"Dear World: I am leaving because I am bored. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool." -George Sanders
"at this very moment, I wish I were dead. I just can't cope anymore." -Ian Curtis
"The future is just old age and illness and pain... I must have peace and this is the only way." -James Whale
"I have a feeling I shall go mad. I cannot go on longer in these terrible times. I shan't recover this time. I hear voices and cannot concentrate on my work. I have fought against it but cannot fight any longer." -Virginia Woolf
"I don't believe that people should take their own lives without deep and thoughtful reflection over a considerable period of time." -Wendy O. Williams
"I must end it. There's no hope left. I'll be at peace. No one had anything to do with this. My decision totally." -Freddie Prinze
"And now, in keeping with Channel 40's policy of always bringing you the latest in blood and guts, in living color, you're about to see another first - an attempted suicide." -Chris Hubbock
"I am still alive." -Caligula

i feel
not myself

i hate myself, with each new day, i feel less human and less of what i want to be, i feel more hollow and plain, so decrepid and obsolete. i fear there is nothing but life left for me. everyday passes and i find the past pushes itself through skin
but,
the misanthropic teeth continue to chatter into the cold empty
only to reveal the mounting neurosis
i've lost myself to the glass of my reflection, but symptoms persist, and i scratch until i bleed. its like a fever, it burns its heat from my brain and i lose control
the secret is in the eyes. a coronation begins.