Love Is What I Got- I Said Remember That

The Sequel to Platinum Rings, Picture Frames and Red Duvet Covers


Ch. 6 WHAT?

By the time that they got home it was time to leave for the airport. Julie told Ashley not to tell anyone yet. The plane landed and Julie was getting more and more anxious to see Benji. It kept running through her mind how she was going to tell him. She had no idea how to tell him. She walked off the jet way and saw Benji standing there grinning like an idiot and jumping around. She smiled and hugged him as he picked her up. Everyone was excited and happy that they could go home soon. They got their luggage and piled into the rental van. There weren’t enough seats so Benji, of course, had Julie sit in his lap. He was hugging her and kissing her the whole time. Joel turned around, “We’re out of food on the bus so we need to go grocery shopping.” They stopped off at a Vons store and everyone ran around getting food. By the time they all got back together the shopping cart was overflowing.

Benji, Julie and Joel were standing in the checkout line while everyone else was still looking for stuff. Benji was jumping around singing and acting like a little kid. Julie laughed to Joel, “What did you feed him?” “I'm just happy to have my baby here!” Benji smiled and poked Julie’s hip, “Hey those are my pants.” He kissed her cheek and put his arm around her shoulder. She thought quickly that Joel could hear this at the same time Benji did. “Well I thought it was useless to buy clothes I’d only be wearing for a couple months.” Joel looked up at Julie and dropped the box of Pops he was holding. Benji picked up the box and smiled, “I know! I'm glad we finally get to come home! Oooh! Marshmallows!” he said running off to get marshmallows. Joel stared at her and she smiled, “I guess he didn’t understand.” Joel shook his head, “I don’t think I understand either. Are you pregnant?” he half smiled. Julie nodded slowly smiling and Joel smiled bigger. “Oh that’s great! I wont tell Benj you can. But that’s great.” Julie nodded, “I was just shocked.” Joel nodded, “Aww that’s great.” He hugged Julie and Benji came back, “Hey don’t bug my wife!” he said tossing the bag of marshmallows at Joel and hugging Julie. Julie smiled at him and he kissed her. Julie smiled at Joel as they began to unload the basket, “Why does he have to be so cute but dumb?”

They went back to the concert venue where they would be performing that night then driving the two days home after that. Everyone helped put away all the food. Joel somehow got everyone to go with him to talk to Mest on the other bus and left Julie and Benji alone on the Good Charlotte bus. Julie was sitting on the couch in the front lounge munching on a chocolate chip cookie and Benji was changing early into his performing clothes. He came back out and went to the fridge, “Do you want something to drink?” Julie smiled, “Sure. What do ya got?” He smiled, “Umm. Pepsi, water, beer, beer, beer, old milk, and beer.” Julie smiled, “Water,” and laughed to herself that she couldn’t drink beer anymore. He grabbed two and sat down next to her. He waited for her to swallow the cookie and kissed her. “MMM, chocolate chip cookies.” She smiled and he smiled too, “So how are you feeling?” Julie grinned, “A lot better actually.” Benji laughed, “It’s cuz I'm here. I am Benji. Fixer of all things broken.” Julie laughed, “I'm not broken Benji.” she took a breath, “I'm pregnant.” Benji laughed then stopped and looked at her. She smiled but his face was serious. “I'm pregnant.” He turned towards her and looked at her, “I heard you the first time.” Julie just stared at him totally confused at what he was thinking. “Well? What?” she asked beginning to get worried. He shook his head and looked down, “How? I’ve been on tour for the past four months.” Julie just stared, “I know I was wondering at first too. But I'm four months pregnant. I conceived just before you left.” “No, you said you had your womanly thing the last time you were here. You can’t be pregnant then.” (A/n: I couldn’t see Benji saying period! Could you? Haha, okay sorry.) “Yeah but I'm still pregnant. There’s like a chance thing you can have both.” Benji stood up and shook his head; “It’s not mine.” Julie looked at him shocked and he continued- his voice raising. “It’s not mine. I’ve been gone. When did you find out? Why haven’t you told me? Why are you doing this to me? Why did you cheat on me?” He was glaring at her and she stood up, “Benji, its your child. I haven’t been with anyone else. You’re my husband.” Benji stepped back and braced his hands on the wall. “It’s not my child.” He said angrily and punched his hand into the wall denting the cheap wall of the bus. Julie stepped back afraid of what he could do. He was bigger than she was and could instantly do whatever he wanted to her. He had never hit Julie before but he had the power to. Julie closed her eyes and stepped back, “Benji you’re scaring me.” He threw his hands in the air and yelled in her face, “Why are you doing this to me? Are you trying to get even with me? I thought we were fucking over the whole cheating thing. We’ve only been married for six months- I’ve been gone for four. You can’t get pregnant in two months. The child isn’t mine.” Julie was speechless. What could she say or do? She shook her head letting tears fall. She turned around and stepped off the bus. She was half hoping Benji would be calling after her but there was nothing- only the sound of the bunkroom door slamming.

She ran across the parking lot to the Mest bus. She opened the door, not caring if anyone saw her. The laughing inside abruptly stopped as she stepped on the bus. Joel and Ashley jumped up and ran to her. They were the only ones that knew. Joel grabbed her shaking hands, “What happened? What did he do to you?” anger in his voice. Julie stumbled across the words, “He- He says it’s not his. But it is. I haven’t been with anyone else.” She choked and tried to continue, “He was so angry and I- I was scared.” Joel muttered, “That bastard,” and ran out the door to find his dumbass brother. Ashley sat Julie down on the couch as the members of Mest and Billy and Paul all exchanged confused glances. Julie was shaking and crying, “He says I cheated. I wouldn’t-“ she paused feeling her stomach flip. She ran past all the people and into the bathroom. They all looked at Ashley wanting an answer as to why Julie was upset and throwing up in their bathroom. “Let her tell you,” Ashley said. “Is there anything we can do?” “No,” Ashley said getting up. She knocked on the bathroom door as she heard the water running, Julie opened the door and Ashley helped her calm down.

After about a couple minutes they came out of the tiny bathroom. Julie sat down in the nearest seat and looked down at her hands. She began to fiddle with her rings. Her engagement ring, her wedding band and her platinum ring- all rings Benji had given her. Tony came up and sat next to her, “Hi Jules. Do you want something to drink or eat or anything?” Julie shook her head only glancing up at him. He nodded and patted her knee, “Just ask if you do.” He got up still wondering and went back to his seat. She sat there for about 20 minutes before Joel came back. Joel came up to Julie and sat down next to her. She looked up at him and he frowned, “He’s being stubborn.” Julie choked and Joel put his arm around her, “He’ll come around- don’t worry.” Julie choked again and a tear rolled down her cheek, “I don’t know if I want him to.” Joel let her curl up to him and cry. “Don’t say that. He loves you. You love him too.” Julie nodded, “I do. That’s the problem. I love him so much and he doesn’t-“ Joel comforted her, “No he does. He loves you.” Joel let her cry a little more then handed her a tissue, “Come on, let’s all go get something to eat or something.” Julie nodded and tried to clear up her red eyes. The Mest guys and Joel, Billy, Paul and Ashley all went into the catering area and got some food. Joel sat down on one side and Tony took the other. Julie leaned over and asked Joel, “Where is Benji?” Joel sighed, “He’s in the bus. If you need something I’ll go get your stuff. I told him to stay away from you.” Julie nodded and poked her food around on the table. All of a sudden everyone got quiet as Benji walked into the tent. Julie grabbed onto Joel’s arm and Tony’s shirt- feeling very unsafe. He didn’t even look their way. He quickly got his food and left. Julie’s tears began again. Joel sighed, “Jules I have to go to the bathroom. Stay here with Tony, okay?” Tony nodded to Joel and Julie nodded too. Tony lightly slipped his arm around her and she tried to calm down again. When she had stopped Tony looked down, “Better now?” Julie nodded taking a drink of her water. He patted her arm, “If you ever need to talk or anything you know where I am. And if you need to stay on our bus tonight you can.” Julie nodded, “Thanx Tony.” He nodded and went back to eating. After a few moments of Julie being silent she spoke up, “Tony?” He turned to her, “Hmm?” “I’m pregnant. That’s what’s wrong.” Tony shook his head, “Why is that wrong?” Julie sniffed, “Benj doesn’t believe it’s his. But it is.” Tony sighed, “You know how pigheaded he can be. Don’t worry.” He hugged her lightly and she calmed down a little more. “If the other guys ask just mention it. But keep it away from the public.” Tony nodded, “Okay Jules. If you’re pregnant you need to eat though.” She nodded and ate her cold food even though she was far from being hungry.


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