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Name: ERIN GARRETT
Signed on: Wednesday, December 12, 2001 at 5:09 PM

Name: Gwen Fannin
E-mail address: giselle_ent@msn.com
Signed on: Thursday, December 13, 2001 at 9:40 AM
Comments: I am so glad that I was somehow led to your website! I know exactly what you were going through when you experienced a molar pregnancy. I too, suffered a molar pregnancy three years ago.
Although my OB/GYN was a good physician in every other aspect, I was not satisfied with his response to my diagnosis. I had missed a cycle and since my cycles were like clock-work, I decided to take a pregnancy test only two days after my missed cycle. The test was positive, so I scheduled my first prenatal visit. I already had given birth to a daughter. I had also had two miscarriages three years prior. (I had become pregnant twice while receiving the depo provera shot!)
I became increasingly worried that not all was "well," so I scheduled a sonogram. By the time of my sono, I was six weeks, 4 wks gestation. I knew something was wrong when the sonographer kept asking me when my last cycle was and if the doctor could have given me the wrong dates. She summoned the doctor and he told me that I had a "failed" pregnancy. Like you, there was nothing in my sac.
I scheduled a D&C for the next week, and like your boss, mine was supportive as well. My husband was going to be out of town for some meetings that he simply could not get out of, so my boss offered to take me to the surgical center at 6 a.m. and stay with me while I rested at home. Mind you, she had just given birth to twins six months prior to this!
I didn't want to keep her from her children, so my mom and best friend stayed with me. My husband called every hour to make sure I was doing fine, both emotionally and physically. I cried to myself for days. My husband questioned the doctor over and over, hoping to get a better medical explanation. My doctor only stated that these things happen. Never did he mention that it could be a result of two sperm fertilizing the egg. Never did he suggest doing a blood HCG to see if my levels were dropping! He simply said, "The next time you become pregnant, we need to begin monitoring you right away to find out why you keep miscarrying."
It has been three years now, and we just learned that we are once again expecting. My husband is elated, but I am very fearful. I pray everyday things are going to be fine and that we will have a healthy baby boy soon. It's only been 5wks since my LMP, so my physician wants to wait until I am at least 7 or 8 weeks before we have a sonogram. We are scheduled to for one January 9, 2002. Only time will tell what lies in store for us, but reading your story has given me hope. ~THANKS! ~

Name: Jennifer Strege
E-mail address: furfer8@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, December 13, 2001 at 5:59 PM
Comments: I know what it is like to go through a molar pregnancy. I did just two years ago. I look back now and I know that some things are meant to happen. Iím now 4 months pregnant and the baby's doing great. I hope every one who goes through a miscarriage can live life happy afterwards.

Name: Kerry Wilson
E-mail address: lil_karey@yahoo.com
Signed on: Wednesday, December 19, 2001 at 6:54 PM

Name: Dian Carter
E-mail address: dian_carter@hotmail.com
Signed on: Monday, December 24, 2001 at 11:47 AM

Name: Fiona Hussey
E-mail address: fibee8@hotmail.com
Signed on: Monday, December 24, 2001 at 4:29 PM
Comments: Today is Christmas 2001 and I have just found this amazing site! I am a 34 new zealander, 20 weeks with a diagnosed twin pregnancy, one normal wee button and a partial molar. Conceiving this pregnancy happened very quickly for my husband and me. Both delighted and over the moon to our wonderful first year as husband and wife. Normal checkups and blood tests gave no indication of what would be found at 13 weeks. A heartbeat was heard at 12 weeks by my Gp. A transfer to an obstetrician for continued care brought about the discussion of maternal age and the chance/risk of downs syndrome. An elected scan taken up by my husband and I, while not a definitive answer, showed the nuchal thickness to be ok, but a very abnormal looking placenta. Discussion with the specialist gave us the news we never expected to hear. We then had to make the decision as to whether to go ahead with an amniocentesis to determine if things with the baby were ok. We said yes, and after a very painful procedure and agonizing wait, we were told the news of a normal little baby with a partial molar. As a registered nurse I had never heard of this but have grappled with the implications of the serious side of this pregnancy---preeclampsia, hemorrhage, and possible future chemotherapy. The only thing now that keeps us positive is our wee button is ok. The 19 week scan showed all the normal physical attributes to be there. I have now given up work as it became too much to look after others when I really felt 'What about me?' I am now a fulltime farmerís wife and with fortnightly check ups of bp and scans for growth retardation hope this very unwell pregnancy will continue to surprise both my husband and I and our obstetrician. Thinking of you all out there, Fiona and Scott

Name: MARITZA PRADO
E-mail address: ATZCPRDE@AOL.COM
Signed on: Friday, December 28, 2001 at 1:47 PM

Name: Tricia Richardson
E-mail address: ntexasautocolor@msn.com
Signed on: Friday, December 28, 2001 at 7:47 PM
Comments: Thank you so much for sharing your story of Nina and Abigail. I experienced a partial molar pregnancy this past November. I was 16 weeks. My doctor was unable to detect a heartbeat (which we heard at 12 weeks). She sent me for a sonogram at another hospital. She told me that I was measuring 5 weeks further than I should and that she suspected twins. The news that my baby had died was so painful. It was my first pregnancy and my husband and I were so excited. Two large tumors were very visible on the ultrasound, as was the baby. I learned today from test results that the baby was triploid 69, xxy. My hcg levels are coming down and I am hopeful they will reach zero soon. Thank you for sharing your story. I cried for you and for myself as I read it. I am glad to hear that there was a happy ending. God Bless you and your family.

Name: Kymburr Garman
Signed on: Saturday, December 29, 2001 at 9:56 AM
Comments: I had a molar pregnancy. I just wanted to learn as much as I could about it. This happened about 2 years ago. I was 21years old and had an HGC level of a million and a half.
My doctor never told me any of the risk. And as I become older I have more and more questions. I intend on having more children if at all possible. I was 10 weeks along when I found out I had a molar pregnancy. I had a complete molar
I probably would have not found out any sooner if I had not started spotting and believed I was having a miscarriage.
I appreciate you telling your and your daughterís story you have answered so many of my questions. God bless you.
12-29-01 Kym Garman OR.

Name: Nicole Erickson
E-mail address: ericksonnicole@hotmail.com
Signed on: Saturday, December 29, 2001 at 1:38 PM
Comments: I was recently diagnosed with a molar pregnancy. About 7 weeks into the pregnancy I began to have a brown discharge. I was so worried that I called my doctors office and spoke with a nurse. I was told that as long as I wasn't cramping and was bleeding bright red that it was probably just hormones. The discharge continued for another few weeks, so I called the doctors office again and begged to be seen. I had a feeling something was wrong. Sure enough, an ultrasound was done and no fetal tissue was detected and no heartbeat. I had a D & C done last week and my HCG has been monitored. A week before the D & C it was at 100,000 an hour after the D & C my levels were checked and they were down to 90,000. A week later down to 2,800. So far so good, my HCG is dropping rapidly. Hopefully it continues to drop. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Name: Judy Kegin
E-mail address: jimkegin@alltel.net
Signed on: Saturday, December 29, 2001 at 2:01 PM
Comments: My daughter-in-law and son just experienced a miscarriage two days ago. The doctor mentioned the possibility of a molar pregnancy. They took blood and will check her again next week for her hormone levels. Since I had never heard of this condition, I needed to find out some information. Her regular doctor was on vacation and so another doctor checked her. I'm so sorry for your loss -- and thank you for sharing your story so others can have someone who understands.

Name: Mari and Jim Oswald
E-mail address: h2osports@att.net
Signed on: Monday, December 31, 2001 at 8:33 AM
Comments: I just finished reading your personal story. It made me want to cry. I went to the Dr. this past Thursday and I was diagnosed with a molar pregnancy. Your story at the Dr.'s office sounds like mine just this Thursday. This was really hard for us but the Dr. told us that there was no baby involved, so that made us feel more comfortable. My d and c went well this Friday and I haven't heard from the Dr. since then. So hopefully everything is ok. Forgive my English, it is not the best. Take care, Mari and Jim

Name: HILDA ALVAREZ
E-mail address: CARRASCOH@PRODIGY.NET
Signed on: Wednesday, January 2, 2002 at 9:27 AM
Comments: THE REASON I LOGGED WAS BECAUSE I REALLY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND THE MOLAR PREGNANCY NEITHER DID THE PERSON WHO HAD IT MY SISTER IN LAW

Name: Christine Stephens
Signed on: Wednesday, January 2, 2002 at 2:32 PM
Comments: I just wanted to say how pleased I was to find this site; I had a molar pregnancy 5 years ago. My husband and I was so pleased to get pregnant the very first month we tried, but unfortunately after about 3 wks I started to bleed. My doctor had told me that this can sometimes happen and was nothing to worry about. After about a week of bleeding I went to the doctor and was told that I'd had a miscarriage and if I felt like it to take a few days off work!! No examination no tests! And then about a week later I had my miscarriage for real... I was taken to hospital I was told again that I'd had lost my baby.
This happened five years ago, a week before Christmas and my husband and I were devastated; just as it sinks in that we were pregnant we werenít any more. Then about four weeks after I was contacted a London hospital telling me I had a molar pregnancy and that I needed to send blood samples to the Oncology Department! Thank God everything went back to normal but just like the rest of you we had to wait a year before we could try again.
Then the heartache really started, as two years later I was still not pregnant, and eventually we had fertility treatment. This was an awful time; I was so stressed out and never thought we'd see a light at the end of the tunnel. However on the 22.7.99 I gave birth to a healthy baby daughter, Katie Louise. And I just wanted to say that I know that you donít want to hear this, but give it time and you will find a way. Sometimes the thought of never having a child of my own was too hard to bear, but there is always hope. When I look at my daughter I still canít believe it...

Name: Daphne
E-mail address: famof5@net-magic.net
Signed on: Thursday, January 3, 2002 at 6:45 AM
Comments: I was amazed at the information here, because I had a molar pregnancy 7 and 1/2 years ago after the birth of my first child. I had a D and C, was told to wait a year before I tried again...and that was it. No follow-ups and no other information were given to me. I got pregnant again a year later and miscarried and had another D and C. I got pregnant again 7 months later and had some bleeding, but delivered a healthy girl. She is now 5. Three years later I got pregnant again and delivered another healthy daughter. She is almost 2. But at no time has my molar pregnancy been mentioned or any teats done. Both of the babies that I lost were treated as "no big deal" and "normal".

Name: j wiltshaw
E-mail address: jwiltshaw@hotmail.com
Signed on: Friday, January 4, 2002 at 6:12 AM

Name: Emma Carne
E-mail address: carneywwsh@yahoo.co.uk
Signed on: Sunday, January 6, 2002 at 10:15 PM
Comments: Thank you so much for sharing your insight to this awful disease. I lost George when he was three and a half months old. I was diagnosed with a partial molar pregnancy and couldn't understand what had happened at all. I thought it was something that I had done to lose my baby and blamed myself. I still wish i were pregnant too, it has been 3 months since I lost him, so I would be preparing for the birth shortly and i am finding that hard to deal with. Anyway I just wanted to say thank you for putting this site together it has helped me to understand what happened and to realize that Iím not the only one to go through this. Congratulations on your new baby, it gives us all hope that something so wonderful can happen after something so dreadful. I wish you and your family the best for the future. Loving wishes, Emma

Name: Sylvie
E-mail address: sylviel20@hotmail.com.au
Signed on: Monday, January 7, 2002 at 6:19 PM
Comments: Hello, I have been doing so research as my daughter has just been diagnosed and we are very worried, I hope that this is not going to have a sad ending...and I thank you for sharing your story. KIND REGARD, Sylvie and Leslie

Name: Misty
E-mail address: vmslady@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, January 8, 2002 at 12:43 PM
Comments: You are one very special and strong woman. Your story had me crying, both tears of sorrow and tears of joy. I am so happy that you had your dreams answered with Justin! My prayers to you for your future good health and happiness. Misty

Name: sally crooks
E-mail address: sallycrooks@msn.com
Signed on: Wednesday, January 9, 2002 at 11:17 PM
Comments: I too went Thursday a molar pregnancy. It was kind of strange to read your story, because it reflected my own personal story. Like you, I was happy to be pregnant and waiting for the day/ or months. (I was 3 months pregnant too) I lived in SC on Hilton Head Island and loving every day. Then the Dr. called me in his office did the ultrasound and I said "the baby is dead." I just knew. Well the next day I had surgery to remove the molar. A week later I needed to be checked. After I was looked at, the Dr. said once your dressed come into my office! I was like WOW never went into a Dr. Office. That is when I was told what you were told over the phone. Every week for a month and then every month for a year. Plus I had to have CXR of my lungs because if I got cancer it would spread to my lungs. I started to cry. AND I thought like you... HOW does one be pregnant one week and have cancer the next? When the Dr. told me this news I cried for lots of reasons. Baby, boyfriend, life, and about me. I was 23 yr old. (This pregnancy, question me about having a baby, did I do something in God's eyes that was wrong. I did the 5 step grieving process back home. (6 miles of driving) I cried because I had LONG blonde hair that I was told would fall out when and if I was going to need chemo. It's funny how life brings us around to see and hear stories. I know Iím not the only one; I'm still with out baby. And Iím okay with that at this time. I look at my experience as a HUGE learning experience. Iím now 27 yr old and looking to have a family in the near future. I do have the fear of "what if it happens again?" I guess I will deal with that hand when the time comes.. Thanks for sharing your story, and it was nice to tell part of my story with someone who understands where I once stood all alone. Sally

Name: Farida Khan
E-mail address: khanfarida@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, January 10, 2002 at 12:03 PM
Comments: I am very pleased to find this site, thank you for creating site like this, please forgive my English. I will continue visit this site and share my story with u.

Name: Chastity
E-mail address: shyl0ck70@aol.com
Signed on: Thursday, January 10, 2002 at 2:31 PM
Comments: I have recently been doing a report at school and I chose to research molar pregnancy. I never new what it was or even the effects on mother and child. This is a horrible thing and Iím going to make people more aware of molar pregnancies and how they affect every one. Iím sorry to hear of your lose. Chastity

Name: Melanie
E-mail address: big_moo_cow@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, January 10, 2002 at 6:38 PM
Comments: I just came across your page tonight as I was researching on starting to try for another pregnancy. I too have a molar pregnancy in August of 2001. It was my 3rd miscarriage. The first two I was never told by the doctor what went wrong. Typical for small town country doctors. But this time I have a great doctor that was there for us. I'm hesitant to try again but now that I know that it is possible to have a child after having a molar pregnancy I canít wait to start. I'm at my fifth month of waiting to try and I now know that I have someone that I can look to have a role model and hero.....Thank you so much for your site. Melanie and Brent Smith, Illinois

Name: Shirley Haines
E-mail address: hainek@escape.ca
Comments: Hello

Name: Mary McKowan-Travis (Shannon's mom)
E-mail address: maryt54@aol.com
Signed on: Thursday, January 17, 2002 at 1:28 PM
Comments: I have learned so much from you Kendra! You are an inspiration for those who have lost a child through a molar pregnancy! I am so proud of you for having to deal with GTD and coming out a true winner! God Bless you and Nina!!! Thank you for your encouragement and support through Shannon's experience. Love, Mary

Name: Cheri
E-mail address: ckannarr@pacbell.net
Home Web Site: http://home.pacbell.net/jcubbage/
Signed on: Friday, January 18, 2002 at 10:36 AM
Comments: Thank you for your site. I'm currently facing the possibility of a molar pregnancy. I'm lucky though; I just gave birth to twins (a boy and a girl) 7 weeks ago. My postpartum visit on Monday revealed that my cervix had not returned to normal and an ultrasound yesterday showed material still in my uterus. Hopefully, I'm just facing a D&C to remove retained placental material. But, I'm waiting for my HCG level to come back to be sure. I wanted to know more about this and discovered your site. I'm glad that you are doing well and have another wonderful child now.

Name: Jodi White
E-mail address: steve23mj@yahoo.com
Signed on: Monday, January 21, 2002 at 7:51 PM
Comments: Thank you for your story; it was as if I was telling it. I have a daughter Hanna who was 15 months at the time I became pregnant. I had a partial mole with my second pregnancy and a d&c on Jan. 4th, 2002. So far my levels are dropping... It's helpful to get some personal and "useful" information.

Name: Jennifer Knight
E-mail address: jenniferlyknight@hotmail.com
Signed on: Tuesday, January 22, 2002 at 9:17 PM
Comments: To you your family and friends xoxo

Name: JENNIFER STAFFORD
E-mail address: MAILBOXROOM@AOL.COM
Signed on: Wednesday, January 23, 2002 at 8:54 AM
Comments: IT KILLED MY SON AS WELL AT 12 WEEKS.
"SEBASTION STAFFORD"
5/11/01-7/27/01

Name: Rebecca
E-mail address: reanes@dnr.state.md.us
Signed on: Friday, January 25, 2002 at 9:10 AM
Comments: I have just been diagnosed with a molar pregnancy - I had a D&C on December 11th, and my levels started to steadily rise. So last week, I had my first methotrexate shot. I find out today if it is bringing the levels down. Please pray for me, I have a feeling it's going to be a long year ahead. Thank you for your story - it is an inspiration, and a ray of light to those of us struggling with the same thing, and searching for information.

Name: Rebecca
E-mail address: r_tessmann@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, January 31, 2002 at 5:41 PM

Name: Jen Siebeneck
E-mail address: jen_siebeneck@hotmail.com
Signed on: Friday, February 1, 2002 at 9:36 AM
Comments: I was just told I had a molar pregnancy on 1/23/02. I was 11 weeks gestation.

Name: Kit Sweeney
Signed on: Sunday, February 3, 2002 at 5:09 PM

Name: Catherine Purdon
E-mail address: gatinhaminha@hotmail.com
Signed on: Sunday, February 3, 2002 at 11:12 PM

Name: Karie O'Gara
E-mail address: kogara.rochester.rr.com
Signed on: Monday, February 4, 2002 at 3:44 PM
Comments: I was diagnosed with a partial molar pregnancy as well. I was at my twelve week appointment to her my baby's heartbeat for the first time. I was scared and worried when my doctor was unable to detect anything. He told me not to worry, and to get an ultrasound done to be on the safe side. Like you, there was a "snowflake" image and no heartbeat to be seen. It was devastating! I had a D&C done and when the pathology report came back I was bound with another worry on my shoulders. My HCG levels are staying at 5. My doctor wants me on a monthly check for now. It's very scary to hear what you went through and with God's help we will both continue to stay at 0.

Name: EMMA ROBINSON
E-mail address: Tuesday201078@tesco.net
Signed on: Tuesday, February 5, 2002 at 11:51 AM
Comments: I had a molar pregnancy coming up to exactly a year ago and the pain has not got any easier (well it hasnít yet!!!).It just gets easier to cope with. our website has given me comfort that other people have gone through the same thing coz no-one at all (no matter how supportive your partner is-and mine is very supportive)can understand exactly how it feels unless youíve been through it yourself. How do you explain to someone who hasnít been through it that your grieving for someone you never met someone you never held or saw their face??? How do you explain to someone who hasnít been through it the pain that youíre feeling??? How do you explain to someone who hasnít been through it the sense of loss and sadness that losing a baby brings??? People might say they understand but they donít unless they have lost a baby too!!! This is a pain I can never explain exactly to anyone but I know you and the other people who have left messages know exactly how it feels. I can come to this website and know that i am not alone in the feelings I have and it gives you some strength that it is not unusual to feel this way after a year or even in 20 years!!! Thank you so much for this website and I wish you and everyone else who has been through this the best of luck for the future-take care!!! Emma Robinson

Name: BRANDY
E-mail address: BRANDILYN40@HOTMAIL.COM
Signed on: Tuesday, February 5, 2002 at 3:51 PM
Comments: I AM 19 YEARS OLD AND RECENTLY HAD A MOLAR PREGNANCY. I WAS 17 WEEKS. DURING THE WHOLE PREGNANCY I WAS GETTING SICK AS MANY AS EIGHT TIMES A DAY, CONTINUED TO BLEED, & HAD RAPID WEIGHT LOSS. I WENT INTO THE HOSPITAL FOR SEVERE PAIN IN MY BACK. I WAS HAVING A GALL BLADDER ATTACK. LATER THAT DAY, THEY INFORMED ME THAT I COULD'VE DIED W/IN 48 HRS. THEY TOLD ME I HAD A MOLAR PREGNANCY, WAS GOING TO HAVE A LIVER BIOPSY AND MY GALL-BLADDER REMOVED. IT HAS BEEN HARD TO COPE WITH. VERY HARD-MAYBE TALKING ABOUT IT WILL HELP ME?

Name: Tina
E-mail address: fentfam@froniernet.net
Signed on: Wednesday, February 6, 2002 at 3:49 PM
Comments: I had a molar pregnancy in 1986 and just now am researching exactly what happened.

Name: Jessie
E-mail address: thesquee_@hotmail.com
Signed on: Wednesday, February 6, 2002 at 10:05 PM
Comments: Hi Kendra and Nina, my name is Jessie... I had a molar pregnancy about two years ago. I don't know if it was a partial, or not. I didn't really receive as much information from the doctor as I would have liked, but from your description, I believe it was a partial. I'm commenting now mainly because it never occurred to me to seek out others who have had a molar pregnancy before. After mine, my mother scolded me for grieving, saying that it was obscene to grieve over an inanimate piece of tissue. I guess I felt I didn't have any right to grieve so I kept it to myself. Today was the first time I decided to seek out others because I'm finding that it isn't working... my heart is broken. I refuse to believe that there was no baby, like everyone keeps telling me. You are the first site I've found and it blew me away how similar some of your experience was to mine... it really floored me how your reactions were almost identical. That need to jump right back in and get pregnant again is still so prevalent even now, even two years later.
I'd also like to say that I found it amazing that you have a son named Jessie, and my name's Jessie. Your husband is Paul, my hubby is Paul. You have a sister Melissa, and my sister Melissa was one of my main supporters through my ordeal. Maybe this seems like nothing, maybe I'm being silly, but I think I was meant to find your site first....I think the reason I needed to find your site so badly was to see those words... the ones that sent a torrent of tears down my face... don't let anyone tell you there was no baby. Donít let anyone tell you that. To anyone out there who reads this now, DON'T let anyone tell you that there was no soul just because a little body didn't develop. I allowed people to tell me that, and didn't allow myself to grieve. I know my little Olivia was there, I knew her. Not many people I know,(except for a handful whom I thank beyond all thanking), seem to understand, but I think now I've finally found someone who really does understand because you've been there. Thank you for this site.

Name: Marisa Turner
E-mail address: marisa_0116@yahoo.com
Signed on: Thursday, February 7, 2002 at 9:50 AM
Comments: I was really saddened and touched by your story. I was looking up molar pregnancies and ran across your page. My friend may be going through the same thing but she is not sure yet. They see 6 baby embryos but no fetus and she is 2months. Thanks for sharing your story!

Name: Shelly Plemons
E-mail address: splemons99@aol.com
Signed on: Sunday, February 10, 2002 at 6:53 AM
Comments: I understand the grief you are going through. Just 4 days age I had to have my right tube and ovary removed because I had a tubal pregnancy and my tube ruptured. Thank you for this web sight. It has helped me find comfort. I know I will never stop grieving but it helps to have others out there to talk to.

Name: Samantha Ruth Torres
E-mail address: at79761@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, February 11, 2002 at 10:16 PM
Comments: I had a molar pregnancy around September 2001 and they gave me the bad news around my 21/2 month had a DNC don on Nov.2, 2001. Until this day Iím still in pain, now Iím taking Chemo because my blood levels went up again. Now theyíre at 19. But it donít matter what I will always carry in me my little precious baby. Only God Knows why he did this I always trusted in Him, He knows everything. I only ask you to do the same; He'll heal your heart a day at a time!!! Heís done it before. Iím only 8 months married and going through this with chemo. May God Bless You!!!! Youíre in my prayers.

Name: Sharlene Holmes
E-mail address: sharls60@hotmail.com
Signed on: Tuesday, February 12, 2002 at 3:42 PM
Comments: Last year in September I lost my daughter (we guessed she was a little girl). I just wanted to say that we now have a very healthy little girl "Libby Margaret". Life will go on and all the good things that we deserve will come to us.

Name: Valerie & Paul
E-mail address: pvgregory@shaw.ca
Signed on: Wednesday, February 13, 2002 at 2:41 PM
Comments: My Husband and I found out New Years Eve (2001) that I pregnant with our first child we were so excited, until at 11 week we went for the ultrasound and they explained to us the baby had no heart beat. I thought I would die right there on the table. I have just started my weekly blood test and we are hoping in the future we will be able to hold a baby in our arm. Until then we am trying to stay positive. Val & Paul

Name: Danielle Mitchell
E-mail address: danielle_mitch@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, February 14, 2002 at 4:39 PM
Comments: I THOUGHT YOUR STORY WAS VERY MOVING; I HAVE ALSO SUFFERED A MOLAR PREGNANCY WHICH I WAS GIVEN A D&C IN A LABOUR AND DELIVERY ROOM AS WELL, WHICH I THINK IS VERY HEARTLESS! I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE GIVEN THE ALL CLEAR AFTER A YEAR OF TESTS. I FELL PREGNANT 3 YEARS LATER BUT MISCARRIED IN THE SEVENTH WEEK, ITíS NOW JUST OVER A YEAR LATER AND I AM SIX MONTHS PREGNANT, MY SON IS DUE IN MAY SO I AM KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED JUST HOPING THINGS WILL BE FINE (THIRD TIME LUCKY). YOUR STORY HAS GIVEN ME HOPE THAT THINGS DO WORK SOMETIMES, THANKS.

Name: Chantal Crosnier
E-mail address: f.crosnier@compaqnet.nl
Signed on: Sunday, February 17, 2002 at 7:08 AM
Comments: The story you tell, it could have been mine. Almost all the details are the same. The missed ultrasound in the beginning, the D&C at the delivery floor, the rising hCG levels, the chemotherapy, everything. I think you're very brave to write your story and I hope it will help a lot of people to understand the tragedy of molar pregnancy. During the whole period I often felt misunderstood, and I still do sometimes. It's difficult to rebuild a life. I also hope your story gives hope and comfort to those who are in the middle of a molar pregnancy, with or without chemotherapy. Thank you for writing and creating this website, it comforts me to know you got through al this and that there is a life after molar pregnancy. I wish you all the luck and happiness you can imagine. Chantal Crosnier (The Netherlands)

Name: Brionne Blair
E-mail address: LexiKricket@cs.com
Signed on: Sunday, February 17, 2002 at 1:52 PM
Comments: I recently went through a molar pregnancy. I am 22 years old. I miscarried twice before, and this time was so excited that I had made it past the first trimester. I went in for a routine physical exam when I was 17 1/2 weeks pregnant. My blood pressure was supposed to be at 96/60, when they took it, it was 198/98. They admitted me to the hospital a little while later with Pregnancy Induced Hypertension. While I was there my doctor asked me what my worst fear was. I told her that my worst fear was losing the baby. She told me that it wouldn't happen and once they got my blood pressure under control I could probably go home. They did blood work on me and told me later on that they were transferring me to Albany Medical Center for Lupus, or an autoimmune disorder. They said with both of those it was treatable and I would be able to carry the baby full term. When I got to Albany, I woke up at 4:00 am. They were doing an ultra sound on my stomach, I heard to doctor say "we will have to take the baby" to another doctor. At 7:30 the next morning they brought me in for a level 2 ultra sound that is when I saw that I was having a baby boy. The doctor told me that they had no choice but to take the baby or I would die. If I tried to carry full term the baby would be still born or die in few days. I heart broke into hundreds of pieces. My blood pressure went up to 210/118. They rushed me into surgery, and told my boyfriend and my father that if they didn't get me into surgery fast I would have a seizure, or a heart attack, or a stroke, or even worse I would slip into a coma. The hardest part about the whole thing was hearing his heart beat, and seeing him move on the ultra sound screen, and feeling him move even if I only felt him a few time. I knew he was there. I have never loved something so much, or wanted anything more than I did for my son. I will always remember him. As my heart start to mend he will always hold a huge piece of it. Brionne Blair

Name: Joanne
E-mail address: JoGoodhind@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, February 18, 2002 at 12:24 PM
Comments: Thank you, reading your story has helped me come to terms with my own experience. Thank you

Name: Tiffany
E-mail address: tiffany1179@hotmail.com
Signed on: Monday, February 18, 2002 at 1:06 PM
Comments: My boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant after only 4 months of dating. At first we were shocked, but then we were ecstatic! I went in for my first checkup at about 8 weeks and he was right there with me. The doctor said everything was fine, but that I wasn't far along enough for the first ultrasound. We made an appointment to go back and "see the baby". By the time we got back in, I was 12 weeks and had already gained 25 lbs. We went in for the ultrasound Monday, Nov. 26 and that's when the doctor told us he couldn't find a pregnancy at all. We were devastated. He did an HCG level test and I was at 260,000. We went back in 11/28 for another ultrasound and we could see the outline of the placenta. The tumor took up all of the space inside. We set the appointment for the D&C the next day. That night, Mike proposed. He figured if we could make it through this, we could make it through anything. After the D&C, I started going in for weekly HCG tests and I am happy to say that I am down to 0 and have stayed there for about 3 weeks!

Name: Amanda McCurley
E-mail address: quentinmac@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, February 18, 2002 at 7:44 PM
Comments: I recently had a partial molar pregnancy. I am 22 yrs old and seemed to be in perfect health. My husband and I went to my doctor's office on Jan 3, 2002 to hear our baby's heartbeat for the first time. We did not hear one. I had a d & c that same day. About a week or so later my doctor called us and told us about this very rare condition. I have been going to the doctor for 6 weeks in a row now getting my blood work done and my hcg level is down to 49. I am very scared that this will happen to me again. We were so excited when we found out we were pregnant. This has been very devastating for both us. The loss of our child was bad but, having to go through all of this is even worse. I just wondered if there was anyone out there that has had a molar pregnancy and then gone on to have healthy children?

Name: carley
E-mail address: c_dagneau@yahoo.com
Signed on: Tuesday, February 19, 2002 at 1:32 AM
Comments: Thank you so much for your story. It was just like looking back in my past. I too had the same thing happen, though no cancer came out of it. I have not been able to conceive since and it has been three years. Thank you again for you story. Itís good to know that my situation wasnít so abnormal and that there are others out there like me. carley

Name: Wanda Bates
E-mail address: b.bates@ns.sympatico.ca
Signed on: Tuesday, February 19, 2002 at 10:56 AM
Comments: Hi I wasn't sure if I should read your story or not because I am going through sort of the same thing right now. I did not want to scare myself any further. But I am glad now that I did. You truly did get a happy ending. I hope I am as lucky. Your family is beautiful and I wish you all the best of luck. P.S. Do you think you will try again? Wanda

Name: Tracy
E-mail address: dacboyz@aol.com
Signed on: Wednesday, February 20, 2002 at 8:01 AM
Comments: Thank you for sharing your story. I found out yesterday my loss in Dec. was a partial molar. My no.'s are currently in the 800's, but I began bleeding badly on Feb. 14th, so I hope the no.'s are dropping steadily. I can't wait for this to be over! You are a strong woman.

Name: Gail Lauzon
E-mail address: lauzong@navcanada.ca
Signed on: Wednesday, February 20, 2002 at 9:01 AM
Comments: I decide to visit your site because I've just found out that my daughter-in-law has a molar pregnancy. I'm just looking for answers and I'm thankful that such a site exists. Thank you and keep up the good work. Sincerely, Gail Lauzon

Name: ELISHA
E-mail address: STX9FD03@ALLSTATE.COM
Signed on: Wednesday, February 20, 2002 at 1:17 PM
Comments: WELL IíM ONLY 21 AND BACK IN DECEMBER ME AND MY X-BOYFRIEND FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT AT ONLY DATING FOR 7 MONTHS. AND OF COURSE WE WERE BOTH SCHOCKED TO HEAR THE NEWS, BUT THE FOLLOWING WEEK WE BOTH WENT IN FOR A CHECK-UP TO SEE HOW FAR ALONG I WAS. AT THIS POINT WE HAD GOTTEN OVER THE SURPRISE AND WERE KIND OF EXCITED. I WASNT SURE HOW FAR ALONG I WAS, BUT I WAS ALREADY STARTING TO SHOW, SO I WAS SURPRISED TO HEAR THE DOCTOR SAY THAT I WASNT THAT FAR ALONG WITH THE PREGANCY AFTER HE DID A PELVIC EXAM. AND THEN HE DID AN ULTRASOUND ON ME AND SAID THAT IT DIDNT LOOK LIKE A NORMAL PREGANCY, RIGHT THEN AND THERE I BURSTED OUT IN TEARS, HE TOLD US THERE WAS NO HEART BEAT AND IT LOOKED LIKE THE BABY HADNT DEVELOPED AT ALL. I AND MY BOYFRIEND AT THE TIME WERE IN SHOCK! SO RIGHT AWAY HE SENT ME TO THE HOSPITAL TO GO GET SOME BLOOD TEST DONE AND CHEST X-RAYS. THEY DID ANOTHER ULTRASOUND ON ME AT THE HOSPITAL AND RIGHT AFTER THAT, MY DOCTOR TOLD ME YOU ARE GOING INTO SURGERY TONIGHT. I WAS TERRIFIED, I HAD BEEN PICKED AND POKED AT ALL DAY AND NOW I HAVE TO HAVE SURGERY. BUT SINCE THEN I FOUND OUT IT WAS ONLY A PARTIAL MOLAR PREGANCY AND MY HORMONE LEVEL IS BACK AT ZERO. I STILL GO FOR MY BLOOD TEST EVERY MONTH TO MAKE SURE MY HORMONE LEVEL STAYS AT ZERO. IT WAS BIG EXPERIENCE FOR ME TO GO THROUGH, AND ALL THE RESEARCH IVE DONE ON THE INTERNET HAS HELPED A LOT!!

Name: Lee Eisenmann
E-mail address: ISCMANNZ@YAHOO.COM
Signed on: Wednesday, February 20, 2002 at 2:37 PM
Comments: Hi. I just wanted to let you know that I am very happy for you and that I know all too much the pain that you and your husband went through. I went through a molar pregnancy two days before Xmas. I can't wait until I can try again. Itís been almost 2 months. The doctor says we can try again after 3 normal cycles. You're children are beautiful. Please pray for me. Lee

Name: Nooshin McEwen
E-mail address: caribspice1@yahoo.com
Signed on: Thursday, February 21, 2002 at 4:02 AM
Comments: I can only say that I know how you feel........May God bless you and your family.

Name: Elaine
E-mail address: elaine_kue651@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, February 21, 2002 at 6:37 PM
Comments: I can really relate to this because I had it not even a year ago when I was 17 yrs. old... I never really thought that it was anything serious until now when I decided to do a report on it... I only went to about five blood drawings... so I guess I really should get checked. Thank you so much!!!

Name: Melanie Kirk
E-mail address: akrik@tampabay.rr.net
Signed on: Friday, February 22, 2002 at 6:47 PM
Comments: Thank you so much for this site; it answered a lot of my questions.

Name: Tracy
E-mail address: sunlovertracy@msn.com
Signed on: Saturday, February 23, 2002 at 7:04 AM

Name: Sarah Hoad
E-mail address: sarah1johnston@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, February 25, 2002 at 2:03 PM
Comments: I am 28 years old and had a molar pregnancy on June 2nd 1996 - I will never forget that date I am astonished at how many people have been affected by this condition I felt so isolated and alone having no answers as to why this happened to me I required chemotherapy to bring my blood results to zero as they blipped - sitting on a cancer ward in a large London hospital feeling alone as they had no specific treatment centers. I am still on follow up every six months and would like to give hope to others suffering I am now a mother of two little boys both pregnancies went well and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Name: Karen
E-mail address: mrnettek@hotmail.com
Signed on: Tuesday, February 26, 2002 at 9:32 AM

Name: Krista Burkett
E-mail address: kbcrazie22@hotmail.com
Signed on: Tuesday, February 26, 2002 at 10:44 AM
Comments: I am so sorry to hear about the turmoil that you have been through. My sister-in-law just recently had this same very thing happen to her. It was extremely hard for my family to take, since this child would have been the first grandchild and their first. She is doing ok now and we know our little one is in heaven watching over us, like our little angel too. I wish you well and may God Bless you and your family. Krista

Name: Holly Smith
E-mail address: skylaeyes420@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, February 26, 2002 at 11:24 AM

Name: Mike
E-mail address: pandmrolser@prodigy.net
Home Web Site: http://pages.prodigy.net/pandmrolser/
Signed on: Wednesday, February 27, 2002 at 7:28 PM
Comments: My wife just had a molar pregnancy in January 2002. We thought it was all over and were trying to put this heart breaking experience behind us. We just got the results of her latest HCG levels and were stunned to find out they were starting to go back up. We have a tough road ahead of us and this web site helped me see this tragedy in a new light. It made me feel better to think that since there was no fetus then we never really lost a baby. I realize after reading your story that I was ignorant. This has been very traumatic for my wife and I haven't been very supportive. Thank you for sharing your story and helping me understand what my wife is feeling. Mike

Name: Jennifer
E-mail address: Jentrem@excite.com
Signed on: Friday, March 1, 2002 at 12:36 PM
Comments: I'm 25 years old and my first pregnancy resulted in a complete mole. I'm mad and terrified and the same time, I lost my baby or what I thought was a baby and I might get some weird cancer!! I don't understand how it is that detection of a molar pregnancy is not practiced on all pregnant women to rule it out. I got the news I was 15.5 weeks and had my D&C at 16 weeks...It was heart breaking, every one told me not to be sad that no baby ever existed... They don't understand the baby existed in my head, in my dreams! I don't understand why this happened, at least if they knew the cause I could avoid it next pregnancy. I feel so alone, nobody seems to understand my grief. Some of you wrote that your doctor asked you to wait 3 normal cycles, mine said 12 months! My HcG was < 2 at 7 weeks after the D&C and still she wants me to wait to avoid recurrence... Well the risk is 1:74 for a new molar pregnancy and I'm ready to take it! I hope to continue reading your stories and life experiences.. it's nice to know I'm not alone Jenn

Name: Stephanie
E-mail address: target1261@yahoo.com
Signed on: Friday, March 1, 2002 at 4:08 PM
Comments: I recently had a molar pregnancy this past Christmas. I miscarried on 12/19/01 and my D & C was preformed on 12/26/01. My Christmas was crushed and so was my heart. After the surgery I was at my 6 week follow up appointment and the Dr. accounted to me that I would have given birth to a baby girl. This feeling was unbearable not only did I loose my baby girl but the Dr. had told me numerous times the I had, had a partial molar pregnancy and the baby never formed. I was 13 weeks into the pregnancy when it was ended. It's a feeling no one could ever describe even with the most dramatic and emotional word ever made known. Is been 2 months now and my HCG level is still at 3. I'm continuing them weekly until the reach 2 then monthly for a year at a negative number. My Dr. recommended I wait at least to years before trying again. Even then the chance of a copy miscarriage is a large number. I enjoyed the web site and the many stories that where submitted. May God be with all of you and your life be made easier one day at a time as mine has with the help of my very loving and understanding boyfriend Aaron. For without my life was as good as the beautiful that I lost.

Name: Debbie
E-mail address: dhoopengardner@comcast.net
Signed on: Saturday, March 2, 2002 at 11:35 AM
Comments: My 16 year old daughter just had a complete molar pregnancy. She had the D & C procedure on 2-26-02. Her HCG level was 280,400. I had never ever heard of such a thing and I had a hard time believing that there could be no fetus when there was a placenta. I learned about molar pregnancy the hard way. My daughter was hemorrhaging or having a spontaneous abortion. She was afraid to tell me she was pregnant and when se started to hemorrhage she did not tell me that either. I was told on2-26-02 by a friend that my daughter was pregnant. I called her and asked her if the information I had was true. The first thing out of her mouth was "mommy do you hate me". I told her that there was nothing in the world that she could ever do that would make me hate her and I would support any decision she made with regard to her pregnancy. She did not have a choice as there was no baby. I spent the next several hours praying to God that I would not loose "my Baby" as she was hemorrhaging and going into surgery. She has a doctorís apt on March 6 to have her HCG levels checked. I pray every day that they return to normal and that she does not have to go thru the next phase of the molar process. I do understand how my daughter feels in regard to the loss she fells and the fear that she is experiencing now. I have always tried to provide an environment where my children could talk to me about anything and I still do not understand that my daughter did not think that she could talk to me. This message goes out to kids that may be pregnant and to people that have and or are still going thru this. THERE IS NOTHING MY CHILDREN COULD EVER DO THAT WOULD MAKE ME NOT LOVE THEM AND I HOPE THAT IS TRUE OF EVERY PARENT OUT THERE. Do not make your children afraid to talk to you about anything and love them not matter what. My daughter hopefully knows that now. I have slept with her every night since her procedure letting her know over and over again I am here for her and I love her unconditionally. Her older sister just found out what happened to her baby sister and I have to say this horrible experience has brought them closer together. My daughters have both read the letters on this website as have I and I am so thankful that it's here. You are not alone in this and there is hope.... and you did nothing wrong. Thanks for providing me another way to help my baby work thru this.

Name: Pam Callahan
E-mail address: callahan@datasync.com
Signed on: Saturday, March 2, 2002 at 3:58 PM
Comments: I had a molar pregnancy!!! I lost my Evan (I knew it was a boy!!) on 02/06/02-3 days before my 29th birthday!!! I had my D&C done on 02/13/02 because of hemorrhaging. My OB-GYN called my yesterday about my HCG levels being up and I had all the test ran and have an appointment with the Oncologist on 03/07/02!!! I'm really scared because I don't know what to expect! Iím single w/2 other children but I love Evan the same as I do Madalyn and Jackson!!! Thank You for letting me read your story and know it's ok to love my baby!!!

Name: Samantha West
Signed on: Sunday, March 3, 2002 at 10:46 AM
Comments: I'M SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN. THE REASON I LOOKED ON THIS SITE IS BECAUSE MY PHYSICAL EDUCATION TEACHER IS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING AND I WANTED TO LOOK UP SOME STUFF SO I WOULD KNOW WHAT IT WAS. I AM 10 YEARS OLD. I HOPE THIS NEVER HAPPENS TO ME. I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE BUT I'M SO SORRY. THANK YOU FOR PUTTING THIS SITE UP.

Name: Mackenzie
E-mail address: cutecalifornia13@aol.com
Home Web Site: http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/b/babyboo
Signed on: Sunday, March 3, 2002 at 2:59 PM
Comments: Oh my god! Your story is so sad! I really cherish my little girl, Reilly Jay. Throughout my pregnancy I read about babies thinking that there's no way my baby is going to be normal. With everything out there, I thought we had no chance. But, on February 21, 2002, my darling baby girl, Reilly Jay was born. I'm so sorry for your losses! Please e-mail me or check out Reilly's webpage and sign her guestbook. Maybe Nina and Abby are with my friend Nicole's baby daughter, Simone. Thanks for sharing your story.

Name: Talat
E-mail address: talatara@hotmail.com
Signed on: Sunday, March 3, 2002 at 6:55 PM

Name: Jo
E-mail address: Nimbles2@aol.com
Signed on: Wednesday, March 6, 2002 at 1:11 PM
Comments: I am so thankful for your page. You and your family are in my prayers. I just had my first HcG reading. It's at 700. I am hoping to see it go down. Thanks for being so open.

Name: Karen Whitehead
E-mail address: karen.whitehead@baesystems.com
Signed on: Thursday, March 7, 2002 at 5:36 AM
Comments: Your story is fascinating and you are a very brave lady. I can really understand how you feel although my scenario does not seem anything to what you have been through.
I found out that I had had a molar pregnancy at my routine 13 week scan in March 2001. Needless to say we were absolutely devastated and had never heard of it before. I started a 6 month follow-up program and luckily my HCG levels returned to normal and I was given the all clear to try again. In October we were delighted to find out that I had fallen pregnant first month after the "all clear" and made an appointment for an early scan to check all was well - thankfully it was. A week later I started bleeding at home and was taken into hospital, I was told that I had had a twin pregnancy but that I had miscarried one. I felt confused (sad for the child I had lost and happy for the one I was still carrying). At 13 weeks of pregnancy I went along for my routine scan, only to be told that the baby had not heartbeat. We could not believe this was happening to us again. A week after my D&C my HCG levels were 196,000 and I therefore had to do another series of blood tests. We now feel completely scared to try again after losing 3 babies in 10 months. Please pray for us that we will eventually have a baby, a brother or sister for our 3 year old child. Love, Karen & Dave

Name: Debbie
Signed on: Thursday, March 7, 2002 at 3:23 PM
Comments: I want to pregnant. I need some help; can you help me?

Name: Ruth
Signed on: Saturday, March 9, 2002 at 1:38 PM
Comments: ob/gyn nurse at Vanderbilt hospital thank you for your sweet story. God bless you

Name: Irene Asakli
E-mail address: izzea@aol.com
Signed on: Saturday, March 9, 2002 at 9:01 PM

Name: Evelyn Partain
E-mail address: epartain@southeastkeller.com
Signed on: Saturday, March 9, 2002 at 9:51 PM
Comments: Thank you for sharing your story. God Bless!

Name: Jami Campbell
E-mail address: jakesplace@peoplepc.com
Signed on: Monday, March 11, 2002 at 10:12 AM
Comments: I was diagnosed with a molar pregnancy at 11 weeks. My hCg count was over a million at the time. Itís now been 4 weeks and my count, after going down some for a few weeks, has now gone up a bit, and I am terrified. Iím so sick of hearing how "rare" this is- look at all these women who have gone thru this! Is anyone else finding the lack of info about this out there completely frustrating??? I see my doc today and will find out what the next step is. May God bless all of you who are or have been thru this? It is truly a nightmare.

Name: Angela
E-mail address: ame11482@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, March 11, 2002 at 12:23 PM

Name: Judy Meadows
E-mail address: judym@info-ed.com
Signed on: Monday, March 11, 2002 at 7:35 PM
Comments: Unfortunately, I too have lived this nightmare. However, I was blessed that mine was not Cancer. I have searched everywhere and can not find much about molar pregnancy. I thank god for this site. Reading this sent shivers down my spine at how similar our lives have been. On Aug 10, 2001 I began spotting as I did with my second pregnancy. I did not think much of it. I had delivered two beautiful girls previously and never thought anything of a MOLAR PREGNANCY. I called my OBGYN just to be safe on Friday. I went for the afternoon appointment. My husband called work before I left and asked if I needed him to go. I stated I was sure that everything was fine. I had started to show early but this was my third pregnancy. I thought that was normal. How wrong was I. I arrived at my MD and they began an ultrasound on me. After several tries and no success they decided to do a vaginal ultrasound. After about 20mins of torture and bringing the midwife to the room and then bringing in the OBGYN I knew something was definitely wrong. My MD looked at me and stated when you get dressed, please come to my office. When they were finished the midwife hugged me and walked the longest walk of my life with me to the MDS office. Inside he closed the door and stated this is not what you came here for was it. I thought I was going to explode from my body. He began to explain that I had what he thought was molar pregnancy. He stated he sees only one a year. He stated he would need to draw blood immediately to confirm surgery on Monday Aug 13. When the lab was done I was definitely scheduled for surgery on Monday. My HCG level was 122,000. He stated that when he got inside if the pathology report was bad that he would immediately do a hysterectomy and I would have to begin chemo. He stated he would not know for sure until he sent off the pathology report. Thank God that I did not have cancer. My levels began to drop after the surgery and within 3 months I was to zero. I go for another screening on March 20th. As far as I know I am okay but I ask you folks to pray for me. I found this website and sobbed all the way through it. God bless you and all the viewers who read it and are going thru the same thing. My husband would love to try again. Emotionally I do not know if I can. I am waiting on my report on the 20th and leaving it up to God. Again God bless you all and I agree whether tissue or a full term baby when you are pregnant YOU ARE PREGNANT. Your body reacts the same way on both. I am so thankful to find this website. I have felt so all alone since Aug, 2001.

Name: Lisa Maria Howard
E-mail address: fmcbride@psyber.com
Signed on: Tuesday, March 12, 2002 at 8:10 PM
Comments: I just wanted to say thank you for making this website. I just found out that I have a molar pregnancy and was very scared because I didn't know anything about it. You have been very helpful and inspiring. I know now that if things to turn for the worst there will be hope. Thanks Again!

Name: Samantha Green
E-mail address: sgreen@SquirrelMail.com
Signed on: Friday, March 15, 2002 at 8:52 AM
Comments: I was reading some of these stories, and now I know that I am not alone. I am 16 and I had found out that was pregnant 2 months ago. I went to the doctors February 26th and they had given me a vaginal ultrasound. They looked as hard as they could. Then she said that she couldnít see anything, and that scared me. Then she paused the screen and printed an ultrasound picture out and walked out of the room. Then a few minutes later the doctor walked in and he was just like you lost the baby. He did exactly tell me that I had a complete molar pregnancy. But when he walked in with that look on his face like he didnít want to tell me. He told me that it could be to early but what from they calculated I was about 81/2 weeks along. I went to the doctors again on March 5th. The same thing happened there was nothing but a gestational sac growing bigger each day. The just last Saturday on the 9th I think thatís the date. But I went to the hospital and I had a D&C done. They took more blood as I was waking up. There werenít any problems but I was scared. I was sad that I didnít get to keep my baby. I thought that it was my entire fault that this happened. I thought maybe I should have of taken better care of myself. I woke up from the anesthesia and I was crying. The doctor told me that it wasnít my fault. But I still feel that way. I know that I am young still and I have my whole life ahead of me before I need to start having babies. But I was pregnant and I got over the telling my parents and wishing that this would have of never happened. I was thinking about the future. About having a baby around the house. My boyfriend was very supportive and he was getting excited to and he was a little disappointed that I wasnít having his baby. But we are going to try again. They say that this thing shouldnít happen again after you had already had a complete molar pregnancy. I was a little nervous when I had to go to the hospital and get a IV and blood taken out of me. The thing that I didnít like about that hospital was the nurse that I had when I was in recovery. I always wonder why this had to happen to me. I have never heard of anything like this before. My mom was shocked and was like scared because she had never heard about this before. But I have to go back to the doctors soon again. I wish I could find another 16 year old girl that I can talk to about this that has had the same thing happen to them...I feel kind of alone because everyone that I have talked to hadnít experience what I have. So email me if you want to and I really like this site. It helped know that I am not alone in the world with this complication.

Name: Brandy
E-mail address: bsweisberger@carolina.rr.com
Signed on: Friday, March 15, 2002 at 12:27 PM
Comments: Thank God for your ability to share your story. It took me this week reading your info & links to be able to do this. Bad news on 3/4/02 then d&c 3/8/02. I was at 278,000 3/6 now with thoughts & prayers I was at 15,037 on 3/13!! My heart said mine (partial molar) was my girl. I do have 3 healthy boys - thankfully, and this was unexpected, but the hardest part must be that at first check she was fine, heartbeat strong, then second visit at 13 weeks, you could see a small lifeless form, down to the legs & arms, along with another "sack", the "mole". I guess it is unbelievable that possible twins can turn into possible cancer. WOW! That is all I can say. I will heal & deal but, never forget my Kirsten Marie! Thanks so much for making your site - especially easy to search for also! Bless you! Brandy & family

Name: Melanie Ross
E-mail address: melanieross25@hotmail.com
Signed on: Saturday, March 16, 2002 at 4:08 PM
Comments: Thank you

Name: Heather
E-mail address: heaths32@yahoo.com
Home Web Site: http://www.geocities.com/heaths32/HeatherHenry.html
Signed on: Monday, March 18, 2002 at 11:17 AM
Comments: Thank you so much for sharing your stories. I read them with tears streaming down my face. I lost my only baby, Hayden, on January 8, 2002 and it helps to read that others have been through similar situations. I wrote about him on my web site if you'd like to read my story. Thanks again.

Name: Leslie
E-mail address: jatkin@appleaccess.com
Signed on: Friday, March 22, 2002 at 12:28 AM
Comments: It is very sad what happens to women who are trying so hard to conceive. My sister just lost hers about a month ago and now she is going to have to get checked for cancer. She had just got her thyroid removed because of cancer in her thyroid. I feel for everyone who has lost or miscarried because, I am one of them. Thank you

Name: Jean Kokoska
E-mail address: pjkokoska@abcs.com
Signed on: Monday, March 25, 2002 at 7:33 AM
Comments: My new daughter-in-law is just now experiencing this. Last Monday -at 11 weeks- there was no heartbeat. You know the rest. Your writing helps me realize what she is feeling. The D&C is tomorrow. They are new Wycliffe missionaries beginning linguistic degree in Canada this June. Thank you so much.

Name: Tiffany
E-mail address: PRsgryl@aol.com
Signed on: Wednesday, March 27, 2002 at 4:09 PM
Comments: I lost my baby to a partial molar pregnancy only 9 days ago. It is very hard and a lot of people think that I should be okay right away, because "she" was not fully developed, she was 14 weeks and I loved that child so very much, mostly because she was my first. I was very confused about what had happened until I found your web site. Thank you so very much for helping me better understand what's happened, and what could still happen..
God Bless you and your beautiful family!

Name: Melinda
Signed on: Friday, March 29, 2002 at 12:48 PM
Comments: This is my first time reading this. I donít feel so alone. I not so sure what a Molar pregnancy is. My doctor explained briefly but he assured me that this would not be my case due to my hcg level after my D&C. I go back to see him this April and get the results of the resent hcg test. I pray that all is fine. If anyone can just explain a little more, it would sure help ease my nervousness. Thank you and please keep me as well in your prayers. Melinda

Name: Kelly
E-mail address: jokel96@msn.com
Signed on: Saturday, March 30, 2002 at 7:53 PM
Comments: I JUST FOUND OUT I TOO HAVE A MOLAR PREGNANCY,IM 12 WEEKS TOMORROW EASTER SUNDAY.AFTER FINDING NO HEART BEAT AND AFTER AN ULTRASOUND FINDING NO BABY ,ABOUT 1 MILLION THINGS WENT THROUGH MY MIND,HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN,MY 1ST PREGNANCY WAS PERFECT.IT TOOK 5 MONTHS TO GET PREGNANT NOW THIS AS OF TODAY IM STILL PREGNANT MARCH 30 BY MONDAY IT WILL ALL BE OVER,IM HAVING A D&C IM NOT SURE WHAT TO EXPECT.IM SCARED TO THINK WHAT COULD COME TO BE.MY HCG LEVELS IS 69,000 IT SHOULD BE 0 .MY BODY IS STILL PREGNANT,BUT I WILL HAVE NO BABY TO SHOW FOR IT,THIS IS VERY HARD TO DEAL WITH.

Name: Kendra
E-mail address: kamots_2k@yahoo.com
Signed on: Tuesday, April 2, 2002 at 6:49 AM
Comments: Kendra, I just wanted to say thank you for your website - it took a lot of guts for you to do this and be so open with others. My girlfriend just lost her baby yesterday at 15 weeks due to a molar pregnancy and when I looked it up on the internet your site came up. It was very informative, sad yet happy and at times, scary all at the same time. Now I understand what happened and can share with her. Thank you. Another Kendra

Name: Christine Daniello
E-mail address: cadaniello@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, April 2, 2002 at 6:25 PM

Name: Lillian Blythe
E-mail address: tresblythe@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, April 2, 2002 at 7:27 PM
Comments: Hi, thanks for your website. My best friend is going through this very moment. She just found out today and is waiting the test results. She still has not aborted the baby yet... My heart cares for you and for her. God Bless!

Name: Nina
Signed on: Wednesday, April 3, 2002 at 5:46 PM
Comments: Hi, my name is Nina too. I am now going through a molar pregnancy. And I am so scared. I donít know what to do!!!! I just wanted you to know that I understand. And if you want to talk just talk to me!!!

Name: Melissa Holmes
E-mail address: mholmes@co.santa-fe.nm.us
Signed on: Thursday, April 4, 2002 at 10:23 AM
Comments: I just found out that I have a molar pregnancy. I will be having a D&C on 4/5/02. I am scared to death for my life and because I have a 2yr old boy David. I am glad I found your website. It gives me hope that I can fight this if my levels don't go back to zero. I need all the prayers I can get to be strong. Please email me back. I am glad you are recovered thank God. Sincerely, Melissa Holmes

Name: Anne
E-mail address: lafontanne@yahoo.ca
Signed on: Thursday, April 4, 2002 at 2:52 PM
Comments: Thank you for sharing your story about Nina. It really touched me, and I could relate to it. A Grandma-to-be (by September 16th 2002)

Name: Jessica Courts
E-mail address: goofyphin@charter.com
Signed on: Thursday, April 4, 2002 at 8:29 PM
Comments: Thank you so much for creating this sight. I have just found out I had a molar pregnancy and my levels are very high, so it does not look good. I have to find so way to make it through the night so tomorrow I can go for more tests. Thank you for sharing your story with me and helping me to understand what is happening. Jessie

Name: Debbie
E-mail address: debbiegraham@msn.com
Signed on: Thursday, April 4, 2002 at 11:57 PM
Comments: Thank you so much for your informative yet touching story. Until yesterday I had never heard of a Molar pregnancy. Today, it has touched our family. Thanks for sharing your story.

Name: Norma Upton
E-mail address: normau54@aol.com
Signed on: Friday, April 5, 2002 at 7:03 PM

Name: Ebony Conerly
E-mail address: ebonyconerly@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, April 8, 2002 at 1:05 PM

Name: Jennifer
E-mail address: sanrio81@aol.com
Signed on: Monday, April 8, 2002 at 4:55 PM
Comments: Hi. I just wanted to say sorry for your loss. I also had this problem. I hope that everything will be in my favor next time. Thanks Jennifer

Name: KELLY
E-mail address: KDHAMELL@MSN.COM
Signed on: Tuesday, April 9, 2002 at 8:28 AM
Comments: I HAD A COMPLETE MOLAR PREGNANCY WHICH I HAD THE D&C JAN 30 2002 AND I WANT TO TRY AGAIN SOON, WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I GOT PREGNANT NOW?????

Name: Mary from Lorain Ohio
Signed on: Wednesday, April 10, 2002 at 3:41 PM
Comments: This web sight has been a tremendous blessing to me. I had a complete molar pregnancy. Two weeks ago I had a DNC and have been feeling good physically since, after my levels being at 500,000. Emotionally I was very confused with it being a complete molar to be honest I did not know how I was supposed to feel. Was it a real baby? Was I supposed to experience a loss? That is when I found this web sight and some meaning to the tremendous pain in my heart. THANK YOU. I pray that all of you that do go through this that you to can find peace and know that God loves you and He tremendously cares for you.

Name: Sahodra
Signed on: Thursday, April 11, 2002 at 12:48 PM
Comments: My prayers are with you and your family.
I believe everything happens for a reason and whatever that reason is, you are fulfilling it by your love, support and caring for another human being.
May God bless you and I am sure your little angel (Nina) is watching over you.

Name: Jackie from New Zealand
E-mail address: jack.tj@ihug.co.nz
Signed on: Thursday, April 11, 2002 at 2:13 PM
Comments: I have just had a D&C two days ago for a full molar pregnancy at 17 weeks. A major blow after trying for a year to get pregnant with our second and only four months after the very sudden death of my precious father in front of me. Pretty tough, but I think it is easier to think of it as not having any baby in there. I did not lose a baby, I lost a pregnancy. There was no part of a baby at all in there to die. The cancer chance is a bit scary but I guess I will have to wait and see. Thank you for your web site, I knew very little but what I have read is just what the doctors told me so I feel better.

Name: Pam
E-mail address: Pamelad53@msn.com
Signed on: Thursday, April 11, 2002 at 5:06 PM

Name: Bonnie Mac
E-mail address: jjrnb@shaw.ca
Signed on: Thursday, April 11, 2002 at 7:16 PM

Name: Diane
E-mail address: littlerosemairy@msn.com
Signed on: Saturday, April 13, 2002 at 4:44 PM
Comments: I just wanted to say I have seen your site. I'm sorry. Love Die

Name: Barbara Lee
E-mail address: c-blee@psln.com
Signed on: Sunday, April 14, 2002 at 1:40 AM
Comments: Thank you so much for this web-site. My daughter had a molar pregnancy not quite a year ago. It was terribly hard on her. She has now tried to convince herself that it never happened. Someday, when the time is right for her, I will have her read your story... the story of Nina. Thank you for sharing it. I am sure it will help her, just as I am sure it has helped many get through a very difficult time. May God bless you.

Name: Christy G.
E-mail address: cgrabowski@cox.rr.com
Signed on: Sunday, April 14, 2002 at 7:43 PM
Comments: Thanks for writing this... I feel like I was reading my own diary... I had my first shot of chemo 5 days ago and am anxiously awaiting my next hCG count. It took me a year to get pregnant with the help of the fertility specialist. I am now so worried that I may never have a healthy pregnancy and will never have a chance to have the 3 children I want since I have to wait till I'm at least 33 to try again.

Name: Me
Signed on: Monday, April 15, 2002 at 10:44 AM
Comments: I am sorry about what has happened. I loved your site and have used some of it for my report on pregnancies. God bless

Name: Courtney
E-mail address: courtney_torres@hotmail.com
Signed on: Wednesday, April 17, 2002 at 4:19 PM
Comments: I just as actually searching the internet, about my 2yr old daughterís molars coming in, and stumbled on your website, I was brought to tears, and then over again, I am so sorry for the losses your family has suffered. After spending several hours on your site, I am glad to learn how strong of a family you are. Thank you for the inspiration! May you continue to be healthy? Courtney M. Torres

Name: Sharon Brunacci
E-mail address: Brunacci@erols.com
Signed on: Wednesday, April 17, 2002 at 7:02 PM
Comments: My doctor thinks I have a molar Pregnancy and I am trying to find out more information.

Name: F. Brown-Smith
E-mail address: fabs_30@hotmail.com
Signed on: Saturday, April 20, 2002 at 8:07 PM

Name: Lori
E-mail address: lojo@islandtelecom.com
Signed on: Sunday, April 21, 2002 at 7:14 AM
Comments: I just wanted to say that you are a very special and strong person. As everyone is your life has gone through this with you, itís you that had the hardest blunt of it all. I know this as I just had a d&c after finding out I had a molar pregnancy. This would have been my first child, which was very much planned and wanted and loved for already. Thank you for your story and your children are beautiful, you must be sooo proud of them...also me and Justin have something in common. My birthday is also on June 18th...feel free to write me if you want to chat...I would like that a lot. Thanks again. Lori

Name: Judi
E-mail address: judi_72039@yahoo.com
Signed on: Sunday, April 21, 2002 at 1:22 PM
Comments: My daughter had a molar pregnancy and had a dnc just a week and a half ago she is only 20 we never heard of such a thing she was 2 1/2 months along with what we thought was a baby come to found out there was no baby. Judi My daughters e-mail is melissa_19ar@yahoo.com.

Name: Geraldine Miguel
E-mail address: geraldine_miguel@hotmail.com.au
Signed on: Sunday, April 21, 2002 at 9:20 PM
Comments: I'm sorry for your loss. I've been diagnosed with a possible Molar Pregnancy last Friday, 19th April 2002 with 12 weeks gestation. I had a curette done the next day and I've lost my first baby two years ago from still birth. I am at a loss how it happened and am curious when and whether I can have a successful pregnancy in the future.

Name: Beulah
E-mail address: ruthbeulah@yahoo.com
Signed on: Monday, April 22, 2002 at 3:20 PM
Comments: I am surprised to read the stories of so many young ladies with molar pregnancy. I had taken 2 home pregnancy tests and it seemed that I was not pregnant. I even had bleeding continuously for a whole month. But the symptoms that I had like throwing up etc seemed like I was pregnant. I felt sick and I thought it was flu and expected to get fine soon. But this continued for 2 months and I decided to go to the doctor with my husband. The doctor took a blood test and told me that I was 16weeks pregnant, but he was worried because he didn't get the heart-beat of the child. He told me that he would schedule an appointment for me with a OBGYN the next day. I and my husband were excited about the pregnancy because this would be out first child. But that night I had massive bleeding and was taken to the emergency. Me and my husband thought that this was a miscarriage, but this turned to be something more worst. The doctor took an ultra sound and after 3 hours came and told me that I was having something called molar pregnancy. He explained me what it was because I have never heard about that. He scheduled an appointment for me with a Gynecologist that morning. She told me the same thing and told me that i must have a surgery as soon as possible. This was a shock and a nightmare to me and my husband. We are both young full time students and newly married. I had the surgery on the 19th where i lost a lot of blood for which I had to be admitted and given 4 bags of blood. Now I am back home and going to school. I am scheduled to go and visit the doctor every two weeks. I was terrified to hear from the doctor that i might not get pregnant in the future, but I am relieved to hear stories that I can get pregnant. I am trusting in Lord Jesus who created out body. He is the doctor who created our body. The worldly doctor may say that we may not have kids in the future but the bible says "have faith and ask of anything and you shall receive". I and my husband believe that we will have kids with the Lords help. We are praying earnestly. Now I know that I am not alone and there are lots of young girls with this problem who need a lot of prayer. The Lord has given me the burden to pray for all these young girls after reading this site. TRUST IN THE LORD. GOD BLESS U ALL.

Name: Michelle
E-mail address: sk00bysnacks@yahoo.com
Signed on: Thursday, April 25, 2002 at 11:14 AM
Comments: I too share everyoneís nightmare, but mine went even worse. I was three months along and for two weeks I had been bleeding not a lot but a little bit but the color was weird so I went back to the doctor and they had no idea what was wrong with me, that afternoon I started to bleed heavier and wound up at the emergency room 6 hours later they had to do a D/C, my hcg levels were all sky high that is when they told me I had a molar pregnancy afterwards I went home saw my doctor he took some blood and said he would call me tomorrow with the results, 15 mins after we got home he called and said in two days my levels went sky high again and that I needed to see a specialist(cancer) that specialist explained that molar pregnancies are not that rare but the cancer that can sometimes come with it is very rare. After 66 days of bleeding & no energy & no appetite, I had a partial hysterectomy @ lots of chemo but here I am 4 months later writing to you please don't feel alone. (I know thatís how I felt because there is not that much info, and none has ever heard of it) If anyone ever needs to chat send me an email. GOOD LUCK TO ALL AND GOD BE WITH YOU MICHELLE

Name: Katrina
E-mail address: doppykitty@aol.com
Signed on: Saturday, April 27, 2002 at 3:35 PM
Comments: Well not sure if Iím going through this or not; they tell me Iím pregnant and at three months I stared to bleed which was on the 19 and to this day Iím still bleeding. They did an ultrasound and didnít see anything but yet they are not telling me anything. Iím really scared and need someone to talk to. Can you help me please? Email me back on this. Thank you.

Name: BRENDA RIOS
E-mail address: RIOSB355@HOTMAIL.COM
Signed on: Monday, April 29, 2002 at 11:39 AM
Comments: I AM 25 YEARS OLD AND I ALSO HAD A MOLAR PREGNANCY ON 02/18/02, AND IT IS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN TO ANYBODY. I WAS SO HAPPY AND SO WAS MY 3 1/2 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER. I AM SO THANKFUL THAT YOU CREATED THIS WEBSITE. NOW I KNOW THAT AT LEAST SOMEBODY KNOWS WHAT I WENT THRU AND CURRENTLY GOING THRU. YES I GOT A LOT OF DUMB COMMENTS AS WELL LIKE DID IT HURT. PHYSICALLY IT DIDN'T BUT IT REALLY KILLED ME INSIDE. ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH. BRENDA RIOS

Name: Tammy
E-mail address: JFa2236430@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, April 30, 2002 at 3:38 PM
Comments: Hello. I was very glad to find your website my daughter Ashlee, who is 15, just went through a molar pregnancy; she had a d&c 4/25/02. She lost 1000cc of blood during the surgery so what was suppose to be an outpatient surgery, and it turned out to be she had to stay. They said her uterus was 4 times the normal size; she was 14 wks but her uterus was at about 22 weeks. They gave her 1 bag of plasma & 2 bags of blood that night; we were all scared for her; we also heard a heart beat just a week before. Today they did blood work hope its down. God bless all who have gone through this. She named her little girl MERCEDES LYNN. She will always be in our hearts.

Name: Gloria
Signed on: Wednesday, May 1, 2002 at 8:45 PM
Comments: Had a friend that just had one. Need to find out what it is.

Name: Megan
E-mail address: meg6341@earthlink.net
Signed on: Thursday, May 2, 2002 at 12:40 AM
Comments: Thank you so much for this website. I also had a molar pregnancy in Nov 2001. Iím now on my second round of chemo and praying it works. There is so little information on it; itís nice to know other people understand.

Name: Nathalie Reid
Signed on: Thursday, May 2, 2002 at 10:44 AM
Comments: Thank you very much for sharing your story. Mine is exactly the same story, at 12 weeks the doctor couldnít hear a heart beat, at 13 weeks I had the ultrasound that confirmed (in the doctorís words) ďthere is nothing thereĒÖ I was told to go home and wait for a miscarriage to happen and to come back to see the doctor in 2 weeks (the ultrasound was on September 12, 2001 the day after September 11, 2001). Emotions ran high to say the least.
After 2 weeks I saw the doctor who suggested that I wait another 2 weeksÖ. I asked if please I could have a D&C. It is very hard to walk around feeling pregnant, starting to look pregnant and everyone knowing that you are pregnant and trying to explaining and figure out yourself that you are pregnant but that you are not going to deliver a baby! (The D&C was done at 16 weeks).
I felt great and relieved after the D&C. (The 2-3 weeks of waiting for a miscarriage to happen is really not pleasant time).
My husband and I decided to start trying again right away after I got my next period. However, almost 3 weeks after the D&C, I got the call about the molar pregnancyÖwhat an unexpected thing to happenÖ.
It has now been 6 months and my HCG levels have gone down and have remained at 0 for the last 6 months.
Once again thank you and others for sharing your stories. I feel like finally I was able to share my story with people who understand.
Good luck to everyone.

Name: Amanda Brass
E-mail address: amanda_staci@hotmail.com
Signed on: Thursday, May 2, 2002 at 11:18 AM
Comments: Recently I went through surgery because I had a molar pregnancy and would like to meet some other people who have experienced this. They told me at the hospital it was very rare. I hope to hear from you.

Name: Colleen Green
E-mail address: colleen_green1@yahoo.com
Signed on: Thursday, May 2, 2002 at 11:47 AM
Comments: Hi Kendra, I am so sorry about your precious little angel Nina. I am very glad that you were able to recover physically and mentally. God bless you. Colleen

Name: Teresa M. Ballaro
E-mail address: izzydizzyisbizzy@yahoo.com
Signed on: Friday, May 3, 2002 at 11:01 AM
Comments: Please help I'm going thru this now and No Doctor wants to take me I'm about 3 months along with this molar pregnancy. Teresa M. Ballaro

Name: Jessica Kennedy
E-mail address: sugarbaby92100@hotmail.com
Signed on: Monday, May 6, 2002 at 1:04 PM
Comments: I am only 16, and I got pregnant in early January. At 2 months they told me that they couldn't see the baby and they couldn't find a heart beat. I was scared to death. I know that I am not ready for a baby but I'm not all for abortions or adoptions so I was going to raise it. I had made my self grow up quick just for this, and then they told me that I was going to miscarry b/c something went wrong. I got my d&c about 1 month ago and the doctor called me today and told me that two sperm entered the egg and that they sent my tissues away and it came back that I had a molar pregnancy and that if not watched then it could develop into cancer. I am only 16!!! I now have to get blood work done every month for the next year and I can't get pregnant again. Like I would, I learned my lesson the first time. I am just scared right now. I read your story and I am glad that someone could relate to my problem.

Name: Carolynne Mathis
E-mail address: cbmathis1@aol.com
Signed on: Tuesday, May 7, 2002 at 8:28 AM
Comments: Thanks for writing this to share with others. Our daughter called last night to say she has a molar pregnancy - her first baby.

Name: Damola Akeredolu
E-mail address: dakeredolu@yahoo.com
Signed on: Wednesday, May 8, 2002 at 6:18 AM
Comments: I am sorry to read about your loss. I sympathize with you. But don't lose hope have faith and your creator will do wonders again.
I also lost a child in October 30th 2000 at 24 weeks, though not to molar pregnancy but to incompetent cervix. It's very hard to lose a child at any age, be it day one or 40 weeks.
I just wanted to share this with someone going through the same thing I went through which is loss of a child.
I pray all will be well with you and your family.