Ok, lets see, what should I call this article? It’s an article about the thought process, so maybe something like ‘in my head’ no, I already have a song with that name. It’s an inner monologue, so how ‘bout inner monologue? No, the article needs to be longer, can’t use that one. Heh, this is fun. K, well, my thoughts actually go faster but my fingers are REALLY trying! They deserve recognition. Maybe I can force my brain to slow down or wait up or something. But do I realyy want to limit myself? My thoughts? My brain? Faster! Hands, go faster! Hgotta race, move quick, hurry, no not you brain just the hands. I don’t sually think in sentances, or in words really, this is weird. I’m getting side tracked! OK, title. Godod that was filler. Now I’ve got an article! Maybe “what’s the title?” yeah, something like that, with title in it. I’m going through with my promise! Where was that,chapter 26? Yeah somewhere around there. OK, what was it? Working title. No, that isn’t good. The Title. The Only Title. What fits? The one that fits?
Why do I even need a good title? As long s my meaning is clear, don’t matter about the words. But the words do matter. Is it more than aesthetics? Wow, that’s a tough one to spell… Is poetry just peotry because it’s aesthetically pleasing? Or is the meaning vital? Does art need to mean something? No, not necessarily. The primary function of art is to be pleasing to the senses. Secondary function is to convey a message that cannot be easily communicated through words. That goes for visual, musical, dramatic, etc. etc. etc. But this isn’t poetry, I don’t need aesthetics here. Or do I? Well, I’m not giving it to anyone. This is straight from the head guys, straight from the fucked up noggin. No editing, no censoring, maybe that makes it better but maybe not. Is it interesting? I wonder if people will like it.
No, doesn’t matter. This is what I’m doing for me, not others/ This site was made for ME to write to me, NOT TO IMPRESS PEOPLE. By NOT Trying to impress, does that impress people? Paradox… those are fun. Really confusing though. I want to impress people, I admit it. But I do know things. Is impressing people bad?
It’s useful! I want to impress people so they admire me. If they admire me then they’ll ask me questions. If they ask, I get to answer and then I get to give to people. So… that means trying to imress people is a good thing~ Letting go is also a good thing. Being able to admit these things, opening my mind and heart, allowing the thoughts to flow freee with the hands that are typing them is such a realease, damn spelling mistakes… just ekep at it, keep trying, you’ll get better.
Tangent! I’m really off the track now, hwow. OK, working title. That’s what I like best so far. It’s ironic, espeially because of all the tangents I go through. Is it good to reveal these thoughts? These are private… these are my insecurities. Telling about my insecurities is, well that’s an insecurity of mine. I want to be private. People won’t like me 0 or will they? – If I tell them my secrets, my vulnerability. Show I’m weak, retarded, whatever. Astay strong? Or is it strength to show weakness?
Another paradox. Wow, my mind is full of them. Aybe I should upurge them out? I gotta do something, this isn’t good… I didn’t realize how noegative my mind was. And yet I act happy. Is it an act?
Is this mind even me? Really me? No, I’m not really controlling this, it just seems to happen. My mind works overtime, without me or my goading. Momentary lull, thinking about my song. That should be in brackets but I didn’t because oh wow, I’m tired… that was an obvious shit I know. Um… yeah, just about done. Going to bed and sleep now. Working title. Got it.
