8/19/03- 11:36 PM:Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
A real gangsta-ass nigga plays his cards right
A real gangsta-ass nigga never runs his fuckin mouth
Cuz real gangsta-ass niggas don't start fights
And niggas always gotta high cap
Showin' all his boys how he shot em
But real gangsta-ass niggas don't flex nuts
Cuz real gangsta-ass niggas know they got em
And everythings cool in the mind of a gangsta
Cuz gangsta-ass niggas think deep
Up three-sixty-five a year 24/7
Cuz real gangsta ass niggas don't sleep
And all I gotta say to you
Wannabe, gonnabe, cocksuckin', pussy-eatin' prankstas
Cuz when the fry dies down what the fuck you gonna do
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Feedin' the poor and hepin out wit they bills
Although I was born in Jamaica
Now I'm in the US makin' deals
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
I mean one that you don't really know
Ridin' around town in a drop-top Benz
Hittin' switches in my black six-fo'
Now gangsta-ass niggas come in all shapes and colors
Some got killed in the past
But this gangtsa here is a smart one
Started living for the lord and I'll last
Now all I gotta say to you
Wannabe, gonnabe, pussy-eatin' cocksuckin' prankstas
When the shit jumps off what the fuck you gonna do
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
A real gangta-ass nigga knows the play
Real gangsta-ass niggas get the flyest of the bitches
Ask that gangsta-ass nigga Little Jake
Now bitches look at gangsta-ass niggas like a stop sign
And play the role of Little Miss Sweet
But catch the bitch all alone get the digit take her out
and then dump-hittin' the ass with the meat
Cuz gangsta-ass niggas be the gang playas
And everythings quiet in the clique
A gangsta-ass nigga pulls the trigger
And his partners in the posse ain't tellin' off shit
Real gangsta-ass niggas don't talk much
All ya hear is the black from the gun blast
And real gangsta-ass niggas don't run for shit
Cuz real gangsta-ass niggas can't run fast
Now when you in the free world talkin' shit do the shit
Hit the pen and let the mothafuckas shank ya
But niggas like myself kick back and peep game
Cuz damn it feels good to be a gangsta
And now, a word from the President!
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Gettin voted into the White House
Everything lookin good to the people of the world
But the Mafia family is my boss
So every now and then I owe a favor gettin' down
like lettin' a big drug shipment through
And send 'em to the poor community
So we can bust you know who
So voters of the world keep supportin' me
And I promise to take you very far
Other leaders better not upset me
Or I'll send a million troops to die at war
To all you Republicans, that helped me win
I sincerely like to thank you
Cuz now I got the world swingin' from my nuts
And damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Current Mood: BLACK!
8/16/03- 1:46 AM:Walk up to tracy, and stare at her. Doesn't she look like a big fat pissed off constipated lion? yeah. also, i was gonna go sailing with andi and evan and mansbatch, and nina today, but noooooo my dad wouldnt let me call in sick to work. ugh, o well, theres always next time
Current Mood: itchy (mosquitoes suck penis)
8/16/03- 1:46 AM:My uncle is in the intensive care unit, he's not doing too well
Current Mood: scared
8/14/03- 12:10 AM:Just got home. Today, or, last night rather was fuun. Saw rachel (good) played mommy (bad) put about 120 miles on the car" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||cars|AA1VDw">car" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||cars|AA1VDw">car (worse) and put tire tracks on the 'lawn' at KFC (best) I explain, its late and i wanna go get some dinner, and KFC is closed. But i did not kno this, i went to the drive thru, the guy took my order, and when i got to the window, hes like "we're closed" so i got pissed and drove on their lawn. Then we (ian and i) went to sleven, got food. I got some hot dogs, and i put them on the roof so i coudl open the door, and i started driving away, and i hear this guy yell "YOUR HOT DOGS ON THE ROOF" so i stop, get out, and sure enough, the two hot dugs were glued to the roof. They were... good. but today has been pretty good, got to see a friend i've been meaning to see for a while, she got me a shot glass :-D (thats how you get on my good side) and yeah. Tomorrow night, or, tonight rather, i hang with a buncha ppl. good times.
Current Mood: More than a feeling...
8/11/03- 10:08 PM:"stacy's mom" by Fountain of Wayne, dL it.
Current Mood: I know it may be wrong, but i'm in love with stacy's mom
8/11/03- 10:08 PM:I'm a witness in a hit and run accident, and it was good. i said key tov
Current Mood: Creamy
8/11/03- 9:01 PM:"fucked her?" "fucked her." "word."
Current Mood: tired
8/9/03- 9:29 PM:I went to a really fancy Chinese food place for dinner with my family tonight, and on the bottom floor of the restaurant, there was a Chinese wedding, so my mom went up to the bride and said "mazel tov"
Current Mood: tired
8/8/03- 1:45 AM:just got home from sneeking out with mark. we went and chilled at/near sleven. good times
Current Mood: even more chill
8/7/03- 11:15 PM:Today i hung out with andi wags, mansbatch, stacey black, prywes, and nina gross, sooo fun. AND i set a record for the most add-ons at smoothie king. 3 energy boosters, and 2 caffeine boosters
Current Mood: chill
8/6/03- 11:14 PM:As of today, I'm licensed, so stay the FUCK off the road :-)
Current Mood: The shaggin' waggin' is out again...
8/2/03- 6:33 PM:"ah, when she comes walking over..." will not fall for her, will not fall for her, will not fall for her...
Current Mood: "hows the war?" "ah, the war's... mellow"
7/30/03- 10:32 PM: rrrrraaaaacccccccccchhhhhhhhheeellllllllllll come back from camp :-(
Current Mood: deprived
7/29/03- 9:49 PM: !!!dammit!!! turns out only matt and my dad are going to florida, so that means i wont be home alone, HOWEVER, i will have a car to myself. What may happen, tho, is because we're getting the basement finished the week before, it may still smell. so my mom and brothers may have to sleep elsewhere, so again, there is a chance to be home alone. But jus realizing it, it doesnt matter cause i have a car, so im not gonna be alone to enjoy it anyways.
Current Mood: Good things are coming...
7/28/03- 9:51 PM: So much good, so little time. First, i got another raise at work, so now i think im getting like $7.50 /hr, and I also got a call from the manager of best buy --i got the job" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||job|AA1VDw">job" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||job|AA1VDw">job there. so im gonna have a meeting with her later. um... i finally said what ive only been waiting forever for, the thing with annas friend seems to be going in my favor, as well as this other... situation. ~yum, i would've never believed i'd be in this position, but it feels better than... something that feels real good? anyways, im gonna be home alone with money and a car, call for reservations.
Current Mood: Crimson and clover...
7/22/03- 8:44 PM: Haha, i still find that conversation that i refered to the other day entertaining. Anyways, today was the weirdest day at work. First, my manager (hes early 60's, or late 50's, strong British accent, yert he is indian, went up to me when i was in the back room and said "look andy, here's a tip for college. If you want to get some pussy, don't be serious all the time." I told him that it was work, and i wasn't gonna try to get pussy, he said "bull, i get pussy 7-8 a year just from chicken out." Then i was in the front, and on Chicken Out Radio, they were playing "uptown girl" by Billy Joel, then i went to the kitchen, where all the chefs dont speak a word of english (all spanish) and on their boombox they were blasting an Eminem CD. went from "uptown girl, she's been living in a white pretty world, i bet she never met a back street guy..." to something along the lines of "bitch, i'm gonna kill you!" haha, well, i found that entertaining. later
Current Mood: "I bet her mother never told her why..."
7/20/03- 10:50 PM: Feel free to look at an interesting Berlin/Klatzkin conversation, its... interesting. Just go to funny shit my friends say peace
Current Mood: We like to party, we like, we like to party
7/15/03- 10:01 PM: Not much longer my friends, not much longer
Current Mood: 1 down, a whole line to go
7/10/03- 11:29 PM: Turns out we're going to florida for vacation YET AGAIN this year. around the end of the summer. maybe moosh would be there, that could be fun. aaaaaaand, we're taking 3 cars cause pops said i can drive when im there too. (license :-D)
Current Mood: goerswrhjdsrfu
7/10/03- 11:29 PM: There's a mike hoch in my house!
Current Mood: He's the coolest everer
7/10/03- 6:00 PM: I'm her best friend, she said so herself! :-D
Current Mood: That totally made my day
7/10/03- 6:00 PM: *kiss* "what?" HAHAHAHAHAHahhahahahaHAHAHA hahahahahhaha hahahahha HAHAHAHAHHA hahahaha Heheheh hohoho hahahaa HAHAHAHAHAH hahahahha HAhHAHaHaHahahahaHAAHAHAhahha haha, ok i'm done
Current Mood: Wow, :-D
7/8/03- 1:26 AM: Wow, its 126 AM, and i should be asleep cause i have to wake up for summer school in like 5 hours. anyways, there is sumone that is reading this like almost everyday... may i ask who that is? cause i decided that you're a cool kid, and we're gonna elope, unless its richman, which in that case it will just be meaningless sex
Current Mood: Gangs of New York was good; and I just realized that most of the stuff i say for a current mood isn't really a mood at all
7/6/03- 4:43 PM: Last night was soooooo much fun. haha... yup. AND i foudn out only the coolest/hottest thing aboot.... -censor- that, wow. :-D
Current Mood: Chicken out is filled with stupid people
7/4/03- 9:49 PM: My dad and i were driving down shady grove, and we saw these two guys kicking the stuffing out of this third guy that was on the ground. so he called the poh-poh.
Current Mood: Casual sex and chinese food
7/3/03- 9:10 PM: I totally just caught myself playing air guitar to the Requiem for a Dream soundtrack
Current Mood: Amy, i hope your dad will be ok
6/29/03- 10:21 PM: Alrighty... I just got home from volunteering at this "grief camp" my dad's company (hospice of sumthing or another)Its for kids and what not that recently lost a loved one. And i tell you, that was easily the best thing i ever spent my weekend doing. was it fun? not really, but i learned a lot. And... well, i'm an odd person. like, i have almost no problem seeing a dead body from an accident right infront of me, the part that gets me is how the family deals afterwords. I can't name names, cause that kills the whole privacy thing. but there are two things that are kinda getting me. first, at the camp, the people who lost sumone have a little flag with that persons name on it. and there is this one guy, 16 years old, cool kid, almost exact same interests as me. and he was all tough and stuff, and never showed that he was upset. and at the end he kinda broke down. he started crying and just skipped stones accross the lake, then he just took his flag with his brother's name on it, tied it to a rock, and threw it out into thewater as far as he could. i dunno why that got to me... but it did. and the second was with this little boy, about 7-8 years old. he never wanted to participate in the group 'healing circles' or any of that stuff. but he kinda wandered off into the field by himself. he picked up two flowers" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||flowers|AA1VDw">flowers" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||flowers|AA1VDw">flowers, dug a whole, and 'planted' them there. then, he went under one of the cabins, and sumhow found two sea shells, went over to the flowers, dug a whole, the buried them. then, he found a little flat rock, and layed it over the hole. when asked why he did this he said, "one is for mommy, and the other is for daddy"
Current Mood: imma fuckin' wreck.
6/20/03- 7:49 PM: I'm an ego-booster! :-D
Current Mood: I think that "detestful" and "despite" are more fitting than "resentful" and "hatred"
6/20/03- 12:31 PM: So last night i was thinking. Given the two choices between the two young ladies that i had, i made the wrong one. It was given the choice between the one that was cuter, had a mad crush on me, but lived in potomac, or the one that just had a nice chest, lived down the street, and only intention was to use me. Haha, way to pick andy!
Current Mood: Clean
6/13/03- 11:54 PM: Tonight was soooooooooooo much fun! I went to the movies" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||movies|AA1VDw">movies" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||movies|AA1VDw">movies with Claire, Fiona, Zuye, Sean, Christina, and Lisa Gitelman. It was... educational. I learned that Mini's are uber cool, Lisa is incredibly hot but..., i like pasta, and tala has a hairy chest *shivers, then cuts off hands* Like, she and lisa rival in hotness, but the hair killed her. ugh. what a dissapointment. I was outta that like... something that leaves something real fast. w/e peace
Current Mood: tired
6/12/03- 11:28 PM: I finally said good bye to elise today. Am i gonna miss her? eh, not so much. But its not right for me to be a dick to her. Whatever, i hope she isn't reading this, but if for some reason she is, i wish you the best in florida, and you made the right choice...
Current Mood: stressed
6/9/03- 10:37 PM: I know we've only known each other four weeks and three days, but to me it seems like nine weeks and five days. The first day seemed like a week and the second day seemed like five days and the third day seemed like a week again and the fourth day seemed like eight days and the fifth day you went to see your mother and that seemed just like a day and then you came back and later on the sixth day, in then evening, when we saw each other, that started seeming like two days, so in the evening it seemed like two days spilling over into the next day and that started seeming like four days, so at the end of the sixth day on into the seventh day, it seemed like a total of five days. And the sixth day seemed like a week and a half.
Current Mood: abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
6/8/03- 11:24 AM: Friday went... exactly as planned ;-) That's right, the "O" face. OoOoOoOoOoOoOohh. hehe, oh, and the toga party, the very next day? EVEN BETTER. it was so much fucking fun, there is not even a word to describe it, so im gonna have to make one up. The toga party was... scrumtrolescent. Yes, the toga party was simply scrumtrolescent. Want details? hehe, no! however, it was the "o" face X 234958731957293769345235. Word
Current Mood: Divine
6/5/03- 2:40 PM: Wow, I just totally kirked out yesterday... Eh, probably just forgot to take my midol. Hope she doesn't have the pw to read this thing...
Current Mood: Friday is gonna kick ass, and the only thing better? Saturday
6/4/03- 9:34 PM: First let me start off by saying: It is nearly impossible to piss me off. Now that I have that out of the way... Get out of my fucking life already. You already left... kinda, now just add 2,000 miles to it. I haven't the slightest problem never seeing you again.
Current Mood: resentful
6/4/03- 6:23 PM: Dude, I'm grounded like some sauce. I'll have to explain later.
Current Mood: for some reason, very, very good
6/4/03- 2:59 PM: Hm, girls... Its odd, you lose one, two pop up, lose one of them, two take her place. And it kinda keeps going. I can actually afford to be picky now, and believe you me, that feels good. Ya know what else feels good? What may/may not happen on friday. hehe, w/e. Anyways, tonight im going to prywes bday party, then i come back home, and its a party for my dad. (spence is turnin 51)So, life is good. btw, toga party.... its gonna kick more ass than The Rock fighting Ghandi.
Current Mood: "it hurts so good"
6/2/03- 3:52 PM: So, i saw tracy's away message today. god i hate her...
Current Mood: hehe... i have ways of dealing
6/1/03- 2:29 PM: HAHAHAHAHAhahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAhahahaHAHAHAHAHAhahahahAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahhahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHahahahhahhahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhahahahahAHAHahAHHAHaHaHaAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahahahahahahahhahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahahahahhahahahahahhahahhahahAHAHAHAHaHaHaHAHAHAHHAHAHAhahhahahahahahah- I laught at your misfortune
Current Mood: Tengo
5/31/03- 11:36 PM: Its pretty cool, the little date box on my watch is switching from 31 to 1, and... yeah. lol. Anyways, toga party on the 7th, so i have a mission...
Current Mood:
"can i kiss you?"
"sure"
"word"
5/27/03- 2:44 PM: Hm, I'm debating changing this section to "window a la andy" i dunno tho. Anyways, i shall now write a reflection on the past few weeks. Recently i realized how much my guy friends were really there for me, how going to them makes everything better. School... fuck it, family, eh. I dunno. There are certain people that i havn't been treating with the same respect that they deserve. I'm not mad... just, i dunno. My feelings about the situation change from hour to hour. It was easily one of the most painful things to deal with, and i guess i seem to have trouble dealing with that. I realized that my stance on certain things needs to change. I found that i hold myself to an incredibly high standard, and that for some reason or another, i expect other people to do the same... wrong there. People are people, and what they do doesnt matter, that they say about me is none of my buisness. I can't wait till fourth of july weekend, its gonna kick so much ass. girl stuff... i dunno, to be honest i have no idea whats going on with that, but i think that should be the least of my problems. W/e, enough rambling. peace
Current Mood: feeling groovy...
5/22/03- 8:14 PM: Loss and I are hitting the Outer Banks tomorrow morning. Lets see if things change down there...
Current Mood: yellow
5/22/03- 6:01 PM: Ever kept telling yourself something so much that you actually started believe it?
Current Mood: What have i done?
5/18/03- 5:14 PM: I think Mrs. Hoffberg summed up my time at chapter convention better than anyone else. "It rained all weekend, it was 30 degrees in the mountains, the food was terrible, the canoe trip got cancelled, everyone came home sick... yet you still mangaed to have one of the best times of your life. SiAt must be doing sumthing right." hehe, she's a nice lady and she's buying some $100 of chicken out giftcards as a fundraiser for us. Anyways, lemme tell you what happend. Nono, too much, lemme sum up. Shared a tent with jared and prywes and little hoff and... that may've been it. We went to the grottos and kenigsberg and i sung "dueling banjos" from deliverance almost the whole time. our tour guide said that we must've "been watching too mush Sci-Fi" hehe. Um... I won elections, im now the mazkir. Good and welfare? MUCH NEEDED, and i talked my ass off. There were these girl scouts at the campground and they came to us a couple of times. Richman was determined to get one, lol. But omg, after seeing those girls, i swear i didn't kno that people could look that hideous. I mean, i would never wish that kind of uglieness upon anyone. Ok, w/e, you've heard enough about chapter convention, if you want more info, just ask... Lets see... elise... elise, elise, elise. Its carzy, everywhere i go i find sumthing that reminds me of her. looking at the stars... i dug up the old text messages she sent me on my cell... the nights i'd spend thinking of her... i dunno, I'm adjusting. Us breaking up didn't really affect her, so i'm not gonna let it get me... anymore than it already has. W/e, i have sooooo much more to say, but i'll do that at a later point cause... i dunno. peace.
Current Mood: Sung to the tune from Deliverance: "Dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum... Dem dem dem dem dem dem dem. Dum dum dum dum dum dum dum... Dem dem dem dem dem dem dem... Dum dem dem dum dum dem dem..."
5/15/03- 10:29 PM: Today was fucked up like whoa. AAAND, the first time my "happy meter" hit the negatives since it's creation. Do me a favor, dL "smile" by flickerstick; it saved my life.... kinda. And also dL "Chloroform The One You Love" Its horrible in the respect of what they're singing about, but its a good song nonetheless. I need a good and wellfare, thank god for chapter convention.
Current Mood: ugh
5/14/03- 3:32 PM: Tomorrow's the 15th :-/
"And for one desperate moment there
He clipped back in her memory
God its so painful
when something that's so close
is still so far out of reach..."
Current Mood: Catorce
5/13/03- 10:15 PM: I think things are sorted out pretty well now.
Current Mood: Shit son, i be a star
5/11/03- 8:57 PM: Just to let everyone know, when sumone says "I still want to be friends" it means nothing. Its simply one of those things you add on at the end of sumthing. Because as far as i can tell, the person who initiates the idea of remaining friends puts no effort into it. peace.
Current Mood: whatever
5/11/03- 3:12 PM: For mothers day my mom and i went off-roading in a mini van, lol. And last night was sooo much fun! lol... Anyways, life is very, very good. Chapter convention is comin up, i have an awesome fundraiser going, and assuming that chicken out lets me take memorial day weekend off, i'm going to the beach. haha, yus. Oh and girl stuff? Its kinda like you lose one, only to have a million others pop up. Good times my friend, good times.
Current Mood: chill
5/9/03- 11:02 PM: I miss what we had... w/e, i just want it to be how it was before all this started. Your choice...
Current Mood: Dazed
5/6/03- 2:50 PM: It was fun while it lasted... I guess.
Current Mood: It won't hit me till later
5/5/03- 9:07 PM: Ever seen the movie "Cheats"? Well, you should.
Current Mood: Applebee writes crazy small
5/3/03- 9:24 PM: I want to say I love her... but I'm scared. Anyways, its steven's birthday tomorrow, so i tihnk i may have to do sumthing nice for him. i dunno. Anyways, i work my weekends away, so i cant wait till summer, and finalyl get some free time. I also wish i went to council convention, not only would it be fun to see elise for a few days, but the aza guys are the bestest and i wouldn't trade them for anything. well, maybe... um, no, nothing. So yeah, thats my life in a nutshell. Entertain me
Current Mood: Mellow
5/1/03- 4:13 PM: Wow, I go em lined up already.
Current Mood: hemoglobin (I'm aware that's not a mood... dick
4/17/03- 11:35 AM: Yeah, i'm going to go ahead and take back what i said befor about chicken out. Yesterday was my second day, i just needed a chance to... adjust? haha, anyways, i failed to mention before that as of today, elise and i have been going out for 2 months and 2 days. :-D peace
Current Mood: alert
4/15/03- 9:08 PM: Just got back from my first day of work at Chicken Out. Did I like it? Not really, but it pays the bills.
Current Mood: tired
4/8/03- 9:25 PM: BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!
Current Mood: old
3/30/03- 11:51 AM: Elise :-D
Current Mood: get down get down, get down get down
3/20/03- 3:15 PM: Eh, i'm ok. Is it saturday yet?
Current Mood: tentative
3/16/03- 11:42 PM: I think its safe to say that i havn't felt worse than i do now. :'-(
Current Mood: oober depressed
3/14/03- 8:54 PM: Mmm, best girlfriend EV-ER. *giggles semi-innocently* Well, tomorrow is our monthaversary, and I have a little somthing planned, not much, but enough. So Im reaallyy looking forward to that. ooh! and she has the trapt cd, hehe. i shall copy. so this girl is oober-attractive, sweet, fun, willing, AND likes good music. What more could i want? ...for her to be with me now
Current Mood: Ontop of the world
3/2/03- 11:20 PM: she said she was gonna call back after dinner... that was about 4 hours ago :-/
Current Mood: restless
3/2/03- 7:07 PM: Hm, today/last night was muy good. Last night was Nina's sweet 16. I got her 4 books, one for every stage of her life. The first was "The Potty Book for Girls" then "Worst case Scenario: Sex and dating" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||dating|AA1VDw">dating" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||dating|AA1VDw">Dating" after that was "The Little Book of Sex: Everything He wants You To Know" and finally was "Last rights: So You're Gonna Die." Ah, it was fun. After the party I went to a Good and Welfare that went from like 11 pm to 9 am. Yeah, funny and theraputic. Ohhh, but elise was gone allll weekend :-( but thas ok, i shall see her tomorrow. Ok, i'm done. peace
Current Mood: contented
2/27/03- 8:45 PM:Mmmmm...
Current Mood: day dreamy-ish
2/21/03- 11:50 PM: might as well make the best of it while we can, right?
Current Mood: calm
2/20/03- 10:53 PM: today mattie and i went to a movie, then to montgomery mall. At the mall, we went around to all of the major stores and asked if we could have one of their bags. when they asked why its was because "we see everyone else walking around the mall with a bag. and we want to also, but we can't afford the stuff to put in them" most of the people agreed, and we went on our way; great fun really. Then there was the fellow wearing a blue pin-striped suite. he was a very important looking man. So, i went up and told him so. "excuse me, sir. I just wanted to say that you look very important." he replied "i'm not, but thank you." so i wished him a good day, and i was on my way. So yes, friends are good, elise is good, family is good, no school is good, so overall, im going to say im good.
Current Mood: I beleive i'm... good
2/18/03- 11:47 PM: I don't need anything more. :-D
Current Mood: exuberent... if thats a word
2/15/03- 8:04 PM: Today was a good, good day.
Current Mood: daydreamy-ish
2/11/03- 11:18 PM:
As you can see from my entry type thing on 10/19/02 i was against dating my friends. Well, i was thinking about this, and i guess i kinda changed my idea. Orinally, i may meet a girl at a party, and then stuff may happen from there. But here's my view on it now. I relationship shouldn't just be on a physical attraction. there has to be atleast some emotional stuff in there. I'm not saying it has to be the whole "i love you" and act like we're gonjna get married. It shoudl be layed back and relaxed, and just fun. Sorry bout that, i was ADDing off my topic. But yes, if you meet a girl at a party or sumthing and stuff goes from there, the odds are its based on a purely physical attraction because you never got to know the person first. Its the other way around with friends, cause you like the person to begin with, and you just start liking them a little more. Because you're already friends you tend to look past if they have a nice body, and a pretty face or w/e, but you see them for who they are. And beleive you me, good looks are always a plus. But yes, thats what i think. Why i think this? i dunno, doesn't really apply to me in anyway, cause as far as i know, i don't have a friend to go out with. bagh, i have no life, and i pulled somthing in my chest working out. Damn my... getting-hurt-alot-ness. Peace, i'm out. Oh, real quick, i change my andy-girl policy. I'm not gonna put myself out there or try to change anything. Whatever happens does, and i'll learn that way.
Current Mood: restless
2/11/03- 6:50 PM: Guess who gets their braces off tomorrow! I'll give you a hint, his name ends with 'ndrew' But yes, today was unproductive and a waste of my time. I didn't learn anything, didn't get any questions answered, and didn't get anywhere. I can't wait till the summer, or spring break or w/e. I'm gonna find away for just strinerman and i to hit ocean city for a weekend, and leave everything behind us. No troubles, no worries, just fun. But that largely relies on my parents who are anti-andy-having-fun. W/e, tomorrow should be cool. Ian and his gf ashley are taking Moosh (her my aged sisted 'michelle') out to dinner. She seems like a good person. oh look, part of a song i like:
"I'm staring at your picture
and dreaming that I could hold your hand.
we'd walk down to the ocean
and I would write your name in the sand..."
Current Mood: You know what? It really don't matter what happens in the end, just have fun while you can
2/10/03- 9:50 PM: ugh, half day stupid waste of time on old ppl day at school tommorrow... I sooooo don't wanna go, but my parents were all, "well if you didn't skip 4th period the other day, we sould let you stay home..." oh well. It may have been worth it... w/e, later
Current Mood: Lucy in the sky with diamonds...
2/10/03- 3:41 PM: eh, i guess things aren't as bad as i thought they would be... Either way, i still have to do sumthing i really don't wanna.
Current Mood: upset
2/9/03- 5:33 PM: dammit andy, two stupid things in one day. when are you gonna learn?
Current Mood: jgtfbnfxh-ish
2/8/03- 11:16 PM: Went to Elise's little brothers bar mitzvah this morning... good times. That may have been the first time that I didn't look like i was dying when i was dancing... haha, maybe i did, i dunno. Then after that, i went out with Einstein and SiAt to play some lazer tag, and guess who i ran into? Elise and her step sis, how bout that. So i was EXTREMELY straight forward with the young lady (elise's step sis) and this guy named michael that i know, in trying to get them together. she ended up not going for it, o well. So here's what i learned today:
-Elise's little brother is a pretty cool guy.
-Elise's step sister is cute... but im thinking thats all she had going for her
-Adam thinks Arielle has some DSL's...
-Lauren is nice too
How did i learn all this? i dunno, i guess there was a little pocket-jen guiding me through this difficult learning process. w/e, life is actually going pretty well, i should see arielle soon, i get my braces off sooner, i have detention soonerer, and a basketball game even soonererer than that. Ugh, i hate waiting. But somtimes you gotta realize whats better if you have two choices. And it usually doesn't end in "agina"
Current Mood: dunno
2/6/03- 9:56 PM: I learned in health class that if you're awake for 48 hours, its the equivlant of being drunk... mark and i know what we're doing over break
Current Mood: Layed back
2/6/03- 2:43 PM: ugh, i got after school detention monday... who's with me? *awaiting a show of hands*
Current Mood: Moogly
1/31/03- 11:16 PM: eggs + toilet paper + worms + catfood + shaving cream + ceran wrap + spellman's car = a whole lotta fun
Current Mood: extravagant
1/29/03- 11:42 PM: Bagh. "carbs are the enemy" yet, i had mac and cheese today... it was good :-( Oh well, back to my 'bone-getting' diet" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||diet|AA1VDw">diet" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||diet|AA1VDw">diet. Haha, like an entire one person out there has evven the slightest idea about what i'm talking... about. Anyways, as some of you children may know, you cannot IM me. Why? you ask. Well, stupid fight with little brother and my old people are being dicks about it. But thats ok, cause i feel bad for them, they're all old and balding and whatnot. So, if you wanna talk, you have my number, use it. I may be on AIM i dunno. Anyways, now for my rambling. Arrriiieeellleee i get my braces off in... 2 weeks :-D hehe. Um.... Megahn! or megan... or... i dunno how to spell your name, but the girl from my chem class last semester, i love you, you have to be the coolest junior everer. LoL, i find it funny that i'm talking to you even tho you dunno 'bout my webpage. Hmm, lindsay, ya kno how i told you about how i walked into the guys bathroom, caught these kids smoking, then went back to class and some girl tried to bum a jack off me? (don't smoke, its bad) yeah, well when i got home, i smelled like smoke, and my mom was all "andrew, who were you really hanging out with after school" hehe. Um... It was back to school night today and i carried on my tradition since... 3rd grade of not telling my parents about it. Oh! I got the Simon Atlas chapter pet, a hermit crab named 'Atlas' and i took him out of his box and put him in a 10 gallon tank thingy with a little waterfall and what not that i used to have for my lizards. he looks happy there, or atleast as happy as a hermit crab can be, thats ok, he's a good kid. I just finished talking to Ian, and there's this coffe house thing at WJ this friday, and he wants me to go with him, his gf, and maybe her little sister Moosh. Moosh, who is also referred to as 'michelle' is pretty cool; we like her. Why? well, i dunno, i've talked to her, and she seems nice. plus sometimes she uses big words. I like people that use big words. Elise uses big words, Lindsay uses big words, I try to use big words, but end up pronouncing them wrong and/or using them incorrectly, oh well. ...what else do i have to ramble on about? oh, mattie and my dad are going out of town to visit colleges this weekend. i can't even begin to describe how happy i am about that. Them being gone is like a vacation for me, because at the moment my dad and i aren't so kosher, and matt... well to be honest, i've never really liked matt, i just kinda put up with him. To add to his mile long list of dick-like stuff he's done, he took a bath at 6 am. I usually get in the shower at 6, out 10 minutes later, then he goes in, that way everyone has time, and we're not late. Yet, he took his bath till 6:20, fucking ass. (ya stephen, he kinda reminds me of that hick person that stays at your house and eats your food. Men don't take baths, yet these two ppl do, so i think im gonna learn sumthing new about him sooner or later.) then, when i got home from my SiAt meeting, him and my dad locked me out of the house four like 10 minutes while mr. hofburg waited, and they were all "you should've brought your key" so i explained that i should be let in, then given a speach, it wasn't fair to keep the hofburgs from what they had to do just so i would learn a lesson. So no mr. hofburg has lost alot of respect for my dad (even tho they've never met) and to be honest, i dun blame him, i do too. He sat on his ass, 5 ft from the door, yet couldn't open it. I want a parakeet. Oh, btw, that science Idependant Research Project thing that i bullshitted, yet got an A+ on, is not entered in the science fair along with 19 other projects to represent wootton. Aslong as they don't check my sources, it looks like a damn fine project. (oh, you also gotta ignore the big thing of coffee i spilled on it) hehe. I like music, and i've been meaning to put on my away message for somtime, yet never got around to writing "Well you know what? Fuck Johnny Quest" Ofcourse this means nothing to you unless you've heard the song "johnny quest thinks we're sellouts" ahh. crazy music. JaYing (i dunno if i spelled her name right) is a bitch, we dun like her, so lets boycott her existence. Hm, that didn't make much sence *shrugs* oh well. ALRIGHT, I think I finally rambled enough about nothing for the night, c'ya all tomorrow. er- today... w/e (jus outta curiosity, does anyone ever really read this stuff?)
Current Mood: pleasent
1/27/03- 2:30 AM: I just finished putting together some exercise bike my mom got. ugh, anyways to explain the entry about my dad being a dick and not, i tell you. Um, to make it short and sweet, it was 2 am i wanted to go out and meet with one of my friends who kinda really needed sumone to talk to, but he said no. SO, he grounded me and it started a whole downhill spiral in our "andy-spencer relationship" so, me being a 'word warrior' i gave him one of my purdy little on-the-spot speeches. it went somthing along the lines of: "Ok, first of all, its in our neighborhood, its not like anything is going to happen. Even if you still have doubts, I'll bring Ians bearclaw (its a fighting knife) and ontop of that, I'll take the dog with me." "no, you heard my answer, you're staying here, and if you leave, you're grounded, you can't drive, and you'd be hating life" "well dad, apparently you can't appreciate this kinda of friendship. I'm assuming that you've never had a friend that means this much to you. You wanna take away my learners permit, ground me, not let me drive? fine. Because -name- means more to me than all those things. Hell, I'll be grounded, I really don't care, I have my priorites, and my friends come before going on the computer, or being allowed to use the internet. If you can't appreciate that, I sincerely feel sorry for you. Fuck you, I'm out" So yeah, that was it... I've done better, but i think it pretty much got the message accross. I don't understand it; he wants me to date her, but he doesn't want me meeting with her at 2 am to talk? Hell, if i said i'd fuck he'd probably would've been more willing. Anyways, yes, my parents are still mad at me, and i'm pretty sure i'm ready to not be in this house anymore. Oh, (only he's gonna understand this) but, Strinerman, i'm not gonna let you take that kind of fall for me, i love you for offering, but its somthing i'm going to have to get the shit for. OK, now that i have that off my chest, back to the girls. (yay) *cough* ugh, i'm going to leave this breaf, but you womenzs probably confuse me more than that exercise bike i put together using the Korean instruction manuel. I dunno what it is about ou ppl, but i wish i knew what you were thinkin, it would make it alot easier to figure out what should be going through my head...
Current Mood: beats me cowboy, i'm kind of out of it
1/25/03- 11:59 PM: aaarrriiieeellllleeee, stop being in florida :-/
Current Mood: *giggles*
1/25/03- 2:00 AM: Omg... by dad is a fucking dick. "Hi, my name is spencer, i'm fat and balding, and i dont want to let my son meet somebody this early in the morning cause he'd get stolen. So i'm gonna sit here and be all 'i'm too good for everyone else' because thats what i do best. Anyways, im an inconsiderate, selfcentered, egotystical prick, and i blah blah blah..."
Current Mood: fucking pissed
1/24/03- 11:14 PM:
"I wait for the day to come
when I'll wake up and be a star.
I dream of a different world...
somewhere where we will go far.
I bitch about my life.
I bitch about the scene.
I hate this fucking town
and wish that it was just a dream..."
Current Mood: overwhelmed
1/24/03- 12:43 AM: Its a five day weekend and arielle went to florida :-/ oh, btw, eating a kispy kreme and then joggin as fast as you can for 4 miles right after to make up for it, isn't the greatest idea. Somebody call me.
Current Mood: ugh, bored
1/22/03- 6:35 PM: wow, i woked up at 2:30 today, hehe. oooooh, sleepin late, the second best thing next to chinese food. btw, i got my permit today, go andy.
Current Mood: tired
1/21/03- 1:00 PM: Today i kicked the Bio exam's ass and did decent on the english exam, go me. and lasts night conversation was... nice ;-D
Current Mood: unusually optimistic
1/19/03- 12:19 PM: omg, i've been on hold trying to talk to the comcast people for about *looks at watch* forever now. So being as smart as i am, i tooked my cordless phone, and tied it around my head, so now i dun have to hold it. go team! alrighty, its pretty obvious i have nuthin to do cause why else would i actually wait for the comcasters to pick up? bah, arielle, stop being at states, we should go hang out ;-) oh, im sorry, there was somthing in my eye. Alright, enough outta me.
Current Mood: bored
1/18/03- 11:43 PM: Just got back from the program ben and i planned, and i must say, it went NOTHING like i planned. It kinda sucked alot of ass. Loss said (yeah loss!) that it doesn't matter if the program part flopped, the people still seemed to have fun, and that made me feel a little better. But i was talking to drew about it, he said that it had alot of potential, we just needed to keep better control, oh well, stupid girls. So, i was upset, ben was... benish, so i skipped hangin out afterwords and went back to bens house. We chilled there, watched The Man Show, and ate ice cream (because we all know thats what you do when you're in such a wonderful mood) and yeah. The only thing that really cheered me up was when arielle called my cell, she was out with her friends, then called, so that means i was on her mind... i guess. I dunnoi, even if it doesn't, it makes me think i was so im in a better mood now. ok, im sure you've heard enough of my rambling, call, lets make nice, cause i could use it. peace.
Current Mood:I ate ice cream, what does that tell you?
1/16/03- 9:35 PM: Hehe, I just let my puppy inside, and he is covered in snow, but he's soo proud of himself. lol, sorry, i found that cute. Just got back from Ian's bday dinner. hmm... yeah, i get my braces off in 4 weeks, and if i can get the bone by then, mayeb good stuff happens? Ya never know. anyways, dL "99 Red Balloons" by Goldfinger- its good stuff.
Current Mood: Hopeful?
1/15/03- 9:46 PM: bone-you can do it andy...
1/12/03- 1:13 AM: Hmm, Jess gave me some 'bad news' a little while ago, but to be honest, I dun think I've heard much things better...
1/9/03- 6:54 PM: Today, I'm officially 15 and 9 months, so I can get my permit. And yesterday to celebrate, I burned my tongue on some wonton soup :(
1/8/03- 11:57 PM: How 'bout that? the fortune cookie from my lunch today was right! "the best is yet to come"
1/5/03- 12:49 PM: :-) well how 'bout that? My bullshit science project is going grand (got some good pics that i can make look better on the computer) what else, ah yes, had elections this morning; say hello to the new Aleph Gizbor of Simon Atlas AZA #126 (you dun wanna know how i won...)
1/3/03- 11:05 PM: Wow, I think i just realized the root to all my girl problems! Is it right or wrong? dunno. But either way, we gots to find a solution, because if you go too long thinking with the wrong head, bad shtuff happens.
1/1/03- 2:29 AM: Happy New Year :-(
12/26/02- 2:31 PM: I spent christmas with the liptons, and i must say that them christian people have the right idea with the gift" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||gifts|AA1VDw">gift" STYLE="background-color: #f0f000; " HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||gifts|AA1VDw">gift giving and what not. But i got a buncha cool stuff, like an Onion Newspaper collection, 'worst case: Sex & dating', chocolates, A&E clothing, a pen, um, and a buncha other stuff. Not too shabby... Alrighty, enough from me, peace.
12/24/02- 7:29 PM: I must say, after a week of sitting on my ass, i think i finally figured things out; thanks everyone :)
12/24/02- 1:01 AM: she has no idea that she has been the one person making me the happiest person alive, and the biggest wreck all at the same time...
12/22/02- 9:24 PM: OMG, so far this winter break has sucked more than evan on a saturday night. Most of my friends are on vacation having fun and what not, while i'm stuck here. Ontop of that, i still have to do that damned research project for science, my english rough draft, and clean my closet. My mom was gettin all bitchy "no, you can't go online till your closet is cleaned blah blah blah." So i'm bored, have shit to do, stuck here with my family, and that 'girl thing' is probablyl going nowhere. dammit, i wanna go.... sumwhere. So yeah, call me, you kno my number, we can go cruising down the street in my impala, then do whatever -- it beats what i'm stuck with.
12/21/02- 9:30 PM: FATAL MULTI-CAR ACCIDENT TODAY on 28 and Muddy Branch. Responding: Medic 39, Ambulance 319, Duty Officer, Cheif 3, Engine 311, Rescue Squad 3, Truck 31, and a shitload of cops -- where was I during all of this? At home infront of my computer...
12/17/02- 3:04 PM: Man, i can't get her off my mind... The kind of girl that you just want to fall asleep with her in your arms, and those hugs she gives that you wish would last forever. A simple kiss from her would be more meaningful than anything more from anyone else...
12/16/02- 10:41 PM: Yes, I just officially cock-assed for Gizbor of Simon Atlas AZA #126
12/15/02- 1:04 PM: "Do you want to know something really subversive? love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why peopleare so cynical about it. It really is worth living for, being brave for, risking everything for and the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."
12/15/02- 12:50 AM: *confused* Do you know what I was thinking? Cause I sure don't...
12/12/02- 11:31 PM: Wow, I have been listening to the "Queen's Greatest Hits" CD for the past forever. And i must say, its quite good. I get to chill with Strinerman tomorrow (yeah!) so that'll be kosher... We were talkin 'bout having a BBYO deal at my hizouse, preferablly a sleepover type thing. So I was talkin to Barbs (mom) 'bout it, and she was all 'yeah, lets do it.' When i brought up the fact that we need to get the basement done she told me to think of an idea. And i have one, oh wait no... we're poor. :) Not living-on-the-streets-giving-handjobs-for-crack-poor, but more like "aslong-as-dad-keeps-his-job-we-won't-have-to-be-on-the-receiving-end-of-anal-pounding-WHILE-living-on-the-streets-giving-handjobs-for-crack-poor.
12/12/02- 7:20 PM: I don't have IMs right now because my dad got pissed off I forgot to bring my house-key to school. Yeah, he's not a dick *cough*
12/11/02- 2:41 PM: ...Just thinking about stuff. *dazed and confused*
12/5/02- 8:04 PM: Hmm... No school today, and what do you kno? School's cancelled tomorrow too. That means, 4 day weekend. Well, tomorrow is friday, last night of channukkah so imma be at Loss's house for a party (yeah Loss!)The best part of it all is that i get to see arielle again... :)
12/1/02- 8:28 PM: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELISE! Wow, today is a goodish day. I hung out with my friends, and that was fun. Also, I was talking to my Mattie and my daddy, and we have a good idea. We all know how i want to join the fire dept. but because i can't i can ride along with the guys, and take pictures, and hang them up in the station. YAY! :) 11/29/02- 9:24 PM: Ever been in the position where there is someone that needs help, and you would do everything in your power for them... except, there's nothing to do...?
11/28/02- 2:43 PM: The dance... was amazing. The whole night can be summed up with the name of one girl... Arielle.
11/27/02- 5:10 PM: I leave for the dance in like half an hour, and my mommy talked to the kids mom that is havin the sleepover, and we made her all kosher with it. GO TEAM!
11/26/02- 8:35 PM: Just got the SiAt comms, and found out that Zach Loss is havin a coed sleepover at his hizouse after the dance. (Yeah Loss!) And, being an aleph, i was indeed invited. However, for some reason or another i thought it would be a good idea to tell my dad ahead of time it was coed, just so he didn't think i was sneaking around his back. Hoping that he would say yes, i got the exact opposite answer... damn old people. What's wrong w/ a coed sleepover? Its not like we're gonna be asleep anyways... ;)
11/23/02- 11:39 PM: just got back from a BBYO deal thingy. And on the way home we hit silver diner and found a couple of girls chapters... and, there's this girl, and, and... and i'll fill you in later, we're gonnahave to see where this one leads... but she's a junior good/bad? beats me...
11/21/02- 10:42 PM: Cute catholic school girls :)
11/20/02- 11:29 PM: Today at skool, sombody broked elise's ring, and its kinda my fault cause i didn't give it back to her when she asked, and now i feel really bad 'bout it, so i'm thinkin i should suprise her and replace it with one that she may like a little more, i dunno tho...
11/19/02- 2:58 PM: Sweet Heart/ Heart Throb Dance1 YYYAAAAAYYYYY
11/9/02- 4:52 PM: VVVIIIIDDDDDEEEEEEOOOOOOO NNNNNIIIIIIGGGGGGHHHHHTTTTTTT (40 jews, split into groups of 5, each given a car and video camera w/ 4 hours to make a video, more fun than a barrel of... funness?)
11/3/02- 9:00 PM: Got back from seeing a movie w/ elise, and if anybody else sees "Punch Drunk Love" and wants to discuss harmoniums, feel free to let me kno.
11/3/02- 10:25 PM: I seemed to have found a song thats better than sex. dL "Headstrong" by "Trapt" if you like rock, you won't be dissapointed. hmm, movies w/ elise? that would work well... once we decide on a movie.
11/3/02-12:20 AM: "Friends don't let friends turn orthodox" I spent shabbat w/ this orthodox family/friend type people. It was hoorrrrriiiibbbbllllleeee. (feel free to ask qwestions later) on a seperate note, my previous 'girl thing' has been given up on :(
11/1/02- 12:34 PM: wow, its 1234 o'clock. hehe, forget everything i said yesterday. :)
10/31/02- 9:30 PM: So, today was halloween. My friend just left and it went.... well, it didn't go. Matt invited some of his friends over, and they had sooooooo much energy. That normally isn't bad, but they kept following us. And she got pretty bored, and to be honest, i dun blame her. Dammit julie!
10/29/02- 9:44 PM: Well, i can't exactly say today was a good day. I mean, it started off well, and things seem to be doing ok for me, but its the things that aren't effecting me that are getting to me the most, ya know? I'm in the position right now that i need to support the people that have been holding me up for so long, and... i dunno, i want to be there for them even when i know i can't.
10/28/02- 8:52 PM: Ever wandered into a situation that you just know you're gonna come out hurt of?
10/28/02- 6:13 PM: Going trick and/or teating with aaaammmmmmyyyyyyyyy
10/26/02- 6:09 PM: Confused, really, really confused...
10/26/02- 11:27 AM: One must know when not to compete with a senior varsity football player...
10/25/02- 9:05 PM: Jackass: Best movie EV-ER
10/24/02- 8:34 PM: Ok children, i have a lesson to learn you. If your brother is on the couch curled up with chest pains, and he is rushed to the hospital, it is a BAD IDEA to ask your mother immediatly after the ambulance leaves if you can go get your haircut now.
10/21/02- 7:38 PM: Hmm.... cute girl from bio...
10/19/02- 10:40 PM: yeah, i was at michelles house, and some other people were there. And i'm trying to keep myself from breaking the rule i have of not falling for friends...
10/18/02- 3:05 PM: As i'm sure i have said many a times befor, I'm no longer allowed to officially join the fire dept when i'm 16. Why? well, i have like every back problem on the face of the earth, and i probably invented a few of my own. My parents are all "no, you can't join or your back'll be all messed up FOR-EV-ER!" So, that sucks ass. I'm just gonna go and get a new job i guess (i refered the flowershop people to hell) and i'm one of the big guys in a youth group my temple is starting. The parents say it would look better on a college resume than the fire dept cause i'm actualy helping creat an organized thingy, and that looks good cause... cause... well it just does (says the parents) i dunno, fuck all of this
10/17/02- 7:26 PM: BBBOOOOOORRRRRREEEEEEDDDDDD, and kinda disapointed, but i'm not gonna get into that part. Um, update on the amy situation, her and i are cool again, but i kinda had to do sumthing that i wasn't very proud of to make it al kosher between us.
10/12/02- 8:32 PM: Wow, my brother is an asshole. I was just watching 3000 Miles to Graceland, and he comes up and tells me the ending. I swear, he has to be the biggest dick i have ever met. What else happened today... um, i went into work today at 9 AM, only to find that they are closing up and nobdy every told me (David's an asshole) so i just sat at home all day bored outta my mind. But, theres good stuff happening to, for example, i'm looking forward to thursday so i can hang out at my friends house and watch a movie or two. Um... tomorrow's sunday, and io have nuthing planned except work (which i decided that i'm not gonna show up to; if they need me they'll call) So i have nothing to do. and i fucking hate sittin around bored. I'm waiting for elise to come back from new york, cause she's always fun to talk to. I decided that i don't like Amy at all, she always pisses me off, but my mom is all "Don't burn bridges, just be her friend..." dammit, everything sucks. Ya know what's weird tho? yesterday i cam home with a huge head ache, so i went to take some tylenol, but i grabbed the wrong bottle and took 80 mg of effexor (its like prozac) it got rid of my headache some how, and you would think with all that stuff in me, id be in a good mood, but no. Actually i kinda am, but i dunno, it's weird. But now i'm just gonna spend my time wondering how i feel about certain people, cause its somtimes not that easy to tell... "Friends are always meant to fall in love with eachother, it just usually doesn't happen at the same time."
10/4/02- 10:13 PM: Ok, its the night befor my bar mitzvah, and i swear that i'm this || close to running away to mexico...
10/1/02- 6:56 PM: Yeah, lets forget what i just said, everything is now kosher.
9/29/02- 12:48 PM: I've decided that i'm a master of interpreting what people say. For example, lets take a quote from the girl i've had a crush on for forever and a day. "I like you as a friend" This may seem fairly straight forward, and to be honest, it is. But lets break it down anyways. 'I' is the girls way of saying that she is referring to herself. "Like" is where it gets complicated. You know how when grandma makes her famous casserole and you "like" it? It's just like that. So "like" is now the equivlant of "dislike." "as a friend" is the nice little bit you add on at the end to make it easier to swallow. Again, lets take grandma's casserole as an example. "as a friend" is the equivlant of the "mmm, this is good." So basically, "as a friend means nothing, because we all know you don't like grandma's casserole. So what we are left with is "I dislike you." Now that is sumthing even Mark could understand. Alrighty, i think i'm done for the day, so i'm off to convince myself that i'm happy. C'ya
9/21/02- 9:23 PM: Hmm. Ya know what sucks? Well, me too. Ok, stuff... stuff... um, girls. Ok, i worded that poorly. Girls don't suck, its just so, how do you say... confusing? Lemme explain, there's this girl, which i think i may have a crush on. How am I not sure well, its actually a pretty simple concept: I don't know. But yeah, she's tall, and nice, and purdy and what not, i mean, i could spend time listing features, but then even i would disgust myself. (and thats pretty hard to do) So i'm a gonna change the subject now. I had a dream last night; my little brother went a birthday party with one of his friends. They were gonna go to Long John Silvers for dinner, but they decided to go to Chucky Cheeses because the "chocolate shower" was open. Yes, odd indeed, and i don't even like chocolate. Again changing the subject, my dad and i spent like an hour in the pet store comparing dog food. (yes, 'one hour' AND 'dog food' in the same sentence) Do we have a sad life? well, yes, but thats not the reason why we spent that time doing that. My puppy is gettin old, and we were looking for food that could keep him healthy. I could not stand to loose another pet. I already had to go through the whol 'Cal' thing, but i'm sure everyone has already heard enough of that. Ok, w/e, i have soooooooo much more to say, but my mom is buggin me about watching "The Ten Commandments." (hehe, jared, yes, i still havn't seen it all.) g'night.
9/8/02- 10:23 PM: It s a REALLY bad idea to put ALL of your clothing in the washing machine at the SAME time, cause then when it overflows and all your stuff is wet, you have to free ball it for a few hours as it all dries....
9/5/02- 10:55 PM: As most of you may know, some friends and I blew a stuffed animal to shit using fire crackers. Its fun, hehe.
8/18/02- 9:46 PM: Turns out my boss is moving, so i may quit my job. but on a happier note, i sent out my invitations, and people are getting them and what not. So people should come. I'm making a funny speech at the party, so is mark and stephen, and anyone else that wants to is welcome. so, yeah. g'night
8/14/02- 11:25 PM: Wow, i have been putting all the junk inside the evelopes for my bar mitzvah. I had to address all of them, and put the stamps on, and EW. It took me like 3 fucking hours! So, if you are one of the people reading this, you better get me somthing pretty in return for all my effort. Speaking of pillows, I learned today that Mark and Stephen are going to make a 'speech' about me at the party. How that has any relevance to what i was saying befor, i don't know. You're parents don't love you! (that was me being supportive) G'night
8/14/02- 3:51 PM: I cut my finger on a raisen at marks house, and it hurt.
8/10/02- 2:06 PM: My friends, we have a problem, the mouse on my computer will only move to the left...
8/10/02- 1:48 PM: Hello children, there is something very important that we must discuss. There has been a qwestion running around in my head, and i just can't find an answer; that's what YOU get to help. ok, here it is: Why whipped yogurt? I was at the supermarket today and noticed that Yoplait and Dannon were making whipped yogurt. I don't like whipped yogurt. You see, its just regular yogurt... but whipped. And when it's whipped, they fit less inside the little cup. So you are actually paying MORE for LESS yogurt, AND ITS NOT EVEN AS GOOD! Like, why would sombody want such a horrible product? It's like me walking into The Palm restaurant and ordering a grilled cheese; or even better, gooing to a herpes clinic and asking where to buy sandpaper underwear. ITS JUST NOT KOSHER! WE LIKE ARE UNDERWEAR SOFT, AND OUR YOGURT um.... YOGURTY!!! So, in protest to this, we must all, as one people, flood the Yoplait and Dannon Administrative offices with letters of complait about the 'new' whipped yogurt craze, its just not cool!
8/8/02- 1:31 AM: Hmmmm... This is my first entry, what to say... Well to be honest, i have alot to say, but i won't say it all cause some like YOU may be reading it, lol. I just spent an hour or two walking on the treadmill and lifting weights, so i took a shower, put on my bathrobe, and went to the computer to entertain myself untill i got tired. But, you know how its sumtimes hard to get to sleep when you're thinking of sumthing that's bothering you? Well, thats whats happening to me, except, the odd thing is that i have no idea whats bothering me. This summer kinda blew. I worked it all away, then took two weeks to go to florida. I got to stay in an old people neighborhood, yay! the only good thing about that place was the Town Center Mall in Boca Raton. Its the hottie breading ground. Like, all the girls there make shiffman look like shit. (that's saying alot) Lets see... I decided that I'm gonna quit my job at the garden center. Sure the people are great, the money could be worse, and i get paid to get a tan and work out, but i'm in all honors courses next year (except reg chem) and i can't let it get in the way of my grades like it did last year, otherwise, as my dad says, "I'll be up shit creak." Oh! you know whats a really really really good song? "Who's Got My Back" on the Weathered CD by Creed. (yes lindsay, i like SOME Creed) I'm just sitting here sipping my diet pepsi and listening to it on my MiniDisc thingamajiggy... I decided that i'm gonna make a 'New Andy Resolution.' I was kinda looking back at my self and decided that were a few things (ok, i lied, Alot of things) that I could improve on. I need to settle down, maybe get a gf, but hooking up with random people i meet at the mall probably isn't such a good idea. I also need to get good grades, and keep the weight off that i lost (30 lbs.) Also, (i dunno if you're reading this or not, jared) But he said that he would teach me to play tennis. I mean, i know how to play, but he's gonna learn me to do it good, lol. And i dunno if he know's it or not, but i am really really looking forward to that. I wanna have my bar mitzvah turn out. I wanna get a car. I also want to join the Rockville Volunteer Fire Dept. As some of you know, i said that i was definatly gonna do it, and my brother was teaching me some stuff and what not, but my dad said i can't. At first he was really excited about it, like, "Good deal, two of my sons are following in my footsteps!" But now its like "Andy, its a waste of time, you need to do some extra curricular activites." But who know's I may do it anyways, i came this far, right? What else.. Oh, i need to be with my friends more. As some of you know, i was putting work befor everything. Befor school, befor friends, and even befor family. So I'm gonna quit. Its been months since i've been with most my friends, and some of you i've never even hung out with. And that needs to change, cause its just not healthy. But what i want most, is to become a fighter piolet in either the US or Israeli Army. (it may sounds stupid, but whocares) Except, even tho it may be my dream, my vision is shit, and you need 20/20 to even qualify. So who knows what i'll do. It seems that I'm gonna go to school majoring in engineering. Oh, and beleive it or not, thats a problem. Cause my brother is doing it too, and its a 5 year program. Then I have two other brothers each going to college, and as my parents said, we just don't have the money for it. So i'm kinda worried how its gonan work out. I put alot of the money i made over the years into a bank account, so i have... about $40,000 (even tho thats none of your bidness) saved for college. and that'll get me 3 semesters! THATS IT! So, i took my dads advice, and i'm starting to study for the SATs. If I wanna get into a decent skool, i'm a gonna need a schalarship. Can I ask you a question? How the hell could you still be reading through my ramblings? They go on forever.... Anyways, its nearlly 2:00, and i should probably get to bed. So i will leave you with a quote from a song. "Who's got my back now, when all we have left is deceptive, so disconnected, what is the truth, now?" Good Night 
