wednesday, august 21, 2002
back from the lbc where parties don't stop til eight in da mo'nin? it's good to be back and tiring too. on monday we visited harvard and mit and then drove down to philly. harvard is too cool for me and mit sucks ass. on tuesday we went to upenn and that is where im going. lady willing, i'll get accepted and i'll go to the school of my dreams. it took 8 hours to get to penn because we got lost and then 12 hours to get back home. the whole trip i drove 11 hours. i never want to get into a car again.. WAIT.... i drove today! dizzam. today i went bowling, i had to take the better offer? anyways, then to eric's. then bumming around and then home.
so.... all's fine with the school crowd. now what the hell happened at church? it's not like i've been there mentally or emotionally since april. but don't give me this shit. stop TRYING to drive me away, fuck i'm not going this month. fuckshit leaders think people are "conspiring" against them? LIKE YOU HAVE ANY REAL POWER. who the hell wants to fucking count money anyway? unless it's yours. yeah some real power. i'm just going to leave the group, you can't even talk to me much less have ANY jurisdiction over me then. fucking leaders DRIVE away people. who gives a shit if i go to hell. it's better down there anyway. i know i don't care. no one cares about your little offside relationships, and no one is talking about them. none of you guys have helped me anyways. when i had questions, everyone just ignored me and let me fall away. now i have no problem openly denying your STUPID faith
08:53 pm
sunday, august 18, 2002
so im in boistoin after 18 straight hours of driving and i drove 5 of them. im never getting on i 90 again. you never know where you might end up. im at the hilton inn of harvard and have two tours tomorrow and am driving 6 hours to philly to get a real philly cheesesteak and maybe drop by upenn on the way. so since im sort of close to new york city, seinfelds abode.. let's close with a little anecdotal humor. you know that nelly song "hot in herre"? is it just me or is that song like a desperate plea from a deranged man.. "hey girl, its gettin hot in herre so take off all your clothes" and then the woman of your dreams gets in front of you and says, "i am getting so hot i wanna take my clothes off". seriously what is that? its like he has his own little fantasy world. and you know those weird laptop keyboards that just muddle up everything you type? dizzam. you know in rural areas when bugs splatter on your windshield? what amazes me are the bugs that manage to splatter their guts all over your side passenger window. a car is going 80 to 90 mph and this suicidal little bugger manages to splatter himself in the time frame of not even a second! DIZZAM!!
09:49 pm EASTERN
saturday, august 17, 2002
GET OUT! [accompanied with a shove] because i'm obviously elaine. and according to caleb, i'm OBVIOUSLY blossom. anyways, i'll be gone til i think wednesday morning. thass alrigh' cuz im still flyyyyy in my new e-class shizzle, i'm just kidding. so uda says this girl jo is like me ey? well, i'll dynamic HER! im dropping by harvard, mit, and upenn. i'll be online a little bit while i'm there so you guys can tell me if you want anything. school starts on monday! oh man, i'm missing precious time with college freshmen. shizzle.
03:03 pm
thursday, august 15, 2002
today i have to run so many errands. wednesday, isaac, ray and john ko came over and we went to vernon hills showplace 8 because we're cheap and then since we were over there anyways.. might as well end up at dan s's right? tuesday was carrie's birthday. i went to visit my grandma, signed up for my harper class, picked up presents, and then headed over to her party. of course there was a cake fight. SCREAMING VIKING!
11:54 am
monday, august 12, 2002
a whopping HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sweet lil moni [go niqua rae, it's yo birthday] and little similar sister, christina. and a word to the wise, always ask your parents in advance if you know of set plans. so today we went to the beach, but niqua couldn't come. i had fun with the forever-in-my-eyes seniors. too bad i'm broke, and i'm a joke, so i couldn't go laser tagging with them. i bet they're still out now. wow, i hate myself. anyways, one of my aunts and uncles came to take the last of the stuff my aunt and grandma left. and i managed to get directions to the apartment complex, though they may have tried to throw me. i hate them. i think they should and could die. he he he. well, i'm going to go visit tomorrow just for my grandma. they can try and stop me.
sunday, i did my thing. go to church, hang out and eat at wendy's and get my orlando bloom fix. then get free food at some restaurant and then crash at dan s's house. so we just played class struggle and the sign game and a tricky numbers game. wow, some people cannot think with both sides of their brains. and then a little mishap occurred.. hmm, how many times have i gone to mundelein now? COUNTLESS. and this time i got LOST on the way back. wow, i think that working with both sides of your brain game threw off my brain's sense of direction from getting to mundelein and getting home from there. much like today, when i accidentally ran into seema's next door neighbor's house.
all i know, is that my stupid brother didn't rsvp to carolyn's birthday so now we can't go tomorrow. SEVEN hours i was gone, and he couldn't do one thing? i'm really getting into songs with a nice beat. i think it helps me get over some rage.
11:31 pm
sunday, august 11, 2002
sooo who's up for twin lakes on wednesday? i know i am! ok, saturday i just got a lot of errands done. i helped steph out with senior pictures and by the way "buddha bless you" or uda bless you cuz its yo birthday go buddha go buddha.. lol, yes.. we had a very politically correct photographer, or ignorant lol. then i went to the mall to shop for a baby's present and then went to get my hair cut. sorry niqua rae.
friday, i picked up steph at 10 to not go shopping for niqua and then to niqua's to not bake cupcake cones. so we just watched head over heels and sugar and spice while we flipped through each and every channel she had. then to steph's grandma's then to surprise picnic. except AMY YELLED OUT MONICA'S NAME! and oh monica, i'm vicious. now you know. later we went to j.lu's house to see her proofs. stupid cat, YOU DID THIS TO ME. i hate angel i hate angel i hate angel ARGH. and i left a present for jessica in her bathroom. it was some dark chocolate; i don't know what you were thinking.. then we called up some people and went to josh's. josh, eric, chris, nhil, and tim were there playing the longest game of chess ever. we moved to nhil's and watched bring it on.
10:35 am
thursday, august 8, 2002
well, i'm back. and i missed everyone. the retreat was.. i don't know what to say. i really loved my small group. i loved the speakers and messages. morally, it was good. i guess it restored me to a less bitter happier person. and i'm not as against organized religion. i really tried to believe it, despite all intellectual and emotional barriers. but, this time i wasn't ready yet. i think i love independence too much. on the brightest of neon sides, the dorms were all awesome. the food was good in my opinion, and i learned to think of how others might be doing and hurting.
well, let's start from monday. we met at church at eight in the morning, and then just left. honestly, i hated the busride there and the busride back. my church members don't help me when it comes to making me want to go to church activities or services. on the way there, i hated them and made up a song to the tune of camptown races entitled "how could anyone love a group, like you like you" and on the way back i made up a song to the tune of look at me, i'm trinity entitled "look at me, i hate you so." but, now that i think of it, i was wrong. i mean, who cares right? just concentrate on myself, if no one else will. and i dont need anyone else to.
i missed everyone SO much! and i heard about all the drama and fred so eloquently states, "seems like the right time for reconciliation within your group." i didn't know so much could happen in four days. and in my family, well.. it's just really quiet right now. and i think i hate my eldest aunt. she lives here, taking in our hospitality.. and then does this crap. i would rip off her face [and my other aunt's face that helped her pull this crap off] if she comes back here.
all's not well with the lees.
oh, and thanks michelle. i just decided to change to the css templates too. oh, and tell john doe to go back to get a life and not check your website regularly, racist bastard.. for me.
08:31 pm
sunday,august 4, 2002
well, this layout will have to suffice for now until i get back from the retreat. i will be gone monday through thursday if any of you are wondering.. these colors have to be worked with :\
i really don't remember what i did all week last week. i'm sure i bothered stephernay a lot. oh, thursday we all went to jessica's show and then left to steph's house after. after the bloodthirsty demons ate for free at my house. jenny came over with proofs.
friday, i ran a lot of errands and the ghettomobile is no more. it has the hubcap and my fourth hour study hall is officially a lunch. mm.. yeah i would have gone to church but a certain.. wait i think THREE bruhoho's prevented me from going.
saturday, i lounged.. got a lot of headaches and then went to danimal and sanghyupah's house. i missed them :)
today was crap and i really cant stand the three bruhoho's and i don't know if i'll be able to take a busride with them. WHY DID I SIGN UP FOR THIS.
08:01 pm
oh schnapps, i'm gonna miss all my "secular" friends this week.. and to chris pogi, justin deiny lil one who's now a long golden-haired wench, tozog, and eric.. NO i'm not trying to avoid you guys. but i wont be able to hang out. ever. after i come back, there's monica's birthday, and the beach party!!!!! oh dizzam. oh, and dave dimsum kim is not one of the three bruhoho's anymore. the other two better 'fess up too. and since i have to get to church by eight, i bid thee good night.
10:15 pm
i'm on a roll at updating today. another thought just popped and once you pop you can't stop. i was looking for enders game at the library but it wasnt there. i was looking for catch 22 and it wasnt there. i was looking for the dragon reborn but it wasnt there. HEY LIBRARY NAZI BRUHAHA, WHY ARENT THEY THERE? just kidding. i don't want to sleep. i want to be happy. why cant people just leave me be? if you don't give a damn just leave me be. i hate it when people act like they are convicted by something the sniveling little snits and then stare you down like their weakminded selves wasn't on the ground crying and whining about there lives. i wash my hands of them. i wash my hands of tears shed for me. i wash my hands of blood shed for me. i'm done with it after this.
10:21 pm