MY SONGS
THE MONSTER
[VERSE 1]
Some day i'll walk away,
I'll get away from this place,
Some day i'll walk away,
And i'll come face to face,
With the monster of my dreams,
I'll wake to screaming darkness,
It'll crawl beneath my bed,
It'll wash away all my sins,
And curse everything i've said,
It'll blind my guilty eyes,
And reveal my cruel damn lies,
And punish me for being,
The man i'm yet to find,
[PRE CHORUS]
Cause this monster is daunting,
It's haunting me,
It's after all of my sanity,
But it won't get it,
I won't let it,
I'll regret it,
If i do,
I'm telling, I'm warning,
I'm informing you,
[CHORUS]
But this monster can't tell me about my life,
Cause he doesn't understand,
This monster he can't tell me wrong from right,
I hold my future in my own hands,
[VERSE 2]
This monsters creating images,
Deep inside my mind,
But everytime i try to forget,
I always seem to find,
A way of reminding me,
Of the life i lead ahead,
Will i live, or will i die?
Is the prophosy true?
Why am i still alive, Still breathing,
My death is long over due,
[PRE CHORUS]
Cause this monster is daunting,
It's haunting me,
It's after all of my sanity,
But it won't get it,
I won't let it,
I'll regret it,
If i do,
I'm telling, I'm warning,
I'm informing you,
[CHORUS]
But this monster can't tell me about my life,
Cause he doesn't understand,
This monster he can't tell me wrong from right,
I hold my future in my own hands,
[VERSE 3]
Oh lord tell me,
Why do i act this way?
Or lord please tell me,
Why should i stay?
Tell me why my life,
Flashes in front of me,
I'll only be destroyed by this monster anyway,
Rapture my peace,
This f*cker can try,
But i know the truth now,
The truth is a lie,
I'll swallow him up,
And he'll slowly die,
And the monster will weap in a corner,
Alone, He'll cry
[PRE CHORUS]
Cause this monster is daunting,
It's haunting me,
It's after all of my sanity,
But it won't get it,
I won't let it,
I'll regret it,
If i do,
I'm telling, I'm warning,
I'm informing you,
[CHORUS]
But this monster can't tell me about my life,
Cause he doesn't understand,
This monster he can't tell me wrong from right,
I hold my future in my own hands,
[OUTRO]
I deal the cards,
Hoping for luck,
To gain rightfully back,
The sanity the monster took,
Lying in bed,
Bloodshod from the dead,
This monster is gone,
It was all in my head
JUST WANT MYSELF
[VERSE 1]
I'm walking around,
With my hands in my head,
I'm trying to remember,
Everything that's been said,
I dont understand,
Things have changed,
Why can't i just be myself again?
I didnt wanna be this way,
I didnt wanna see what i've seen,
I didnt wanna mean what i say,
I didnt wanna go where i've been,
I've felt things that not everyone has,
Things are only gettin worst,
As time continues to pass,
Help me, i dont care what i feel,
I just wanna be me, I just wanna be real,
[CHORUS]
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,
[VERSE 2]
I'm sick of speaking a language,
That no one understands,
I'm sick of failing in all my plans,
I wanna push forward,
But i believe that innocence,
Is the emotion of the man,
And i'm innocent of failure,
And at the same time suceeding,
And deep in my heart,
I know i'm still bleeding,
Cause i keep gripping onto things,
I know i can't have,
My life is slowly falling from my grasp,
[CHORUS]
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,
[VERSE 3]
I'm looking in a mirror,
Looking back at me is my reflection,
It feels like i have a different face,
I dont know why,
For the first time i feel misplaced,
My visions blurry,
This just isnt me,
Theres no way it could be,
Who really is this person i see?
Maybe it's a replacement to hide my mask,
To hide the shame which only i could bring,
It's not like i'm proud but the only thing i ask,
Is how long will this torture last?
[CHORUS]
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,
Give me life, give me pain,
Give me myself back again,