By: Mike Hansen
What the fuck is wrong with me
Why does everything i do get fucked up
What the hell was I thinking
Why does this happen to me
I did nothing to deserve this
Yet a curse falls on my head
Nothing ever goes the right way
Truly I'd rather be dead
Emotions cloud my very senses
And stupidly i dont see how
Those I love are falling from me
And theres nothing i can do now
Why does it matter
No one lives forever
I'm no exception
Just hope for heaven
People that I know and love
Will fall to ashes and to dust
I did nothing to deserve this
So once again, then what the fuck?
Everytime somethings go well
I fuck them up they burn in Hell
Oh my God, I am disgraced
Even scared to show my face
No one should love me
No one should care
No one should acknowledge
That I'm even there
For I am just a stupid fucking
Shit faced lying dumb dirt sucking
Useless chunk of human flesh and nothing
That I do goes right, even when I try my best
My feelings get the best of me
Only now realize stupidity
So what the fuck is going on?
My life is draining, not for long
And as I fade I hope to God
I'm not forgotten, and they jsut let me die
Cold and alone, sorry for all that I've done
as feeling sits inside of me
dying now i feel empty
largely due to lack of faith
no one loves me emotions raped
my best is never good enough
but its all that i can do
jsut to die would not be tough
pull the trigger and im through
lying in a pool of blood
thrown under six feet of mud
my soul is crying for repose
as my body starts to decompose
mortal remains are rotted away
but to everyone else just another day
who was i what was i
i was just a man
never did anything right
somehow it always made me feel like
it was wrong and i was to blame
a downward spiral erupts in flame
my soul inside an inferno of death
all because i tried my best
what the fuck it shouldnt be
why wont anyone love me
am i just not what i should have become
even though my life is done
for everbody that i've caused pain
do not worry there is much to gain
now that im gone you can live in bliss
my memories now are worthless
no longer enough just to desire
my essence trapped by satans fire
losing contace with your world, please forget me i was nothing and meant nothing by it.
burning angels fall to earth
become man and woman and give birth
a wretch from nothing destined for the same
and i know thats all i am
i can do nothing
so thats what is done
dont care how long i have to run
nothing is fun
when you are the one
that humanity shuns
with the point of a gun
people will lie and spectres will wail
demons will haunt me for sure i will fail
collect my blood as i hit the floor
a shutting passage opens a door
my life escapes and death is feigned
however more i need to change
my life itself not good enough
no one cares for lives ive touched
no one loves me thats ok
maybe i'll be loved on day
i'm expected just to be a man
and to do everything that i can
but ive tried
ive failed
slit my wrists
my face grows pale
dont have the guts to anymore
because ive spilled them on the floor
my empty shell
shot into hell
but all is well
now that ive fell
wont worry about what people think
my beating heart falls in the sink
the razor falls and hits the knife
that i have used to end my life