Don't ask me to be strong,
Don't try to make my feelings go away,
You were the one who didn't need me
and you can say it all you want.
Embellish the words until they lose all meaning,
but you can't bury me.
Don't tell me what you were
and what you lacked.
Let me decide--
But my questions will always remain;
Have I lost you forever?
Were your kisses just practice so you could be perfect for her?
I wish I could hate you,
I want to
but I can't,
because I see you smile.
That smile that makes me love you even more--
Although now I realize it was never intended for me.
I'm glad you're finally happy,
I'm glad that she possesses the eyes you want to look into
and the body you want to hold.
I'm glad,
because that used to be me.
Because now I know how lucky I am.
I held you once
and you looked in my eyes
and told me I was beautiful--
I'm not anymore.
but I was.
I can live a lifetime of ugly
because I possessed a moment of beautiful to you.