I'm so lost on who I am.
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: I just wanna fucking dance
I wonder to myself. I love women.. I see myself in death with a wonderful beautiful woman. I don't see myself with the same sex. I am surrounded by gay guys. I can relate more with them. I get along with them. I think they are attactive. But I can't see myself with a guy. Lately, i've tried to picture it. I can't. My manager is gay... yet he's been married and has a child. He was straight before, now he's happily gay. Am I like that? Can I become that?

About me
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Heidi Degn - Close to you
I am a person who does not care for myself, but values just about every person around me. I try to give my all to every person I know. I go out of my way for them and I will take a bullet for almost all I see. I want to be a person who people can count on. I want to be a healer, a priest. I have a beautiful daughter that's 3. I'm going through a divorce that was not my plan. I still love my wife and it was ofcourse my fault. I was not a good husband, but I tried to be the best father I could be. I was 22 when my daughter was born, so I believe I was too young to comprehend fatherhood even though I wanted it. The divorced has opened my eyes to all around me, who the people are, how they are, and what they can become. I try to stay myself regardless of any situation. I'm open minded, and I try not to judge. I'm successfull in that most of the time, but I slip. I am running out of friends cause people talk about me all the time. I don't blame them for being the way they are, cause we are only human. Yet I will still give my all to them. I don't know why I do this.