In Chemistry, my friend is saying something to me, my teacher is teaching, my mind isn't here, I don't know where it is, it's not quite with him, not really qhite anywhere. I think it might be holding onto last week, when I was so smitten, when I didn't know any better. He has a girlfriend again. I ahte mixed signals. I remember the "back off" vibe I picked up, I remember how he barely touched me, I remember how he asked me to call him and was complaining about her. Why can't people be straight up? not that I'm the queen of being straight with people, anything but. My teacher is looking at me strangely, am I really acting that differently because of this?
Is this what being depressed is like? I don't have depression, but this doesn't even touch being sad. When you're sad you care. I just don't want to get out of bed in the morning for fear of having to think about it, think about you. I hate everyone, can't stand to be around people. It seems like they're all staring, talking about me behind my back, no one really likes me, not even you anymore.
