State vs. Joseph A. Macor
it seems to me that I strive for complications at every opportunity, I cannot resist at all. so I beat on, "boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past." I never leaned a thing at all. but to show I care I could cut a piece of my ear and send it to you Van Gogh style, with that "deranged artist" smile. and I'll put it in a box and wrap it with the finest paper and ribbons to make it beautiful, I hope it freaks you out... at 90 miles an hour, another presence is felt. wrapped in blurs is all that I feel. feeling the slight urge to unbuckle my seatbelt. starving for the taste of the windshield. I know that the summer wouldn't be so welcoming without the long cold nights spent wrapped up in the hollow grasp of winter. If I could, then I would tell you everything that I need off my chest. cuase its been wieghing too heavily, and maybe if you'd see. the stars shine bright..as sharp as knives. So maybe if they would cut me so deep. Then maybe I could bleed you out of me. Its just sometimes it feels like breathing is overrated. but I promise that I won't make this too dramatic for you. so I'll stand by the side on the platform with my hand pressed against the glass. and you'll stare straight forward like you don't notice me, you'll make this moment last. as I lose my lead and the platform's ending, my heart's against the tracks. I'll sit there helpless and watch you fade from the station into my past.

I Don't Remember August This Cold
through early dew I drag my feet, thoughts of you and fallen hopes find me once again. as sun sank I saw brightness fade from the sky and your eyes or can't we just pretend? that your feelings did stay unchanged. I'm trying to forget about you, but I hope you know it's funny that all of the littlest things bring back the biggest memories. it's hopeless, I know it. but I still dream of you. and I know you don't feel like I do but it's so much easier to think with your heart when you... I remember late night conversation choking on emotion meant for you. maybe if I showed you exactly how it hurt - no, I know that it could never do. no it never, could never do. ...when you watch the sun shine less brightly as the summer goes by so slow. and hanging onto a kiss for two months but though you still cant let go. I'm sorry I wasn't everything you wanted, I'm sorry I couldn't be all you were to me.

Standing On Ocean and Sunset
I feel the breeze of midsummer night's air. these are the nights I live for. with warm pavement beneath my back gazing to endless sky above. reflecting on past relationships and years gone by. here I wonder why though as I try I cant get you off of my mind. tonight is one star away from perfect. one shine away from everything I've wanted. now every time I close my eyes to sleep I'm dreaming the same dream. I lift my head only to meet your eyes, only to feel I'm falling. and as I fall through your eyes, feelings so true when I'm around you. I'm dreaming through a perfect dream and knowing only that I'm falling for you. I hope this song sings you to sleep every night so I'll be in your dreams, and you know that's where I'll be happy. you probably don't even know that all of this is about you. oblivious, don't the blood stains show from a heart on my sleeve?

goodnight.
come and we'll watch the sun set on all my days of regret. only to see if I'll get through tonight. oh, this life that i know, would you please not let me go. you know I'd be lost without you. the best days of my life are wearing thin. I know that I'll be lost when I lose sight of them. its sad to see that all my years here will only be a memory. its sad to see that all my dreams here will be lost in this memory. I could not live with myself if I had nothing to tell of all these years that I have lived so long. so I'll take back this regret with the only chance that I get. I know I'll miss them too much when they're gone. as we watch these seasons changing into years passed on, all we'll have are these memories and then this life will have to go on. its sad to see that all my years here will only be a memory. its sad to see that all my dreams here will be lost in this memory. will be lost in this memory tonight. goodnight.