Kenzi's Poetry Journal
UPDATE: this just in... I have a new haven for my poetry! Like, actual RECENT poetry! My writers block is over, yay, and you know what that means; some serious soul searching. LOL... so anyways, CLICK HERE! -> My.In.Carnation
Here are some poems I have forced out!! I am having extreme writers block lately! grrr- more inspo!! ^_^ I think I want to call the first one "Jet Stream" or "Where the sun falls"... -Updated Aug. 18th
a jet of noise
in the stillness,
quiet
unbroken
darkness of night.
I'll wait for you there,
where the sun
falls-
under caskets
of deep,
deep darkness.
and alone I will be
never shall I
escape until
time washes over me,
those tales
nevertold,
underneathe a deep,
deep darkness
Well, I had one of the best phone conversations ever last night. and it inspired more than one peice of writing. Here's a poem I wrote today. I really like it. -Updated Aug. 1st
Sometimes I'm scared,
too.
Of the things I can't control,
I can't stay this way forevor
But i can't let go,
I'm scared,
Of the ways things might be
They'll turn into something different
and I'm afraid of what I can't see,
Sometimes
I can't escape it
the feelings I have inside,
Why didnt it stay the same forevor
And why cant I find rewind.
I spent the night at Cait's house last weekend and I asked her and DJ to give me inspo. Lol! Here's what I came up with lol.... -Updated July 28th
Though the wind on the bow
Is calling
Silently,
All your sighs
Through my blood, everlasting
The fire of our love,
Burning glaze
Of secrets
A powerful redemption
My blood
Blazing like the faults
I've never commited,
The fire
That is swelling,
Cn you not forgive me anymore?
When I was in Reno, Pam gave me inspo to write haiku, and I really got into it. I read a cool article on it too... heres so themes and stuff i wrote for each while i was either on the plane or at her house.. -Updated July 28th
A movie I saw
~one man all alone
trying to find a way home
see how close he comes
~desperate search for love
by himself in a big world
so he can hold her
Riding in the Car
~watch him drive by me
somewhere to go, he's busy
could I ride with him?
Reno
catch me if you can
where should I look for you
in the low valley
Here are some random poems I had written in May. 14th, and 16th; the one on the 14th is not my style, just a cute little ryme-ing one...
16th
Watch carefully
as I step into the stream
you might never see me again
but I have to try
and let loose
If I am swept away
would be better
then not trying at all
for I may end up
on a bank
more suitable for me
16th
I thought I could have loved you
When I'd stop
and just watch
Maybe you could have loved me
But you stopped
and just looked away
14th
Listing my feelings
And jotting them down
Looking for something
That can never be found
In this lake of exhaustion
I have suffered and drowned
So hard to keep searching
I fear to nowhere I'm bound
I have decided to look and see if I can get my poetry published. Isn't that exciting! :-D I also am Pig's 'Songwriter'. ::rolls eyes:: so here is some of my latest contributions so to speak.
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I finally found my favorite spell from charmed. Usually i dont pay much atteention but i liked this one when i heard it- so i finally got it with the help of this one girls website Q&A. So here it is....-Updated April 12th
The spell is:
Locked in,
Boxed in,
Full of fear.
My panic grows manic till I can't hear.
In need of a reprieve so that I can breathe.
Remove my fear,
Please make it leave.
~Amy
Everyone knows pretty much where i stand with this War going on, i wrote some stuff when it began in March 2003, The one at the bottom was written by Kess! I love it so much, we sent that and my prayer one to the soldiers.-Updated April 8th
How can i say it
how can it sound good in words
but for us you left your heart out
on the string above the water...
now ur gone for me
and u will rescue me
its not that bad when people say
it shouldnt be this way...
it is ur heart that chose this time
and with ur heart u used ur mind
how can i explain the way
the way u save the day
for the USA...
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and this is my prayer
lights will flash
the bad will burn
this is my prayer
while the sick
will use the well
this is my prayer
that they will know
and they will flee
this is my prayer
keep them safe
while they fight for me
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I Saved The World Today
I saved the world today
I climbed the highest tree
And soared higher
Then all the birds and bees.
I saved the world today
Oh if only
You could have seen
I flew like superman
My towel cape
Flowing behind me
In the breeze.
I saved the word today
What a magnificent sight
To see…
Perhaps,
I'll save the world again
But right now
My country's calling me.
Well i was thinking about writing a poem for a certian someone, and my mind drifted a little bit into dreams of 'My No One' so the first one is more for that person i guess, and the second one i like becuz i explored a more poetic love thing. now my theme! lol... Updated Jan. 7th HAPPY NEW YEAR HOLY COW!
Did You Ever See Me
It's tearing me to pieces
I am a Blur
In the rear view mirror
Screaming
Wonder
Sometimes
Catches me
Only Gold
To release me
Say you will
With my jaw clenched
I will leave
And in the rear view
I will see my smear
______________________
Goodnight my No One
He says 'Goodnight Beauty'
And he blows me a kiss
And he says 'My Love,
Wait for me...
Your hair of heaven,
And your smile of night',
And he sings to me a song of songs....
I wrote this in the car going to Cape Cod, i really like it and Sun Kissed is gonna make a song outa it. -Updated Nov. 30th
*Are you the one
I can't remember now
Make me want to
Is my touch still
On your skin
Are my thoughts yet
In your head
Act like I'd want
To hear you
Pretend you're someone else
*Chorus Are you the one
I can't remember now
Make me want to
Imagine you're right
Your a little too late
Do you remain
Unchanged
Do I still wish
The same to you
Can you still hear
My fist on your chest
My feelings
Between my teeth
You need to say Hello again
*Chorus Are you the one
I can't remember now
Make me want to
My feelings
Between your teeth
You need to say Hello again
I wrote these a while ago and since jackies poem i thuoght i'd put them here. exploring new options... -Updated Nov. 27th
CHERRY
Like my lips
So red
Dripping with the stain of
Cherry
Red
With swirls of yours
Come rushing back
For the taste of mine
cherry
lingers on your tongue
_________
I want another chocolate raison
just one more
will you let me
give it to me
like so sweet
as your kisses
between my teeth
JACKIE ROCKS!!! here it is... -Updated Nov. 27th
Find me
In a pile of
leaves,
or the cracks in the road.
Find me.
Floating next to the
stars,
with my head in the
clouds. Hidding
from life that
swallows me and
eats
my emotions for desert.
With love
as its glass of
milk, ruinning the taste.
Rescue me.
I just listened to this and found the lyrics. Its a song called "Never Again" by JT. i revised the lyrics so they fit ::wink:: (actually it goes both ways! and i added a song that is the same way, part of one anyways) -Updated Nov.24th
Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Boy, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm twice the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again
Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here to see
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it
Wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness said that I should give you one more try
But you're too late, it's over now
And you'll never get to love me, again
{Oh baby
Yea yea yea yea
See I ain't gonna be the one
Ain't gonna play these games with you
But I still love you
____
Remember girl when I was your man
Ain't nothing gonna take that away
No no no no, no no-no
____
See I remember
In December
We were walking holding hands
And I was your man
Can't we just get back to that?
Baby?}
I'm getting sad again, there've been alot of endings. but wow- i've writin some good poems - Updated Nov. 19th
I Was Led to Believe You
And I tried to believe you
I wanted it with all of my dreams
I was told to believe you
To trust you with what was to be said
Now I know I cant believe you
You took my heart and now foolishly
Given it away
I wish that I could believe you
And make everything turn out ok
Make everything come out my way
__________
So yet I stay
In all these yesterdays
Wishing something I could do
To make my tomorrows
Full of you
________
The light shines in my face
And I hope to blind myself
So tomorrow wont be another day
That I have to watch
As you walk away from me again
_________
I can feel it
When you walk by me
It presses
Rests on my shoulders
Yet still
Can you not see it
In my eyes
That only want to help
__________
Uphill
I struggle uphill again
To get by your side
And beg for your attention
or one more chance
Becuz i could mean something more
If you let me try
I'm struggling uphill
To get by your side
I was talkin online and this is what happened. :) hehe -Updated Nov. 11th
rose petals
fall
into your chest
a cavity for my tears
alone inside the empty depths of your fears
i try to crawl inside you
keep everything from touching me
my thoughts are like yours too
And i ask this
of you
to keep me safe
keep my rose petals
inside you
with me
a rose
wow its been forevor!!! sorry ;-) but heres a cute one i wrote the other night, thats about it! Updated Nov. 8th
They have shouted my name
I cannot hear them
but FOR me they whispered
They have shouted my name
Now i cannot hear them
Lately i've been comin up with some really pretty cool ways to describe how i feel. some have a sifferent spin though. I even found one from a while ago, it's at the bottom. -Updated Oct. 10
Lost memories
That only I see
Come back when i hear these songs
And when the music plays through me
I remember...
_____
tell me why
i feel this way
you would know
if you listened
__Shout it to me!
_____
Falling backwards
Into his arms
That aren't really there
Falling backwards
Onto the floor,
And I cry again
Knowing I failed
To get to him
Again,
I trusted him
He let me fall
Again
These past few nights...-Updated Oct. 6th
Exerpt from one of the Poems
...I miss you
I miss the way it used to be
Even though we are so close
I miss you
You're so far away...
Some Faves from EVIL PICKLES! You all must know these by now. I always use HER stuff.
alone and lonely
nobody to talk to
nobody to feel
so alone and lonely
nothing seems real
but i've got nothing to compare
i just wish someone was here
so alone and lonely
i wish someone was here
i hate this
_____
it's saddening to think how we've grown apart
all those late nights and days together
laughing and making memories,
good times... forgotten
how did we let this happen?
when did we stop caring?
it's maddening to think that this is normal
that people let go and leave
that they slip away while nobody's watching
because... nobody's watching
how is that okay?
it's not okay, it's not okay
_____
I'm sorry for the way I reacted
and I'm sorry for the times I didn't
when I ignored you
and when I yelled
when I pushed you away
the time I wasted with you
I'm sorry I wasn't there
when you were and you wanted me
and now you're gone
and I want you here
and I'm sorry that you're not
Some more poems i dug out of my notebook from all of Sept.- Updated Oct. 4th.
A Dream...
Love helped me down
and for a second after falling
he held my hand, and I
looked into his eyes, and I
had to hide it when Lust came
over to us, like we were hiding it
and I never knew how Love felt
Sept. 28th
*it's there
*behind your smile
*staring straight at me
*and behind my eyes
*is the secret we both keep
*beside our hearts
I found a couple from vaca early this month.-Updated Sept.29th.
In the Bathrooms...
I wish i could be the emotion of this moment
And the walls silently watching us,
I wish i could be were my hand traces
And the message whispers underneath my fingers,
I wish you could read these hand carved letters
And see them, feel them, return them to me...
Campfire
Burning
and the wind speaks through the trees
everyone out
Burning
and I can hear
every live brought here
Burning
lights go out one by one
so everyone is here
Burning
I'll add new ones almost everyday- come back and check often! Here are some-updated on Sept. 27th.
Sometime in Sept...
you're making me cry
you're making me cry
i dont want to be like this
youre making me cry
so quickly you fled
away
i just want to know whats going on
youre making me cry
thats not whats supposed to happen
i didnt even hear your voice
and i cry
and i dont believe you
believe the stagnet air thats lies between us
please call
i stare at the phone
hopeing u will be on the end
but i wont believe you
i'll cry again
to you
to the sound of your voice
and you might be happy
but things will never be the same
NEVER
Words carefully crafted
how it eats at my heart
they might never know
I sit alone
And I laugh
I dont think he ever will either.
They will never know
how it kills my soul
no matter what I say
no matter how long it takes,
would never show them
how I feel about this,
to think of those eyes
what it feels like
to be lost in his memory,
about the face that shines over everything
to not realize how this be
they could try
they will never see,
smiling to myself
think of that face
remember how it looked at me
Becuz they will never know