Easy way out

What would drive a man to this
Go face to face with the abyss
Searching and failing and searching again
To see an end, pick up a pen
Write a confession, apologize
Not enough courage to look in the eyes
Of the people and love he is leaving behind
He thinks this is better, he thinks this is kind
He thinks he is making amends for his life
But he's hurting his children, he's hurting his wife
Hurting his family, hurting his friends
Selfishness starts when selflessness ends
Reasons for living are passing him by
He ends his life with a gun and a lie
All that is left is the pain and the fear
And a question, "Why isn't daddy still here?"