I've been sitting in front of the television, staring, for the past three days. I haven't changed out of my pajamas for well over 48 hours. I feel SO sick... I don't know how much more of this I can handle before I lose my sanity...
I've been feeling nauseous for a few days now. It's so bad that I haven't been able to eat anything; it's all I can do to force down some tea. I had a bag of microwave popcorn yesterday, but I just felt sicker...
Once, a long, long time ago, I had this illness exactly like the symptoms I'm having now... I didn't eat for like, three weeks. I went to three doctors and a hospital appointment. Nobody could find ANYTHING wrong with me... I just laid on the couch for three weeks, watching VH-1. After three weeks of not eating, it's difficult to concentrate on movies or sit-coms; music videos and commericals were the only things I could tolerate.
I start school on Tuesday. I don't know what I'm going to do... Show up in a wheelchair, maybe? Because after three days of no food, it's kind of an effort to walk?
I was watching Lifetime movies all day today. The one that's currently on is about an anorexic girl.
FYI, "anorexic," means "loss of appetite." You can technically be an anorexic because you're not feeling hungry. Technically, I am currently an anorexic. The movie on TV is about some bitch that deliberately starves herself. What I wouldn't give to feel well enough to eat.......
Please, everybody say a little prayer or something for me tonight? I can't stand feeling this miserable...
Love,
~Helena*