01 November 2002

It is all entirely, and completely over.

Of those people in my life who don't hate me (and they are few and far between), there is no one who is not disgusted with me, or angry at me, or SOMETHING at me... Nobody speaks to me. Nobody wants anything to do with me. Jürgen throws up at the sight of me, and Norman sends me "bye-bye" emails. I go to bed in silence and I wake up to more silence, and throughout the day, nobody will touch me, or hug me, or look me in the eyes. Of the last ten emails I've gotten, seven of them have been negative.

I have to go to work now.

This website may have to shut down for a few days. I'm sorry; I just can't even think anymore.

~Helena*