I'm on my lunch break, almost too nervous to call you, but I battle it out with myself and force my fingers to punch in your number. I press send as I exit the side doors of my school. "Hello?" your voice on the other line, it calms me to hear that charming melody in my ear. All my fears are forgotten, "Hi, you called me yesterday?" We pause, both of us expecting more, "uh, yeah. I just wanted to see what was up." That simple phrase sneds chills of joy streaming through my body, you called me. You called me just to talk to me, it gives me so much hope that what we have is more than just a friendship. The conversation goes on for a minute and I remember that I'm on cell, remembering my minutes I quickly end the conversation grinning. You're working tonight, I think I'll go visit you.
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I walk into your workplace and see you standing there. You look up and see me. You instantly smile and wink at me and then continue helping your customer. I don't think I've ever had you wink at me before. I grin and wait until you're finished. I drop off some film, we flirt, I go to buy myself a dart gun, a girl has got to protect herself these days. I leave with my purchase and come back an hour later. You have developed my photos, you charge me for a two-day development even though you did them in an hour. I stay, you ask me to. We talk, you help customers, I want to hug you so badly you don't even know, so I pull out my teddybear and hold it close. It's been an hour and a half and I'm still here, I can't seem to tear myself away from you, it's been almost a week. You go on your break and we walk out into the mall. We sit together on a chair, we have to squish, but we fit. You put your arm around me and jokingly try to get me to kiss you by offering me grapes and then putting them halfway in your mouth and holding them there, looking at me. If I wasn't so shy and insecure I would gobble you up in a second, but I can't. It would ruin what we have, I love what we have. I don't want to ruin it by doing something stupid. I want to just sit here with you, like this, forever. You're back at work, it's late and I have to get home. I sadly leave your side as I ride the c-train home talking to my friend who came along with me tonight. I'm so confused.
