16 July 2001 That'd be WEIRD...

I mentioned to Norman that I'm concerned about Aaron. He's been unusually tired lately and hasn't been eating much. So I said to Norman, "Gahd, I hope I didn't give him mono. Shit, I probably DID..."

"Have you been kissing Aaron?" asked Norman.

Well, HELL no I haven't been kissing Aaron. That's like someone asking, "have you been sleeping with your brother? Because I heard you both got chickenpox at the same time..."

"Aaron," I said the other day, "You'd better not get mono, because if you do, everyone will think we're fucking."

"Everybody ALREADY thinks we're fucking," he said.

"Yeah, I know... But that would be some sort of proof or something."

"Yeah."

"Ew."

Last week, Norman mentioned that he thought we ought to break up. I have a suspicion that he really just kind of wants to play the field a little, which is actually pretty much cool with me. But he said, "And I think you'd be better off with somebody else as your boyfriend. I think you ought to be with Aaron."

I giggled.

"No, really... He makes you happy..."

Yeah, Aaron makes me happy. My landlord makes me happy too. And my mom makes me happy. And the guy at the gas station that has the same birthday as me makes me happy.

My friend Joey instant-messaged me today asking how Aaron is. Immediately defensive, I said, "fine, why?" Why is it that a boy and a girl cannot be friends without everybody in the damned free world thinking they're screwing? Granted, I haven't had many really close guy-friends that I HAVEN'T been sort of intimate with in one way or another, but my gahd, people, leave me and Aaron alone!!! So I've seen Aaron naked -- so what!? It was a game of strip poker and Aaron lost miserably! So maybe I gave Aaron mono -- so what? Doesn't anybody else share sips of coffee and stuff at Denny's? Gahd.

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Have spent the day running errands. Picked up some coffee, some vodka, and some stamps. This took me all day too, because it's about 500 degrees outside and I had to walk slowly so the heat wouldn't catch up with me.

Am going to go lay down and chill out.

Later...
~Helena*