For Brian



For Brian


Brian,
I have never in my life felt so happy. Well, sure the times that I lost a tooth and found that dollar bill under my pillow the next morning or Christmas Day when I got exactly what I wanted made me happy. But I mean a different kind of happiness. A fulfilling happiness. Like a part of me that I never had before is suddenly mine. And that part of me is you. Who wouldve thought that the skater boy and the sweet girl would ever get together and create such a magical, close bond? A friendship that led to more. I, myself, would not have even thought of it but for some reason, I did. We got together when I was very vulnerable. When I was at a low point in my life. My previous relationship had just failed and I thought I was in love with this guy who ripped my heart out. You were my friend. You were my shoulder to lean on, and you helped me. When you admitted your feelings for me, I was shocked and happy. I wanted to return those feelings, but I was too hurt to want to open up to anyone again. Slowly, but surely I let myself fall for you. No longer was I afraid that anyone would hurt me. You built a protective barrier around me and let me know it was okay to love again. And when I opened my heart and fell in love with you, I realized something. I was not in love again. I was just in love. Period. For the first time. In my previous reltionship, I thought I was in love, but I was blinded by lust. Lust that led to heartbreak. My stubborness and unwillingness to stand up for myself caused it to crash. But with you its like a whole new world. I feel so safe and happy with you. Like I could do anything. There are many things in my life that dont make sense, but one thing does, and thats you. You treat me so good. Like an angel, a goddess, a queen. I dont know what I ever did to deserve you, but I thank god everyday. I know you cant see how much you mean to me. I dont know how to express it to you, I just hope you feel it inside. I wish I could make some grand gesture to show my love for you, and also to reward you for your kindness to me. But when it comes down to it, theres only three little words that can make a big difference. Three words to turn any frown into a smile. Mine, least ways. And the three magic words...I think you know what they are. But just in case you dont, Ill give you a small hint:


I LOVE YOU!!!!!!


Now do you feel all warm and gooey inside? Hope so. :)