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MY POETRY


The Reason
Slice my heart into pieces,
Over and over again,
I bleed the blood in sorrow,
If comes from the pain,
Evil voices whisper in my ears,
In my wrists blades begin to pierce,
Inside my eyes,
They fill up with tears,
Why am i doing this?
Why is my life so sad?
Because i started pushing away,
The best things i ever had,
Thats the reason,
I'm a forever suffering patient,
Because there is no cure,
And because of that i question myself,
What am i still living for?

By rsoldier Created on ( 17.01.2004 )
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You Can Be

You can be my jacket,
You warm me when I知 cold,
You can be my walking stick,
You guide me when I知 old,
You can be my sun,
Lighten the path of my life,
You can be my stress ball,
Release and get rid of my strife,
You can be my love,
You can be my angel sent from the lord above,
You can be my doctor,
Nurse me when I知 ill,
You can be my partner,
When I知 80 your there with me still,
You can be my best friend,
I count and depend on you so,
You can be my comedian,
Make me laugh when I知 at a low,
You can be my cover,
Lay over me at night,
You can be my pillow,
Soft, comfy and hollow,
You can be my teddy bear,
Cuddle up to you closely,
You can be a microphone,
I sing to you remotely,
You can be a poster on my wall,
Gaze at you and how beautiful you are in all,
You can be my hairbrush,
Slide your hands through my hair,
You can be my mask,
Cover up for me when I don稚 feel like showing,
You can be my phone,
I talk to you all the time,
You can be my candy,
I bite into you, you池e so sweet,
Your can be my C.D,
I always put you on repeat,
You can be my star,
You sparkle so bright,
You can be my one true light,
You can be my word,
I say everyday,
I repeat your name; it痴 every word I say
You can be the rain,
You shower me with love,
You can be my bird,
A special type of dove,
You can be my car,
We speed through red lights,
You can be my bullet proof vest,
Protect me from harm,
You protect me, and I値l protect you,
I値l be your safety alarm,

By rsoldier Created on ( 20.12.2003 )
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I Feel Like Shit

I feel like shit,
I can't get you off my brain,
I feel like shit,
I swear i'm going to go in sane,
I feel like shit,
I think about you all the time,
I feel like shit,
Why can't i get you off this mind of mine?
I feel like shit,
I really really do,
I feel like shit,
And it's all because of good ol' fucking you

By rsoldier Created on ( 22.12.2003 )
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Christmas Time Heartbreak

I sit here now in the dark,
It's christmas day,
Presents arn't far away,
But not even presents,
Could mend my broken heart,
The only way santa could please me,
Is by making me and this girl i know,
Never be apart,
Theres no misteltoe,
Cause theres no her,
But theres certainly the wine,
I guess this is what it's like,
To have a broken heart
At christmas time

By rsoldier Created on ( 24.12.2003 )
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Comparison (You.Her)

A young angel stood in sunlight,
Can catch a swarm of fireflies,
Its no madness,
I can see the fear inside her eyes,
The way she looks,
The way she cries,
The way she seems to smile,
For love i know,
She'd walk a thousand miles,

But thats not the question,
It's not the answer,
It's not a single thing,
The birds outside sit on the wall,
And they heavenly sing,
They have no trouble,
Have no worry,
Have no reason to care,
Not like you then,
Cause when danger strikes,
They just fly off into the air,
Their so lucky,

YOU young angel stood in sunlight,
Can catch a swarm of fireflies,
Its no madness,
I can see the fear inside your eyes,
The way you look,
The way you cry,
The way you seem to smile,
For love i know,
You'd walk a thousand miles,
Wow, you two are so alike.

By rsoldier Created on ( 14.01.2004 )
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Message In A Bottle

Roll of thunder,
Hear my cry,
As i kiss my love goodbye,
No point living,
As i wish you away,
No point staying,
If you can't stay,
This, my message in a bottle,
Cause without you,
Like a statue,
My life will only topple,
It sails down the stream,
Till out of my sight,
Just like my love,
Out of my life

By rsoldier Created on ( 27.01.2004 )
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Enslaved

Enslaved in chains,
Whipped red raw,

Screams of pain,
Begging for mercy at their feet,

Open wounds need healing,
Swollen parts need aid,

Memories need erasing,
Never to remember again,

Damn these chains,
And damn this life,

By rsoldier Created on ( 13.02.2004 )
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The Pain Of Living, The Joy Of Leaving

The truth of the world,
Is too much to take,
The truth of the world,
Is too much to fake,

I'll die in pain,
It will wash away my sins,
I'll die in pain,
It will help my new life begin,

I won't beg to live,
When theres nothing to live for,
I won't beg to live,
When my wrongs wont be forgived for,

If my instincts tell me to go,
I'll leave and never return,
If my instincts tell me to go,
I'll go to hell and i'll burn,

I won't stay in this life,
Just to stay to be here,
I won't stay in this life,
Just to live in fear,

To exit is the only way,
To stop the heart from aching,
To exit is the only way,
To stop my body from decaying,

I leave you now,
Because i have no wish to stay,
I leave you now,
Because theres nothing else to say,
Yours Truly..
RSoldier
Our truly..
This Life

By rsoldier Created on ( 22.02.2004 )
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Theatre Of Darkness

Doors that open,
Which welcome you in,
A large room with seating,
A balcony, A stage,
No lighting,
Just darkness,
Only the stage curtains,
The colour red, Of Blood,
Stand untouched,
In the theatre of darkness,
Which play on repeat,
In my dreams,
In my head.

By rsoldier Created on ( 28.02.2004 )
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Lucifers Son

Cradle it still in a brand new cot,
Dropped from hell and left to rot,
Just the indentity cast on his fathers face,
Has already gave him his life, his fate,

By rsoldier Created on ( 06.03.2004 )
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On The Slave Ship

Deep on the slave ship,
Where nobody knows,
Bottom of the bottom,
Where only us blacks go,

Chased and caught,
To be whipped,
Eventually bought,
Damn this $hit,

Workin this slave ship,
But ain't gettin ffuk all,
Aint paid to brush those white feet,
Aint paid to sit and weap,

Deep on this slave ship,
Inside the white mind,
See how many of those negroes,
Which they can find,

Pick us up, Just to let us down,
Below the decks,
Round the corners and around,
The black bodies can be found,

By rsoldier Created on ( 27.03.2004 )
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Fooled Suicide

We fight in vain,
In our country's name,
Or so they make you think,
But the bitter truth is far different,
We die in blood, Not our flag ink,
I once dreamed of going to battle,
For my country, For my family,
I touched that dream,
The day I saw that poster point at me,
"We want you"
"Come join us"
"Let the Germans die!"
Is that it said,
But it wasn't true, It was a lie,
The only truth was DEAD!
Us fooled idiots are slowly falling,
Into the clutches of no return,
Death is on our side,
There's only one way out.. SUICIDE!

By rsoldier Created on ( 05.04.2004 )
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Untitled

One day i'll erase the memories,
The memories of all these past years,
That over and over again,
They come to haunt me,
In m dreams they flood,
They daunt me,
One day i'll dry the tears,
The tears of every cut..so deep..
Piercing through the skin,
Stamping into my heart,
Each stab, each hit,
Tearing my apart

I know deep in my mind,
I'll wake up..
One day,
Someday,
And be released from this nightmare,
This life so bitter..so unfair
I'll wake up soon..
Not sure when..But..
Not today and not tomorrow,
Cause when today is tomorrow,
Theres only sadness and sorrow,
Each new problem hits like concrete.

Its a solid wall and then theres just me,
Me who's unable to pull through it all,
I have an incapability,
It's not a f*cked up world,
I'm just not like you,
Not like any of you,
Death excites me,
Violence is like a brother,
Blood isn't a surreal red liquid,
It flows like the voice of my dead mother,
Hanging around, Always in my head,
Flowing through my body..even when dead

But just like for you..
I feel it..I shake,
In fear..i stutter
It hurts..i suffer!
The gracious red water floods out of my pours,
Out of my stinging wounds,
Urgent! Urgent!
Call for assistance..
But i'm not sure if i want it..
Do i want to keep my existance?
Should i go? Should i stay?
If i go..will the pain fade away?

Or will it just f*ck around with my head..
The way it always does,
It torments me,
The way it always does,
It frustrates me,
The way it always does,
It's insults dig deeper,
Nagging away making me weaker,
Am i too far gone?
Can i be saved?
Will anyone including myself..
Ever really know whats wrong?

By rsoldier Created on ( 27.04.2004 )
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Missing Person

Hello? Hello?
Have you seen my mommy?
She has brown eyes,
And brown hair,
And brown skin,
Hello? Hello?
Is anybody there?
I guess you haven't seen my mommy
Cause she's not even here!

By rsoldier Created on ( 27.04.2004 )
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Lost, Found, Released

Her face so pale, so white
Her smile so upside down, so sad,
She's trying to fight,
What she never even had,
She's lookin around,
She has no clue,
Draggin her shoes along the path,
Scuffin up her feet,

Scrapin through the stones on the concrete,
Don't know why she's rushin',
She's got no one to meet,
Lookin down like theres nothing to live for,
Her eyes glazin she dont care no more,
Lifes a bitch, we should all just die,
So true what shes thinking,
But she could atleast try,

But shes delirious, Shes confused,
Nothings workin out,
If only she knew,
Thats what lifes all about,
She's just another lost human,
In the world we call home,
Bleeding to death,
Blinded by the shit we see,

She was lost, She was found,
She was released by me,
I slit her throat,
Mumbling my sorry words,
Blood on my hands,
Blurrying my eyes, I can't see,
This girl she was lost,
She was found, She was released by me,


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