Today, some things that make me feel powerful are: espresso, techno music, and my red shirt.
The thing about my red shirt is that I look very good in it, and I feel very good in it, and it buttons up the front, so if I feel like being 20 and maybe a little bit slutty, I can wear it open with a tank top underneath. And if I'm going to work, I can button it and be professional. I like my red shirt.
The thing about techno music is that so much of it mimics the rhythms of the human body; it sounds like heartbeats, and breathing, and fluids swirling through dark chambers, and joints moving, and veins pumping. And when I listen to it, it feels like I've been working out. Plus, if it skips in the CD-player, who the hell notices?
The thing about espresso is that it's just beautiful and wonderful and I make a damn good cup of it. Also, even though it was only my very first day working at Java Joe's, I managed to make this beautiful drink for Nathan that had all these different-colored layers in it. It looked like what would happen if you combined a lava lamp and a sunset in a glass. I love espresso. And Nathan. And my new job at Java's. Not necessarily in that order.
I could not have felt more powerful or more alive than when I left Java Joe's today playing techno on my discman and wearing my red shirt. I think something very, very good is happening, and I think I'm right in the middle of all of it.
Love,
~Helena*
"Nobody likes a limpy, wimpy salad; salad with gloppy things is not art, and this is going to be art. I am not washing the lettuce, Nathan; I am CLEANSING the VEGETABLES." --Helena, becoming one with her art and her vegetables.