
Stewart: Then you do remember that you said it?
Kevin: Yes
Stewart: Very good...took a while. Where's your head...you're the one that said it? i asked you what did you say? You suggested that procedure. And even more important is these older brothers and worshipping the older brothers, and what are they really? people , Let's hear it. If they're not gonna be leaders SAY SO. What is this phony ,"I am a great man, Honor me."?  If you don't care to pay the price, Say so! Is that so hard? (no) Well then? I think that's important. What else about reorganizing here? Brothers, let's hear it. What about everybody insisting on basics? Let's hear some more ideas. Come on brothers, reorganizing, how can we reorganize to make it better here for everybody.
Brother 10::: more brothers getting over to the school
Stewart: More brothers over to the school. How bout everybody always returning to make sure that everybody is either growing in Christ or moving closer to Christ, if they're not saved? Everybody making sure that yer growing in Christ or getting closer to salvation. Let's hear some more brothers.
Brother 11: The thing with the orientation when there's new brothers, the first day, we need a team of two or three brothers, we should pick the best team and work with team all day
Stewart:: I think we need to get rid of you and that voice or you convert
Brother 11:: Convert
Stewart:: Let's hear it brothers.
Brothers: I see a problem with orientation is no one's decide that they can run off while two go in one direction, they got older brothers chasing them.
Stewart: you know what that really is? It's just that the whole place is not insisting. This has got to be an insisting place. The whole outfit. And everybody knows that it's an insisting place. And that's the thing the older brothers are killing to death. They are saying this is not an insisting place, this is just a place you just sit here.and act like you're great. you follow?(yes) David, would you kindly keep quiet, don't mumble while I'm speaking. You're old enough. you can control yourself. Isn't it important that this be an insisting place.(yes) Because it says in the book of Titus what, (I desire that you insist on these things)I desire that you insist on these things otherwise the whole outfit is gonna stray off. And that's why again it returns to these older brothers, if they're willing to be older brothers fine, real older brothers. And lay down their lives for their calling. Not just this imitation, "I'm a heavy."  Boy, the birdman loves that, he can hide in that. There's no pressure on the bird man this way and there's no pressure on Jack really. And they all run away. Now you say that the orientation, the new ones they  just run all over. look it's because the way we are as an outfit. Now how much real insisting can you count on?  I asked Gayle we went through...How many of the brothers do you trust are really insisting with themselves and everyone? How many? Let's do it again. How many brothers do you trust are insisting with themselves and the whole outfit? Any nominations?( Kevin Brown and John?) and that's it? How many would trust Kevin Brown generally? What is that most anyway...How many would not? Bunch didn't vote at all. all right Anyone others? ( I think brother Skylar) who? (Brother Skylar) Let's hear it brothers.
Brother 12: Who else think Brother Skylar?
Stewart: you brothers don't think this is very important from your attitude toward it. it's very important.
Brother12 :: And how many don't. many didn't vote
Stewart:: Never mind Jack, yer...good grief..Jack? Control yourself! You and Dave at each end. CAN"T YOU CONTROL YOURSELF!! Insist on yourself first. That your behavior is edifying for everyone. Not just your drive and your habits. Now, so what do you have there, what's the vote? (half and half for Skylar) yes or no? (no, it's about half and half) It looked very much half and half to me. Very close to half and half. Well next. ( nominating) You don't think this is important, that's because you don't mind having a hide out where you can just do the flesh. That's what you're saying. By not taking it seriously. you don't care what this outfit is, as long as it's a hotel for you can hang out and do your thing. Birdman, whatever else. You think this ought to be a hotel for your weird stuff. That's what yer saying, if you're not taking this seriously.  What spirit are you listening to? A drifty spirit or insisting on real leadership. Which one are you doing? If you aren't insisting on real leadership , you're just making provision for your flesh. This is very important. Now whose the next one? ( Kevin Brown Sr.?)
Brother 13:: How many brothers think of Kevin Brown Senior?......how many don't?  4
Stewart:: it looks like 4 doesn't it?(yeah) and that's it, aye?( I nominate Tony loban) well all right now you're talking about the new new older brothers. That's quite a difference. Fine. Let's do that too. Any of these marvelous old brothers, great leaders. Let's hear it. Let's hear it!
Brother 14:: So how many agree about Tony Loban?
Stewart: all right that's new, we're starting new. He's becoming an older brother, how many trust that he is insisting with himself and everyone. Thank you Jesus, that's a lot. isn't that everyone? Any others?(mumbling) okay maybe we ought to nominate him next time, nobody else did. any other new ones?
Brother 15: Yeah I nominate Steve Green . He's not here.
Stewart: We can still vote on him. Does everybody think we should vote on Steve Green? (yes). all right.
Brother 15: What do brothers think, Steve Green?
Stewart:  How many Wait a minute How many brothers are convinced that Steve Green  is insisting with himself first  and with everyone as is in fact becoming and older brother and a leader? That's the question....and how many think he's living for the flesh? That's what the question is. Everybody's one or the other, people.
Brother 16: If i could say something, brother Stewart, i don't know the man. I know most of the brothers here, but I don't know Steve.
Stewart: Well , he's not here.
Brother 16:: If he was here I would probably know his face.
Stewart: Let's vote again, Steve Green. How many think he is becoming an older brother? And how many don't? Well that's an awful lot. Thank you Jesus. Anymore? (Greg Thompson) We did the older brothers. No interest left. (Is Rocky an older brother? I mean, I don't know) Rocky's an older brother.( James) Which James?(quiet talk) I'm sure he is. And so is what's his name here Paul. He's doing a lot of things for them too. But Jesus won't accept that. He said unless your righteousness exceeds that of the very righteous people, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. And he said other very hard looking things, very hard looking to the flesh. Then there's the servant who half served his master. Half-heartedly. What happened to him?( He was cast into the outer darkness). He did some good things didn't he?(yes). And what about the one that went about preaching in your towns and streets, 'Lord lord, did we not preach in your...he was doing good things too wasn't he?(yes) What happened to him?(Cast into the outer darkness) So you see that that's not enough for Jesus is it? We're willing to sit back and trust our works are we? Or we're not. And we're urgent to please him. Our attitude is one of the two and that's the issue here, people. That's the issue. In your spirit, everyone of you, you know, real leadership, real leadership  is saying we must be faithful to Jesus. And imitation leadership is a bunch of religious stuff. You know the difference in your spirit. We must be faithful to Jesus. With a whole heart. You know what that means. In your spirit. And you know laziness too. You can tell the difference. And that's what we're voting here. Do you understand that?(yes)  Because the ones that are the urgent servants. They're the ones that are going to be the leaders. By definition, not because they're, not because they're put in it , everybody says you're a great leader. They are becoming leaders. If in fact they're doing that. They are already. you don't have to make them the leaders. They are. Understand that?In the world you make people into leaders. In Christ, they grow into and become leaders.It's different. Now Let's hear it. Anyone else to be voted on here.
Brother 17: I nominate Fredrick even as an urgent servant.
Stewart: Thank you Jesus....Timothy
Brother 17: How many brothers agree?........
Stewart: Thank you Jesus
Brother 17: And how many don't

Stewart: Why did you nominate him?
Brother 17: He's serious all the time and he does insist with other brothers too. Even calls brothers too. He even called Brother Jim Greiner today about 10 times.
Stewart: did you get em?
Fredrick: I get his sister this morning.((((hard to hear what this brother is saying))))
Stewart: Well he won't call here, hoping he would( didn't recognize the number of the store, it was the number here) all right all right. Let's pray about that too. Thank you Jesus. Any others? That you think are becoming leaders through honest devotion and seriousness. no half and half. Any others let's hear it. you know what you got so far? You're saying you got 3 new leaders and 2 old ones. You're saying the new ones already outnumber the old ones. These dinosaurs. the bones the relics
ya dig em up. is that the way you prefer to live? That the way you brothers been living? Jeffrey? (yup) yup..just yup. So you're already outnumbered. good. Any others?( I nominate Brother Robert) brothers let's hear it.( What do you brothers think about brother Robert) well somebody should second y'know. (I second) All right then let's hear the vote
Brother 18: How many think Robert is an honest servant of Christ?...how many say no?
Stewart: I wonder if  ah, wonder if you are losing the concept anyway. Becoming leaders. That's good. Got some good votes there. You realize that? That's hopeful. What else can we organize here? how bout the groups?(mumbling) Brothers urgent! ( I second it, i second it) Brothers, what is this older brother pause? You know that's what the older brothers do always. long pause.
Brother 19:: How many nominate Pedro to be an honest servant?(he's an older brother)
Stewart: Still..a few
Brother 19:: and not...How many not? think Pedro
Stewart:; about 1/4  Now brothers anyone else urgently...or you could go on all night trying this one and that one...anyone else really stand out. Let's hear it. Now let's consider these groups. How are your groups brothers? How's the groups? How are the groups?
Brother 20:: I think the groups are rather large for openers. I think there's 18 or 19 in our group.
Stewart:: Why don't we break them up into smaller. like 10 each. And it's especially at the groups that you should be doing what? But not only in the groups. (insist, the real)What should you be doing?
Brother 21:: Insisting that you be serious about Christ right now here.
Stewart: Yes. making sure everyone is growing. And looking for the ones who are the closest to giving up on Jesus. That's where you gotta be careful. Because everybody's gotta a front. David, put that paper down. You're acting foolishly. Everybody has a good front. What is the front?  "Oh, I'm not gonna give up on Jesus." What do they do the next day?( give up on Jesus) Everybody has a good front. and the ones that are weaker are the ones that have the front together the most. And it's important that you get through that front. And find out, Is this brother growing in faith or is it something else. some substitute , some imitation. And it isn't gonna last long. You've got to find out. Brothers, you understand. (yes) And I especially have to hear about the ones that aren't growing and that are withering. Aren't even growing toward Christ. You've gotta do something. You've gotta take action. Maybe they don't understand. Something's wrong. Now we gotta take this seriously. Each one growing. Brothers, you all agree? (yes). Really take this seriously, especially at the group level. But not only...making sure everyone is growing in or toward Christ and at the same time, which one is about to give up. oh he talks nice...he's kinda quiet in the corner and tomorrow he's gone. Can't you catch him before tomorrow? people? (yes) Let's really work on that one. And know that we're working.put it down can we concentrate on that one. That is loving one another, laying down our lives to do it. Let's hear some more, how we can reorganize here. How can we reorganize here?
Brother 21: Everybody understand the rules when they first come into the house.
Stewart: All right, that's important but there's probably more important things
Brother 23: See which brothers are gonna move to the new property.
Stewart: That's good. What about everybody making sure that you are encouraging each others faith? Does that sound good? (yes) Everybody talking to each other about our faith, that's similar to making sure everybody's growing isn't it? Let's hear some more Whose going to the new property? Anymore tonight?
Brother24: Last night we ah...how many brothers did we volunteer? 4? (4, 5) Some one wrote it down, who wrote it down? I think it's 4 . 4 volunteered? Anybody remember? (whoever volunteered just stand up..only two went last night)
Stewart: Well why don't they all go?((((a brother is explaining why someone didn't get to the property)))) all right why don't they go tonight? Let's hear it, who else? ( Ray  ? ) Where is he?(no no he changed his mind....mumbling..changed his mind...the question was Where is Raymond soun?) yeah Where is he? (He's in his room, he had a headache) Brothers Let's hear it. Remember, encouraging faith, Where is he Brothers?
Brother 25: Where is he brothers is he in the dorms/ ( yeah he's inside there)
Stewart: Because he had a headache? (I know one thing , he should make it right with all the brothers...)You brothers, are you taking part in his hurting himself? it's gotta be..motivation is another. What are we doing about each others motivation? Did you ever ask the other brothers How's your motivation? did you ever do that? (yes..what's wrong with it))